The Beginning of My Story Journey With My True Love
my journey to finding my true love

Dear father of my future priest, I know you love me very much, because you do not want me to be scratched in the least.

I find a father in you, father as long as you know that I am the first daughter that my own father has wasted,and suppose you know I have borne a lot of the burden of deep wounds.

My trauma overcame my sanity, sometimes I wanted to go home with my God in the sky, but my amma always forbade me to go home first.

Dad do you realize I'm a wounded woman? do I deserve to be with your son who is full of love and love from my father?

I don't feel worthy of that position in all of you're lives, I hurt my father too much..

My love was broken for my own father, and now I have no father and father in my life,I beg you to do what is best for me and for my son, if this is the best path of destiny then I will fight as hard as my heart..

I will promise to care for and love my son as he loved his mother before him.

Greetings to all my Father, love you more.

You have forbidden me from traveling anywhere other than with my son father.l, what makes me fear father? what bad things will happen to me later?

I'm not like that dad, I still love myself but it still takes a lot of time to be alone and away from people's lives.

If this is the best thing I will do for my Lord, I will take care of your son as well as he should.

Father if you please I will make my first love a substitute for my father because I do not have first love for my own father.

Sounds pretty impossible, right? but that's the truth, Dad, I've been broken too often by my own father, bearing wounds, burdens and thoughts of living alone, he said,to endure all the pain that exists alone and harbored all by myself which in the end makes me want to return to the house of God.

But I realized, if I did that then I would be angered by my God, right, father? the world is so unfair to a first daughter like me who lacks the love and affection of my own father.

Fathering...

Your son is my passion to survive today if there is no son maybe I've been without a father for a long time.

My father convinced myself that I could survive to the age that my Lord had set.

Enough I cried in silence to bear all my wounds, I did not want to share my wounds with other fathers, what else to share the wounds of your loving and loving son.

^^Jambak,04 May 2023.^^^

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Mediana Utami^^^^^