SUBSTITUTE ARMY
V&V 141

...BACK TO LOMBOK...

If you can be honest with what is currently in the sense, it feels like there is never one human being who is able and can really face reality when parents finally leave for good. Go too far and do not return even if you kneel begging and holding her to stay by your side.

If so, God is so kind as to give and allow you and me to choose between being together or parting with a parent as possible, we will choose to always be able to continue with parents until the end of life, we are separated together at the same time.

But, God has a beautiful plan at the right time and makes us realize that life is not really ours, not our rules, not under our rule and we have no right to life and death either personally or for the lives of our two parents.

When time comes and destiny plays its role to say something else, inevitably we must be able and ready to accept everything that happens. Accepting the bitter and painful reality When parents finally return to the lap of the Father in Heaven, sadness, grief, pain, pain, loss and grief must dominate all thoughts and feelings, he said, to break hearts and to divide peace.

When all is going on Life feels like it is not resting on the earth anymore, not the same as it used to be, because there is a hole space that is not bloody but wounded in an empty and empty heart. making you a silent person does not flinch, your eyes are able to see light but feel like they are in the dark.

"Valr, be sad son if it can reduce your heart injury" said Miss Riss who approached Valr in the second room of her parents where Mr. Hul had just been in the tomb.

"mama.?" valr said with his roaring voice that was so heavy to release Mr. Hul who always fought for their happiness.

"The pain that you feel is common for you to cry, grieving after losing the most valuable person like your father in this life is indeed very impossible for us to avoid it. but we who are still allowed to live only need to do tasks and obligations that require us to rise.we must be able to release and declassify it." said Ms. Ris.

"ma, how can you survive and sleep alone in a large room in Lombok" Valr said

"60 years of God entrusts papa and mama to coexist together, at that time we were still in our teens. in our time there was no regulation that required girls to marry at the age of 22 years and boys 25 years. until the exact age of 15 years we got married and many things that we passed, mama thought it was enough for both of us. God is so amazing in our family, there is nothing that you regret. 60 years together is the 60 most beautiful years" said Bu Ris with tears of his sincere love berlinang wet his cheeks that have been wrinkled.

While on the other hand Valdi was crying regretting his decision to go on vacation and leave Mr. Hul on his last day.

"hiks .. hikss .. hiksss.!! I'm stupid, stupid, really stupid.!!" Valdi cursed and cursed himself with all the rudeness he could speak.

"sad you don't like that because everything is God's plan" Valentia said

"It's okay if you cry granddaughter of oma" said Miss Nurs who is still in her besan.

"but ma" said Valen

It is true that there is a heart that cannot describe how it suffers, there is a strong heart by pretending to look, feel and let go of the heart. there is a strong heart with its charade but not firm with its tears.

The eyes of the heart, the tears of the heart sincerely clear and full of purity not with a pura - a pura that can be crushed when crushed, destroyed, can fall when cut down and paralyzed when not strong anymore to lift the load.

Now Valr feels life without the presence of one of the parents that he took care of on his side and of course the reduction of one family member in the extended family and his home makes them clearly lost and felt life in the future feels different, maybe for a moment this will feel heavier for Valr and Bu Riss. also the things that used to be so often done with the wife in taking care of Mr. Hul is now a separate sadness that lives memories and is remembered more heavily than usual..

"we who live must be able to continue to live, you, mama, the big family are strong God's chosen people among the strongest. The fact is that our parents must go home first because God knows we can release even the weight" Vano told Valr.

"really, this is the greatest test of our lives and it happens because the Handler of Life believes we can pass this test because we strong people remember, we still have more duties and responsibilities. There is still a lot of work and responsibilities to be done at this time.to move on with life as best as possible, keeping mama doing her best while she lives. make life meaningful and make parents and children more proud of us" Ita said

"What you've lost will surely be in its place. When your loved ones leave, rest assured there will still be new people who will love you." Vano again tried to cheer Valr up

"By passing the test like this, it is undeniable that the sadness will end in a day. But that does not mean we have to lose hope of life, Death and leave for long periods of time does leave deep wounds and only we ourselves understand the most sadness and sorrow that envelops the heart. But remember that we always have a choice in life to continue to live better or lament everything that has happened." continued Ita who also came to Nias for the first time according to him.

"it feels too heavy" Valr said

"if you feel this is too heavy, you should be grateful that God is teaching you to be strong and always strong" Ita replied.

"True, all the pain that you have been experiencing is now over and healed, he left peacefully and alone. God loves me more than all of us here. God is better able to take care of my father every day than we are, Goodbye pa, may you be calm in heaven there.The best prayer I will always say to God so that you are happy at his side. now I can only remember and pray for you. Goodbye papa first person who kissed me" Valr bathin said

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