Still In Love's
EP. 66. Tell Me What To Do?

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It had been almost a week since Orange returned to work at the hospital, and during that time he ignored Blue. But Blue didn't just give up. The guy every day always tries to get close and attract his attention so that Orange does not ignore him anymore.

Apologizing, saying the word love, giving a bouquet of flowers every morning, even Blue gives strawberry yogurt accompanied by memos like the Orange once did to him first.

Not to forget, every morning Blue also pick up Orange when going to work, enter the room just like that to invite Orange lunch, and hold Orange at the exit to take Orange home.

But Orange is not touched at all with the effort Blue did. He always refused, without words. The girl actually did silent treatment in expressing her anger.

Such an orange attitude makes Blue heart feel slashed every day. How not? Orange avoids and also considers Blue as if he is an invisible ghost in his eyes.

Orange as if not heard, how hard Blue effort called his name. Orange as if not see, although Blue standing in front of him. Orange completely ignored him well.

For example, as at this time. Orange was waiting for the elevator door to open to return to her room after she finished making a patient visit. However, the orange does not enter when the elevator door is open. He was standing there, his eyes now meeting and locked with Blue eyes that were also looking at him with a sad look.

A single Blue smile crossed her dry-looking lips, hoping that Orange would reply. But as usual, it was as if an orange smile for her had frozen. Blue doesn't get the same reply. The girl instead dodged her gaze and turned around, choosing to walk through the emergency stairs.

“I've just come out.” Blue hurriedly came out and restrained the orange arm that was about to step away. Orange turned towards him, his gaze then descended on the hands of Blue perched on his arms. As if understanding Orange did not want him to touch, Blue hurriedly released his hand. In this situation, Blue does have to give up a lot.

“You first. I can wait for the next lift.” Continue Blue while reviewing a thin smile. But his gaze held a deep sadness. It was painful to see the orange continue to ignore him like this. Is Blue so disgusting, to the point that Orange doesn't want even one lift with it?

“Why wait for the next elevator? This elevator can accommodate more than eight people. We can go in together.” The sudden cry of Heaven that made Blue and Orange automatically turn towards him.

“Come, login.” The sky furiously pushed Blue and Orange who were still standing in front of the elevator. Orange snorted bitterly, eager for him to hit the Sky at this very moment.

“What?” Ask the Sky when he saw Jingga making a sharp look at him with a mouth that muttered silently.

“Emang I why?” Ask Orange jutek.

“Yeee, don't rent it, kali.” Cibir Langit while wiping the full face of Orange using his palm. But a moment later he screeched as Orange deliberately restrained Heaven's hand and bit him.

“You think you're a dog?.” The sky grumbled in annoyance as he looked at his hand which had an orange bite mark.

“Ya and you look like bones.” Sahut Orange is relaxed, but with a lazy tone. The sky just grunted as hard as it heard it.

“Your eyes, tuh, are not normal, can not be different where the bones where the person is handsome.” Sky Protest later.

“Eww, amit-amit.” The orange had an expression pretending to want to vomit.

The sky returned. “Emang actually like that, really. All the doctors and sisters in this hospital said themselves.”

“Maybe right now I'm the only one who knows that taste the most. Feel how people I like, absolutely do not want to look at me.” Inner Blue who had just been standing behind looked at the interaction of Orange and Sky with a slick gaze. A hint of envy tucked in his heart looked at their small debate. Blue wants to do that. Arguing about something unclear. That looks fun.

“But I'm not. You are not handsome at all compared to Kak–”

“Who?” Asked Sky smiling wryly, his gaze full of probing and urgent. Damnit. It's almost orange keceplosan.

“K–kak Gara.” Speak a little orange and coincide with that elevator door open, until Orange uses the opportunity to escape and immediately get out of there even though it has not reached the destination floor.

“Where are you going, Ji, this is not your ward?” Sky asked half-screaming looking at Orange who hurriedly left, but the girl did not heed, she just waved her hand from behind.

“Obviously he doesn't want to be in one room with me.” Blue said smiling bitterly.

Hearing Blue say that, Sky turned his head and smiled at him, then said “Jingga still in love with you.”

“I’m not sure.” Blue exhaled heavily while putting both hands into his doctor's suit pocket. The look on his face looked desperate, making Sky's mouth itch to sneer at him.

“Lo is a real guy. Udah crybaby, insensitive, easily desperate again.” Cibir Sky is anxious. Blue doesn't fight, he just silently accepts all the scorn. His ears are now accustomed to hearing the chatter of the Sky which sometimes beats netizens julid.

“Keep, now what do you want? Lamenting while feeling sorry for yourself?” Oceh Sky then. Blue just shook his head weakly. I don't know what the head of the hood means, the sky doesn't know.

“Jungan emang lose his trust the same lo, but that does not mean he is not dear, and you do not feel the struggle lo already great. Think again, maybe your efforts are still lacking for him. Here are fretted Orange, do not even lo who feel the most hurt.”

Blue went silent, back stunned by the words of Heaven. It is true that he who has instilled disappointment in the heart of Orange to freeze his warm heart.

“Why are you so excited about me like this?” Blue asked with a tingly smile. Shouldn't the guy feel happy, because it means the opportunity to Heaven get Orange heart is wide open.

“Because I want you guys to reunite.” Answer the Sky with a smile that looks more detached. Blue looked at him with a deep frown.

“Not you yourself who said we want to compete with sportsman?” Ask Blue wonder.

“What competition? I'm already the winner.” Answer the Light Sky. Next to the raised eyebrows did not understand.

“Yes, I won, because I have managed to let my loved ones to be happy with the choice of his heart.” The sky paused for a moment. “And the happiness of Orange it elo.”

“So, go forth and conquer. Everything will work out fine for you, I’m sure of it. Fighting.” The sky smiled and patted Blue on the shoulder, as if channeling his spirit there before then he exited the elevator with a much calmer feeling.

“I’ll do my best.” Blue murmured while staring at the departure of the Sky which was further from his view along with the elevator door that was closed again.

Sometimes, God makes the story of our lives run with someone just to be a friend at a time. Like Heaven, he realized that the heart of Orange would never belong to him.

Sky felt he and Orange were not destined to be in a beautiful story beyond the colors of friendship. Their relationship will only be made a friend. Just friends, it's hard to be more, and probably never will be. The sky does not want to dispute the fact or try to break it.

From the beginning, everything was clear. An orange is someone who is too impossible to be destined to be in the same feeling as him. It was also very clear that his heart rhythm with orange was different. Then what can he expect?

If only Heaven would not release the Orange. Thus, in every hope he would only incise a single wound that slowly piled up, then spread and form a large hole in his heart. The sky did not want that to happen to him.

Love may not always keep us together, right? Everyone has a different way of loving someone. Like the sky, the man chose to let go, and hoped that Orange would be happy even if not with him.

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The day before, Heaven approached Orange who was reading a book in the library at his parents' house. Since her return the girl has not been allowed to live in the apartment alone after what happened. His parents now even gave him a driver to drive him back and forth to work. This made Orange a little upset, it felt like he was a prisoner.

“Read what book, anyway?” The sky snatched the book that the Orange was reading from his hand. That of course made Orange open his eyes.

“Trauma Healing?” The sky looked at the orange with a full gaze.

“I just read doang. Not wrong, right?” Oranges avoid eye contact with the sky.

“Jingga. . .” The tone of the voice of Heaven was heard asking for more explanation.

“I can still top it all by myself without the help of a psychologist.” Reply Orange cannot be evasive.

“PTSD (post traumatic stress disorder)?” Ask Sky reassuringly. Orange just nodded slowly.

“What are the symptoms?” Asked Sky again, the look on his face started to worry.

“Nnot bad. I'm just kind of bothered by the sound of plane engines, lightning, fireworks, the sound of heavy objects falling, and insomnia. It will heal itself, really, over time. Yes, no need to overdo it.” Light of Orange while reclaiming the book from the hands of Heaven.

“It's severe. You need treatment.” Sky Tegur upset.

“Ish, yes later, ahh, chatty.” Grunts the orange and starts to open the book again, looking for the last page he had read.

“Crewet-chuckle. I'm just worried about you. What if you go crazy, try?” Reply Heaven is no less upset.

“I will not go crazy just because of panic disorder is not how much this.” Orange chuckles annoyed.

“Besides PTSD, what else do you get from there?” Sky then. The orange knitted its brows, failing to digest what the question of Heaven meant. “Have you succeeded in training Blue?”

Orange was quite surprised to hear Sky's question, but he disguised his surprise by pretending to open the pages of the book.

“Hmm.” Answer the short orange without taking his eyes off the book he was pretending to read.

“Where can I, while I think of him every day?” Inner Orange stared blankly at the row of writings in the book he was holding. She hated her heart for still missing the guy when she tried so hard to forget him.

Orange misses Blue as much as she hates him.

“It's funny.” The corner of the orange lips is slightly attracted and forms a thin smile.

Either vain or funny. Orange has gone far and tried to forget Blue. Yet as if his nerve cells were not functioning, Blue continued to wander around in his heart and mind even though he kept telling himself that he hated Blue so much, unmitigatedly, the guy even appears in his dreams whenever he sleeps.

“You’re a bad wild. I know, you’re still in love with him, Orange.” The Skylips looked at the Orange who was trying to escape from its gaze.

“You really. I still love him. But now, I don't want to show it again.”

“My heart has been hurt a lot. Because of him.” And that's what he said from his mouth.

“And add wounds in your own heart by ignoring him?” Sambar Langit on target.

“Nggak.” Elak Orange.

“It’s not fine. I'm really tormented by this. But I guess, this is much better than I have to get hurt again.” Orange thinks the action of silent treatment is a form of self-defense.

“I’m fine.” And the sky is not stupid to not be able to read the body language of the Orange.

“Don't get too vengeful, Orange. You realize, don't you? In addition to hurting yourself, your attitude is also hurt feelings Blue. Silent treatment is the most hearty form of anger, it is the cruelest attitude to hurt others, because it mediemin people can actually damage the mind.” Sky then.

“I don't care.” Lying, even his heart felt pain when he saw Blue's desperate face due to her cold demeanor. The orange even feels worse after doing that and comes back crying when alone.

“Everyone desires a second chance.” Exciting Sky.

“But I'm not among those who can give that.” Reply Orange firmly. For the third time he heard this after Ameera and Sagara.

“Do not be stubborn.” With anxiety the sky again snatched the book from the hands of the Orange. He knew that Orange was only pretending to read to avoid eye contact with him.

“Why do you now even belain him, anyway?” The Orange protest was upset. Not only Sky and Ameera, even his family also seemed to defend Blue.

“Because he's already my friend. Good friend.” Orange groaned when he heard the sky say that.

“Do not ngaco, deh. From the past you have never been able to win other than me.” Seru Jingga chuckled in disbelief.

“Finally my only friend is left for a long time and never ngabarin.” Answer The sky is full of insinuations. Orange just grunts.

“Dengers. He's done the same with all his deeds.” The sky then tells how the state of Blue after his departure, Blue who continues to blame himself, Blue who cries every day because so misses him, including Blue who got sick and drunk because of thinking of Orange.

Orange was stunned to hear the story of Sky, so he remembered his bad hope at that time who wanted at least Blue should feel pain, just as he felt.

Her heart melted the pain of hearing that, but the disappointment that Blue stuck in her heart did not make her melt.

“Isn't that more than enough? Blue even gets more pain than you. That jerk has been really tormented all this time, Ji.” Sky then.

“She's like that because she's the same as me, right? I can't believe he's actually aware of his mistake.” Orange tried to deny, the corner of her lips turned into a cynical smile.

“Neg. Before or after her memories healed, her regrets and guilt were just as great, I could see that, Ji.” Answer Heaven sure.

“Where is that girl? Blue still tacky with him?” Orange felt his heart hurt again. It is still clear in his memory how Blue always defended Luna, even the guy did not hesitate to accuse her. Especially when he remembered Luna in the Blue apartment at that time. Absolutely disgusting.

“A few months back Blue is more often the same as me. I don't know what happened to them, which I know Blue tried to avoid him all this time.”

Beating up after Blue found out how Luna's true nature was, she actually kept her distance with the girl. Although Luna was still trying to get close to him, but Blue never gave Luna a chance to even say hello to her.

“Why can?” Ask Jinga.

“Where do I know.” Heaven's Path while pengedikan no matter.

Orange was silent with a thought of guessing, curiosity infiltrated his heart.

“Just Denger this is fine. Love him the chance to fix everything.” The sky is back on the initial topic.

“Appaan, hell, really males.”

“You may be angry now, but don't be long, or you will be sorry. Blue people who are quite capable of dapetin a girl who is prettier than you.” The sky scared him a little.

“I don't care.” The orange voice sounded doubtful. The smiling sky sneered at the orange face water that turned into a dilemma.

“Remember what I said. I went.” The sky rose from his seat a moment after ruffling his orange hair, and then he passed away leaving the Orange still deep in his own mind.

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“Drink this and give me a little apologies you at every sip. ❤❤”

From : The jerk who asked for a chance.

Orange smiled scornfully as she read the writing on the sticky note attached to a strawberry yogurt bottle that greeted her every morning on the desk.

“Can he not write other words besides this?” Ask Orange in the heart as if sneering memo left by Blue which is the same content every day.

“I hope, this sunflower can warm your heart a little.”

The orange snorted as his eyes turned to read the message on the sunflower Blue had sent.

“Why aren't you warmed up on the stove?” Cibir Jingga who felt amused by the writing.

Maybe if it was in the Korean drama he was watching, Orange would feel like this kind of action was very romantic. But while experiencing it for himself, he really felt amused. The orange felt no touch at all.

“I wonder who, anyway, likes to send you flowers every morning? Never once did he get caught, even though I like to come in the morning.” Said Hana who suddenly entered the orange room to submit the patient file. Orange was a little surprised at his arrival.

“Hana, why don't you knock on the door first?” Tegur Orange is a little upset.

“Sorry. The door opened.” Sahut Hana relaxed while pointing towards the door. Orange snorted, then turned his attention towards the door that was wide open.

“Ohh, yes, I forgot to close earlier.” Muttering orange as he realized his mistake. Just a tingly grunt.

“You don't want to receive the flowers anymore, do you?” Guess Hana who immediately answered nodding by Orange.

“Sini, let me take it. I'll save that patient room.” It's always like that. Orange only took sticky notes, while the flowers were kept in the patient's room for special service reasons. It's nothing, Orange just regret if the flowers are thrown away.

“Why not be accepted, anyway? In fact, every day the person sends you beautiful and different flowers.” Hana's comments were astonished.

“I don't like.” Answer the orange. “No likes the same people who send.” Clearly in the heart.

“I guess pretty people like you like flowers.” Hana said regretting that the orange did not receive the flowers.

“If I succeed in mergokin him. I'll tell you not to send you any more flowers. Poor him, the money was wasted free, ntar exhausted.” Oceh Hana before then she left from the room of Orange.

The orange snorted amusedly, not knowing only Hana if the one who sent the flower was their superior.

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In the afternoon, Jingga chose to enjoy her free time on the roof of the hospital. He stood by the wall of the barrier, breathing deeply there while enjoying the breeze he let on his face.

“I really miss this place.” Orange Mumbles in the heart. His eyes twinkled, he circulated his gaze all over the place. Still the same, nothing has changed. Maybe because he just left her for a little while.

But a moment later his body slumped to the floor as soon as he heard the roar of the helicopter engine that was about to land was very deafening to his ears. Orange squeezed the shirt on the front of his chest as he felt his heart pounding very fast, his body trembling and limp, and began to sweat coldly.

“Close your eyes.” Someone came suddenly and covered the ear of the orange with both hands, then brought the girl into his arms.

Unknowingly, Orange according to. He hid his face in the chest of the field of the person so as to make him a little calm.

“Are you okay?” Blue asked after Orange looked more normal while lowering her hand and taking a little distance. Orange raised his head to look at the person who had helped him.

“Panic disorder . . . or something like that?” Ask Blue carefully. His face looked worried.

Realizing the person was Blue, Orange then violently pushed Blue's body until the guy staggered back. He stood up and prepared to leave the roof of the hospital.

“JINGGA.” Blue jerk while holding the orange arm. He could not bear the orange that kept ignoring him like this.

The girl was shocked by the Blue Scrap just now. He was pecking with a trembling body. He hates Blue raising his voice.

“Please don't believe gini.” His voice went back to low, aware that it had scared the girl.

“If you are angry, please be angry with human language. Luapin your anger is just as I am right. Please, don't get me like gini.” Pinta Blue was clear, her voice sounded vibrating along with her eyes that began to glaze over.

His hands were then stretched out to bring the body of the Orange into his arms. Blue held him very tightly, though he did not get the same reply from the girl.

“I'm sorry I've hurt your heart, sorry for all the accusations I've made, sorry to be cold with you, sorry for ignoring you, sorry because I don't trust you, sorry to let you fight alone that time, sorry for my closeness with Luna who hurt you so much, and I'm sorry for what I did that night.” And there are still many apologies and reasons that Blue has not said. The mistake is too much.

“I'm also sorry for dipping you, sorry that I came so late. Sorry for making you wait so long.” Further again.

While Jingga was still silent with an unbecoming feeling. His gaze was empty behind Blue's shoulders.

“Tell me what to do?” Blue's voice choked along with his chest that started to clench due to the restrained cry.

“You know, Ji, what should I do so you want to forgive me?” Blue continued with tears that began to flow from the corner of her eyes.

“I may not be able to erase every mistake I ever made. But I can fix it, Ji. So, tell me what to do?”

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To be continued . . . .