The Newbie Is Too Strong's
191. Should I Stop?
[POV Nina]
“Haaaaaah!” With a deep breath, I laid myself on the bed.
‘Stupid basis!’ Bump on myself.
I could have said such an evil word to Luca.
Am I prepared for Luca to be so angry with him? Neither is the biological sister. I was just a distant relative to him.
Why could I be mad at him so just because he didn't tell me early that he was going to sign up for a professional e-sport club? I shouldn't have interfered too deeply in his affairs.
After all, he is a man. Whatever she is, it's only natural that she would be offended if I meddle in her decision. I shouldn't have scolded him just because he just said after signing for the professional e-sport club.
After all, even though the club was about to fall, it was not an arbitrary club. It was my idol club, the club where Kak Malik was located, the White Star Club which is still the seventh best e-sport club in Indonesia.
Am I worrying too much about Luca's future, about me worrying that he's being framed by a malicious contract that bans him to a club that's about to fall? No, no, that's where it's possible. The White Star club where Brother Malik is located is not such an evil club. Certainly before Luca joined there, he had already heard a fleeting briefing on the current state of the club.
Or maybe I envy her? Although not my real sister, Luca is like a sister to me. I always felt like if I was going to have a sister, maybe it would feel like I was interacting with Luca.
He was an innocent, kind-hearted kid, but sometimes a little awkward. I once told him to buy cola drinks at the minimarket, but he came home with a balloon that was not to be blown.
He's such a clumsy young man that I'm afraid he'll be easily tricked by bad guys. That's why I never let go of my eyes on him in the least. Especially with his face above average, I became increasingly worried that one day he would be dragged to the hotel by auntie-tante girang just with food fishing.
When I heard she had a boyfriend, how I panicked, thinking that what had been haunting my mind, would finally really happen to her. Beyond a doubt, the boy was able to obtain a good girlfriend like Lia.
Well, maybe I think of Luca too much as a child so that I get envy in my heart about why he is the one who got the opportunity offer to become a professional e-sport player. Moreover, not in just any club, but the White Star Club of Kak Malik, my idol.
In fact, how long have I fought for my ideals, but there has been no progress where I found a bright spot in the achievement of my ideals.
No, it's wrong. It is precisely if it is not for Luca who guides me, I will still go the wrong way, thinking to be able to become a swordsman like Kak Malik without knowing what type of player is most suitable for me. It was thanks to Luca that I was able to find my way as a player tamer and I felt that there was a significant development.
However, once again I felt that there was still a wall that I could not go beyond. Is this what Senior Areka calls a talent limitation huh? Is it true that I am not talented?
If if only after this I had not found my way in e-sport vrmmorpg, maybe like Senior Areka said, I should just get out of the club, no, no, from the achievement of my ideals. Rather than me going any further, but the edges fail, it will only make me more hurt.
Yes, I've decided this is my last chance.
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That day, I happened to come to the club outside of the regular practice schedule. Coincidentally anyway, I met Senior Areka there. Without a second thought, I asked him to train with me.
I fought many times using all the tactics I could, from the scattered movements of Papi, Pepi, Popi, and Popo who attacked Senior Areka from all directions, illusion magic, blindness, impromptu fire attacks, and so on, even with my innate karate strength, I was still unable to break through Senior Areka's shield defenses.
Is it because I'm not talented?
Then why?! I don't want to give up just yet! I will fight for longer!
However, many times I tried, not open the slightest gap for me even to just shake the position of Senior Areka.
Without feeling the tears of frustration mixed with the sweat of fatigue on my real body. Fortunately, the annoying senior was completely unaware of those tears and simply threw the towel at me, probably thinking that I was sweating too much from being too self-exciting for the exercise.
At that moment, I heard Senior Areka speaking to me, saying,
“Hei, Nina. Why do you keep practicing this hard just to chase after a man who might even have forgotten about your existence?”
“Hah?! What did Senior Areka just say?!”
“You did this because you wanted to be close to Malik, that White Star player right?”
“Hah?! Where did that Senior opinion come from?! I do admire him, but from where could Senior think that I did all this just to chase after him?!”
“That's because during Junior High, you unceasingly praised him and said that you would pursue him to become a great player like him.”
“That's because Malik's sister is my idol, Senior. But that's all. Doesn't mean I'm chasing the dream of becoming a professional because I want to be with him! Well, I admit every time I see it, my heart beats fast. So what?! For me dreams and romance, even though the source is the same, but still different things each! So I hope Senior don't misunderstand!”
I saw the look of disbelief on Senior Areka's face clearly emblazoned. In fact, I'm telling the truth. I love Malik, but that doesn't mean I'm chasing my dreams because of it.
“Lantas, why do you really want to be a vrmmorpg e-sport player even with that trashy talent?”
Those Senior Areka's words, truly never did she attempt to refine in the slightest. It's always as nice as his heart. What a talent trash! Gini-gini, I'm also a little bit developed. Even I have been able to defeat Zen and Ula Brother just by closing my eyes.
Forgetting Senior Areka's mouth that was lost, her words instantly awakened me.
‘Eh? What else is the reason I'm this excited to be a professional vrmmorpg e-sport player huh?’
If not wrong, when I was between the ages of 10 and 11, I finally met for the first time with a young player of my idol talent, Malik, who was 15 years old at the time, won one of the professional e-sport competitions with a club near my residence as a challenger team.
After that what then? Why did I suddenly shout full determination in front of the injured Kak Malik to become a formidable vrmmorpg e-sport player like him? Hold still. Why else was Malik injured? I think it's because it saved me. But why?
No matter how I try to remember, I still can't remember. Why can I forget such a big memory?
“Whatever the reason, it's not Senior's business. Let's just practice the match again because I feel better again.”
“Eh?”
“No ‘eh’. As a good senior, Senior Areka should always help her struggling juniors right?”
“After all, if I still fail again on this occasion. I might really give up.”
“Nina, you said something?”
“No, not nothing, Senior.”
I walked back to the computer, but somehow Senior Areka was still standing there.
When I was about to find out what was going on, it didn't take me long, I heard the words coming out of the senior's normally heartless mouth,
“Nina! I am not talented either! After a long time with Luca, I finally realized that the talent that I had been proud of, was only a pool compared to the vast ocean like him. No human being can truly be said to be talented. No human is perfect. So don't be so sad, Nina. As long as you struggle, then everything will definitely not be in vain.”.
This is the first time I've seen that senior say something like that to encourage someone. But I know, this must be just advice as a reflection of her own inferiority to Luca. But in any case, I was proud that Senior Areka was already closer to a normal human character and started to curb that bit of ego and pride.
“So I'm sure even a trashy talent like you will find your way as long as you don't give up. So I'm sorry to have said such harsh words to you before, Nina. But of course I still think that you will shine more in the world of sound pull.”
I saw his expression really bright while saying that. I wanted to see her smiling face. Turns out I was wrong, Senior Areka is still Senior Areka, the insensitive bucket mouth.