SUBSTITUTE ARMY
V&V 25
VALENSIA PROV'S
Today is Sunday, I am sitting at home and it has become a habit for me to inhabit my family and my brother.! the pain and disappointment in my heart was still unable to express how much I was like a remote controller who pressed a button with their hearts.
until I can no longer write in a story how disappointed and tormented with all arbitrary decisions.! even a Barbie doll feels luckier than me.
I was also confused by my personality, how to be quiet and be able to not greet part of the nuclear family, even barely minding them and choosing to sit, be quiet, sleep, and not to say anything, and come in and out of the house without saying goodbye.
I also did not know what kind of fateful fortune was written on my palm when two years passed on the first day of setting foot to work, even had not had time to issue the second first As card and the latest to get workers'an.
I even already got a lot of job offers starting from the offer to teach at AKPER with the DIII class, assistant specialist doctor, and, until this time I stand to be a PNS and on duty at RSUD with the position of the head of the room at a very young age.
on the first day I kept my promise to my most beautiful ex wearing his gift, 3 pairs of white-and-white service uniforms that had been increasingly sewed, and, somehow until this uniform fit and formed the curves of my body, I felt comfortable wearing it.
I'm sure in a different way you must be happy, even though your desire to see me stand as a nurse who really with a white-and-white service uniform is no longer as a student has not materialized, yet, but I've made your dream come true to get a high GPA..
forgive me for not being able to grieve and putting your sister's name in my mind and heart, I am still too cheap to accept it with your name position still intact, I hope you're never jealous, believe me, my heart is still entirely yours..
I don't even know where we can survive, just that far from my heart I'm always praying that you can get a woman who understands you better.
believe the woman who can love you is the woman who can give you happiness.! I always hope that as soon as communication between us, you will soon get the true happiness of Valrisman😔.
I don't care about what people say about the lethargy I feel, all I know is.! I'm a woman who's given your brother sincere love and that's very hard for me to erase.
I believe that at this time you need a life support as well as me.! I need support and purpose to live but not with you, not with other men.!
I closed my heart tightly not let any man try to get my attention, I was able to look at all my male co-workers as a woman until none became familiar with me, no one can talk to me.!!
this is where I'm learning to organize my heart, making sure who I'm tidying up this mess, because since your brother left I have no certainty who I'm walking with, but believe me my heart is still fully engraved one name BRIPDA.
but until this moment I still dare not say it to you bang Val.