Still In Love's
EP. 51. Break Up To Make Up

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That afternoon, Blue was looking for Orange to take him to lunch together and discuss the apartment. Blue will make the girl move out of her current apartment.

“Till where?” Blue wonders in heart. Because, he had contacted Orange by phone, but the girl again ignored his call, even when he came to the room Orange, Blue did not find it there.

In addition, Blue also asked Hana, but the nurse said that the last time she met while in the ER room, and Orange came out first.

“Bi, where are you going?” Someone's calls and questions stopped Blue's new steps into the park area next to the hospital.

“Luna.” Blue muttered for a moment after she saw the figure calling out her name.

“Where are you going, Bi?” Repeat Luna again.

“I want nyariin Jingga.” Luna's face instantly turned sour after hearing that.

“Why not on the phone?” Ask Luna wonder.

“Until don't pick up my phone.” Blue replied as his head darted around looking for who knew Orange was in sina, considering yesterday morning he also found Orange in the park.

Seeing the blue that dyed, Luna's head also moved to look for the figure of Orange. He was curious, why would Blue look for an orange like this?

“It's not Orange, huh?” Her eyes squinted to make sure what she saw was really orange, the girl was seen sitting on one of the park chairs with someone.

Blue followed Luna's gaze, her eyes staring dislikely when she found Orange sitting alone with the Sky. Without saying much, he stepped out his feet to approach the Orange.

However his steps came to a halt as he faintly heard their conversation. Blue clenched her hands furiously as her ears caught Sky saying her feelings for Orange were her business.

“He dared to. . .” Blue snarls in the heart. It seemed that he did not accept any other guy who liked the Orange, especially stating it as blatantly as the Sky.

“So the Sky likes the same Orange?” Luna muttered softly so that her voice did not sound Orange and Sky who was sitting not far from where she was standing at this time.

“So know that, he should be able to keep his distance. Moreover, he is the same you soon want to marry, Bi.” Luna purposely said that to make Blue's emotions ignite. “But it's strange even justin Sky to stay close to him.”

Luna's eyes widened when she saw Orange suddenly embracing Heaven, she smiled with a grin. What an interesting sight and at the right time.

While Blue, he increasingly looked at them furiously, his jaws already tightening. Blue felt his face and heart was extremely hot. He wanted to forcefully remove the body of the Orange that was hugging the Sky, then landed a hard punch on the jaw of the man. But his intention was undone because his phone suddenly rang, a sign of an emergency call.

A rude snort, then with a feeling of anger and annoyance he moved from his place.

“Greedy basis.” Luna looked at Orange with a hateful gaze. His gaze was as if looking down on Orange who wanted to have those two good guys at once by his side.

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In the afternoon, Blue deliberately waited for Orange near his room. He would reprimand Orange and actually bring the move out of his apartment right now so that the girl was not close to Heaven anymore.

Shortly after, he looked at the orange who was walking to enter his room while giving a faint smile. His face was not gloomy like yesterday and this morning when he was with her.

“Please it can love recognition from the Sky?” Blue with a shallow mind always makes itself misunderstood. His emotions were getting worse, then he hurriedly approached and pulled the hand of Orange before the girl entered his room.

But without them knowing, the sky that was deliberately going to the room of Orange to invite him to the mall after returning home from work, saw Blue who was pulling the hand of Orange.

He wondered why Blue treated orange so harshly? Because all he knew, their relationship lately was fine.

Curious, Sky followed where Blue would take Orange away, until he finally witnessed everything. Especially when he heard the lowly words that Blue had thrown at Orange, making him rush towards Blue angrily.

PLED . . . .

One hard slap landed on Blue's cheek until the guy staggered back. However, the orange was made dumbfounded with it. His hand was still floating in the air, yet it had hit Blue cheeks.

The orange turned towards the person who had replaced him slapping Blue.

“Langit.” Orange Eyes blink. Why is he here? Why is it like this? Orange wants to slap Blue with his own hands until battered. Sky ruined.

“This is because you have made Orange sound like a lowly girl.” Sky is angry.

Orange widened, because his whole life knew the Sky, he had never seen the face of the Sky with such hardened jaws. The guy with silly and always whiny behavior turns out to have emotions that he can show as well.

PLED . . . .

One slap once again Sky landed on Blue cheek. It was so hard, that fresh blood flowed from the corner of the boy's lips. Orange grimaced a little, she was sure Blue cheeks would bruise and find it hard to move her lips after this.

“This is because you've been so cruel that he picked me. Who would you dare to say that, HAA?” Shake the sky once again with passionate emotions.

Not until there, before Blue moves and replies, Sky hastily grabbed the collar of the shirt worn Blue . One hand floated in the air, ready to give the raw bogeman on the handsome face of the boy once more.

“Lang . . .” The Orange Voice stopped the Sky's intention to hit Blue. The girl shook her head, the eyes filled with tears were clear for Heaven not to do so.

“We go aja, Lang.” Said Orange laboriously with a choked voice as it endured the pain in his heart.

“DAMN.” Umbat Langit while throwing Blue's body violently. His hand now turned, grabbing the orange arm for him to take it away.

“Ji . . .” Blue grabbed the other orange arm, stopping the girl who was preparing to leave. A sorry expression appeared on his face.

The sky swiftly jerked Briu's hand until it slipped from Orange's wrist.

“Other times, you should think twice before issuing nonsensical words.” The sky growled withstanding emotions, he looked at Blue with a look of wanting to kill.

Orange itself only turned its gaze in any direction, reluctant to see the face of Blue.

“Gue likes the same Orange. But Orange is not like that, your words sound very cheap, Prof. Blue.” Say Sky then with great emphasis at the end of the word. The orange that was not strong enough to just open his mouth, could only let the sky represent what he wanted to say.

“And one more. You do not need to destroy Orange anymore, either by reason of matchmaking or healing memory elo.” The sky pushed the chest of the Blue field with one hand, to make the guy a little dazed.

“Lo has no right to say gini!” Sambar Blue stared intently at the Sky.

“And elo more not entitled nyakitin Orange! Release him. Orange doesn't need a jerk like you. Lo don't pantes the same as him.” Reply to the sky.

“Ji, I–”

Orange brushed off Blue's hand that almost grabbed her wrist. The man's gaze looked bleak, but in a hurry Orange turned back his face.

In the end, the girl let the Sky take her away from there, leaving Blue without a word uttered from her mouth.

Blue could only fall into a doldrums with a sense of regret that began to slip in his heart, staring at the departure of the orange that was getting further and further away from his sight.

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Blue drives his car with a feeling of anxiety, his goal is the apartment of Orange. His feelings are now mixed and overwhelming, between anger and guilt mixed into one.

For not accepting the Orange to embrace the Sky like that, plus he knew the Sky expressed his feelings for the Orange blatantly, instantly making his emotions ignited and out of control.

“I’m fucked up.” Blue Umbrella, everything feels chaotic due to itself.

“Thanks, Ji.” Blue murmured with a huffed look when his phone call never got an answer.

“SHIT*.” Blue kept cussing, occasionally he hit hard on the steering wheel of his car.

Until arriving at Jinggapun's apartment, Blue did not find Orange there. Similarly, when he pressed the Sky apartment bell, the man did not open the door of his apartment. It seems they didn't come home.

Blue let out a rough sigh, his hands clenching hard until the veins on his knuckles protruded. His blood boiled again as in his mind it flashed Orange left alone with the Sky.

With a raging heart, Blue again drove his car, down the streets that seemed crowded because it was hours home from work.

“Damn!” Blue heat fog, do not know where to look for orange to where else when he returned to not find Orange on the playground.

With a shunt step, he walked up to the swing and sat there. Blue was silent, twitching in his own mind.

Is he sorry?

Honestly, Blue was very sorry that emotions had defeated her common sense. Blue is aware, this time he has indeed been very outrageous.

Blue did not intend to say such a thing to Orange, it was thrown out of his mouth along with the emotions that controlled his heart and mind.

I don't know, Blue can't control himself when he sees Orange close or laugh with a guy other than himself, let alone see him cuddle like that. Blue did not like it, until finally he would get angry at Orange without thinking, and end up hurting him without him knowing. Because when emotions enveloped him, Blue always felt right and could not think well.

If asked how Blue feels on Orange. Honestly, he's confused. At first, he did not let go of the Orange because it did need the girl. Blue has no interest in liking orange. Just remind him he is skeptical of beautiful, independent girls.

But as time went on, the girl's presence began to interfere with Blue's mind and heart that had felt empty and empty. A smile and an orange face are always on his head when he is going to sleep, even when he is busy.

In addition, Blue also likes to share stories when he remembers something, Orange is the first person he always tells and Blue is increasingly disturbed when he sees Orange close or laugh with other guys. He can't accept that.

But even so, Blue doubts if it is love. Because of the confusion of his feelings, unknowingly Blue has been outrageous and made the heart of Orange hurt.

The only obvious reason Blue wanted Orange by her side was because she needed to.

“Aww . . .” Blue groaned while holding his head that suddenly throbbed pain. He blinked his eyes as his gaze slightly blurred.

“You’re the one I love, Orange. I won't be able to fall in love with another girl.”

Blue closed his eyes in as the piece of his memory appeared. He tried to remember it further.

“You must be a successful doctor and a lot of money. You know I like jajan.”

Next, an orange tickled laughter rang in his head.

Blue calms down with the exhale inhalation method because her breathing is slightly heavy along with her head that hurts.

After that, he decided to go home, and meet the Orange tomorrow only. He thought about asking his parents about the orange, but it was night. It felt disrespectful and it would be strange if he called at night or came to the house asking for Orange.

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The sky always knows how to cheer up the orange. Now they sit on long chairs made of bamboo, enjoying the view from a height in Bukit Bintang. That place is enough to entertain the heart of a gamy orange.

Orange amazed as his eyes were treated to the beauty of stars scattered to decorate the night sky. Not to mention the stunning citylight view from the top of the hill. The lighting of the city lights can also be defined as a star that adds to the beauty of the panorama.

“Ehh.” The orange gasped as the Sky suddenly draped its jacket along the Orange shoulder so that the girl would not get cold.

“If you are hypothermic, it will definitely take me.” The sky instantly grabbed before Orange opened his voice.

“Ish, basic. Though you, tuh, quite diem, Lang. Let it look romantic.” The snorting of the Orange while tightening the Sky jacket as the cold air pierced his skin. The girl's lips were also slightly paled because the air at the top of the hill was very cold at night.

“No, ahh. Later you baper.” The Sky Gurau that was reciprocated was raised by the Orange.

“Becanda . . .” Speak the Sky then while ruffling the orange hair with anxiety.

“Ngeselin.” Orange snorted in annoyance while tidying up his messy hair again. While the sky was just chuckling amusedly looking at him.

For a moment, silence took over again. The two were swept away in the silence of the night and their respective thoughts. Only a heavy sigh dissipated the silent atmosphere between them.

“Lang. . .” Call the Orang-orang-lirih.

“Hem?” The sky turned towards the orange while raising next to his eyebrows.

“What should I do?” Ask a weak orange. His gaze looked straight at the expanse of city lights below.

Long before arriving at Bukit Bintang, previously Jingga told all about Blue to the guy. Of course it makes Sky furious and increasingly want to beat Blue. In addition, Sky was also a little upset because Orange harbored everything alone and did not share with him.

“Nothing, you can stop now.” The reply of Heaven instantly made Orange turn his head towards him, and looked at him with a twinkle of a soft eye.

Exhaling a rough breath, Sky really regretted it used to advise Orange not to give up on Blue.

“But how about Daddy – Mommy? Old man Blue too?” This is one of the reasons that makes the heavy Orange decision to end it all.

“How are you? You okay keep getting hurt like gini?” The question of Heaven made Orange shake his head weakly. Of course he doesn't want to, he also has to love himself. The orange will not allow others to hurt themselves at will.

“If so, you can release him now.” Said the Sky then while reaching for one hand of Orange to hold it.

“Udah is enough, do not try hard alone again. You have done everything you can.” Sky Imbuh.

“I'm sure you can take the best decision, Ji.” Speak the sky while making a knotty smile. “Remember, which will mengejalanin it all you.”

The girl licked her dry lips, unmoved looking at Sky who was smiling shadyly at her.

“Then so buy me good food now.” Pinta Orange, made Sky look at him with a frown in wonder.

“I have to spend a lot of energy to give understanding to both Father and Mother.” Continue orange with a fluffy smile.

“Let’s go . . .” Exclaim the Sky with a smile that is no less fluffy. The man then got up from the chair and stretched out his hand to help Orange stand up. But Orange even brushed off the hand.

“Why?”

“I want you to carry me.” Without warning, Orange leaped to the back of Heaven and wrapped his hands tightly around his neck. His sudden action instantly made Sky's body almost fall forward.

“You're heavy, Ji.” Sky Protest. But even so, he started walking towards the food stalls available there.

“Ihh, good. Not that I'm so light, huh, like a baby?” The orange snorted inadmissibly, then casually placed his chin on the shoulder of Heaven.

“Iya, really. You are light as a baby, but a baby elephant.” Reply Sky is getting stuck. The orange snorted bitterly and gave a punch on the Sky's shoulder in agitation.

The two laughed lightly. Every now and then the Sky pricked the Orange by pretending that it was going to drop it, obviously it made the Orange nag at him.

“SKY.” Orange shrieked loudly while tightening his hand that was coiled around the neck of the Sky so as not to fall.

“Ji, you want to kill me?” The sky protested as his neck felt suffocated.

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The next day, Jingga came to the hospital escorted by Sky in a hurry. At dawn he got an emergency call from Albi. She said the pregnant woman with a history of congenital heart problems that she checked yesterday will soon give birth, but her condition is not good.

As a result, the orange who is still plagued with drowsiness must wake up and do his job as a doctor. Jingga asked Sky to drive her because her car was still in the hospital.

“Thank you.” Speak Orange as Sky stops its motor in front of the hospital. But the sky called back to him, making the girl turn to look at him.

“Helmnya, Ji . . .” The sky rolled his eyes lazily. The habit of Orange since High School is not lost.

“Ahh, yes.” Orange grin wide to then hand his helmet to the sky. The boy decided to take a motorcycle so they could get to the hospital quickly.

The orange takes big steps to get to the operating room immediately. He hoped his arrival would not be too late.

A few hours later . . . . .

Orange left the operating room at about seven in the morning. There was a heart attack in the middle of the operation, which is why he took a little longer to treat the patient.

The orange stretches its stiff muscles while yawning widely. It was fortunate that there was no one in the corridor that he was passing through at the moment.

Entering her room, she then settles down on the sofa with one hand she keeps over her forehead. Orange did not sleep, his eyes straight staring blankly at the ceiling of his room.

Orange pondered, thinking about where to start from where he made his decision.

The decision of the orange is already unanimous. He will end it all with Blue, and will accept any possible consequences he will have.

“One week.” Orange Mumbles while exhaling heavily. It probably took only one week to finish everything, according to what he had planned last night during a contemplation in his room.

After about half an hour of struggling with his mind and heart, he then got up, then rushed to the bathroom to wash his face and change his clothes with a new scrub uniform, because Orange has to get ready for the first person she will meet and tell about this.

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“Doctor Orange . . .” Giselle smiled kindly greeting Orange.

“Pak Director is inside no, Ma'am? I mean, he's not busy anymore, is he?” Ask Orange a little doubt.

“No, coke. You can just go straight in, Doc.” Giselle replied, letting Jingga in without any intention of dropping her off, thinking that since Jingga was the future daughter-in-law of her superior, she could slightly free the girl.

“OK, thanks, Ma'am Giselle.” Say orange with a fluffy smile.

Not directly knocking, for a moment orange pecked at the door to calm himself. He squeezed his hands which started to break out in cold sweat, the orange guts shrunk slightly. Imagine he will be damprat from Om Rendi in there later.

“Huuft.” The orange exhaled a long breath, to then knock on the glass door in front of him. Orange then entered with trembling legs after getting the sahutan.

“Good morning, Om.” Sapa Jingga was nervous, but she tried to hide it. This was his first time dealing with Om Rendi, just the two of them.

“Sit, Ji.” Om Rendi asked Orange to sit in front of him.

“What's up, Ji?” Om Rendi asked, astonished to find his future son-in-law meeting him like this.

“Eung. Earlier I apologized for interrupting his time, Om.” Said Orange a little unsatisfactory.

“It just so happens that Om is no longer busy, really. So you relax.” Om Rendi said while smiling.

“So like this . . .” The orange took a deep breath to neutralize his nervousness.

“Actually I'm here on work and personal matters.” Then Jingga began to express her intentions.

“Iya?” Tanya Om Reni.

“The first, about work. I want to give this.” With trembling hands, Jingga took an envelope from her suit pocket, and handed it to Om Rendi.

“Delivery letter?” Om Rendi looked surprised and confused. “Why, Ji?”

Orange bit her lower lip hard, she confusedly again arranged a sentence to say to the middle-aged man before her.

“Or because you are getting married soon and getting ready to be a housewife?” Om Rendi teased him. Orange just smiled awkwardly.

“Om no problem then. It's just, love your education. This hospital also still needs you.” He said later, a little sad.

“Not so, Om.” Sambar Orange. Taking another breath, he then ventured to look at Om Rendi seriously.

“It's precisely because I don't want to marry Blue Brother. I intend to resign from this hospital. Sorry, Om.” The orange voice squeaked at the end of the sentence, he hurriedly lowered his head, afraid of the reaction Om Rendi would give.

“What do you mean, Ji?” Ask Om Rendi. Jingga looked up timidly, her expression Om Rendi was truly unreadable.

“I don't want to continue this matchmaking, Om. I can't marry Blue Sister.” Answer Orange firmly.

“You have a problem? Does Blue hurt you?” Ask Om Rendi again with eyes full of search.

“Neg. We don't have any problems, really. I just don't want to.” Deny Orange, but the change in the look of the face of Orange who became sad could not lie Om Rendi.

The middle-aged man exhaled a rough breath. “Om will not accept your resignation letter.”

Orange was surprised and suddenly saw Om Rendi even tore his resignation letter.

“Even if you are not married to Blue, you will still work here, because this hospital needs you.” Om Rendi.

“OK, if so I will not resign, but I ask Om permission me to end the match.” Orang-ga tried to make a deal. “I beg, Om.” Pintanya.

“Give Om a clear reason, why you want to recognize it.” Om Rendi's voice was cold.

Orange gulped his saliva with difficulty, the atmosphere in the room began to be unpleasant. His courage against Om Rendi collapsed bit by bit.

“I have a girlfriend Om. I'm not in love with Blue Brother.” Answer the orange lie. Although maybe he will be labeled bad, but Orange is more unlikely to complain if Blue has hurt him. Could've beaten up Om Rendi that guy later.

Om Rendi slid into the eye of the orange trying to avoid it. He found a lie there. After all Om Rendi knew that Orange would not be that easy to forget the Blue he had been waiting for nine years.

“Also, do not lie to parents.” Speak Om Rendi accompanied by an amused snort. The girl's face looks ridiculous now.

“Om listen, among young people there is the term break up to make up. Om will allow you to take a leave of absence until an unspecified time limit to calm down and reflect on everything. Om can postpone your wedding.” Om Rendi later.

“But, Om–”

“Udah, you're out. Om no work.” Om Rendi interrupts the speech of Orange who will protest.

“Om–”

“Giselle . . .”

“OK, I'm out now.” Sambar Orange before Om Rendi called Giselle to expel her forcibly.

“What did the rascal do?” Om Rendi growled stifled after the departure of Orange.

“Blue, to Papa's room now also.” The middle-aged man's word did not want to be denied, making Blue across there immediately keep the phone away from his ear because the father's voice was too high.

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Orange bent her face as soon as she knew her first attempt was fruitless. It turned out that persuading the old man was not easy.

But it's okay, just enough to tell the parents, their stupid period agrees or not. The orange will still end it, because his heart is too tired.

In the afternoon today Orange awaits the arrival of Blue in the playground. Blue has been calling and asking her to meet. Orange immediately agreed, considering he also had to talk to Blue about his decision.

“Jingga . . .” The call of someone who is none other than Blue disperse his daydream. The orange eyeball follows the walking Blue and sits next to him.

“Ji, how do you talk to Papa?” Blue asked directly, she even forgot her intention to apologize to Orange.

Blue remembers, Papa called him to the room this afternoon. He asked what had happened to them until Jingga wanted to annul her marriage. Blue did not answer the man's question, he just came out with a feeling of surprise and anger at once. Blue really doesn't like Orange to say anything about ending a relationship.

“You're not stupid to not be able to interpret it, right?” Sahut Orange.

“Ji, if it was because of my yesterday, I'm sorry. I'm just emotional just look at you the same Sky.”

Orange smile miris. Apologizing is easy. But did Blue really not think about her feelings at all?

“Not because of that. I just don't want to continue this.” The orange grabbed Blue's palm and handed her the engagement ring.

“You're nothing, anyway?” Sambar Blue regained emotions.

“I don't want to keep you, but you made me give up on my own.” The girl did not heed Blue's words, her voice sounding soft.

“Part of you need me just to help you return your lost memories as well as a trophy of pride, right?” Orange sighed for a moment to pause his sentence. “From now on I can't help you anymore. There is Doctor Johan who is better able to help your recovery. And one more thing, I don't want to be your pride trophy, nor am I a pick me like you said.”

“I know, and I don't mean to talk gi–”

“But I've already been hurt.” As long as it was orange, his eyes began to glaze over.

“Maybe you forgot, I once agreed to your request to try to drop my heart as you did back then.” Said Blue reminded the request of Orange in his apartment at that time.

“Yes, but did you try it? No, Sister. So what's the point of me keeping you?” Orange pulled the corner of his lips slashed. The corner of his heart again throbbed pain, considering all this time he had only been fighting alone.

“You won't be able to do this. Cause I know that you still love me.” Blue still can't take it. No, he'll never let the orange go. The orange is his.

“Yes, I love you. But you? Have you ever cared about me?”

Blue was stunned, unable to reply to the words of Orange.

“I'm tired of fighting alone. Rather than you, I would rather be with someone who would fight for me.” Continue Orange.

It hurts when someone we fight for doesn't fight for you back.

“I'll pretend not to be this.” Sahut Biru once again handed the ring to the hands of Orange. His eyes showed complete rejection.

“Terasu. I'm leaving now.” Orange spoke coldly and moved from his seat, leaving Blue who was still looking at him with a sharp gaze.

“Don't expect that to happen, Ji.” Blue half yelling. But the orange didn't heed it.

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To be continued . . . .