The Substitute Woman on the First Night
Feeling Inappropriate

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It's been 6 months since Delano said that he won't come to see me again. There was no letter from him that I was waiting for every day. I feel like he might have forgotten me. Especially in the city of London there must be many beautiful women who could have the heart of Delano and I could not possibly hold it.

During the time inside the prison, I began to understand the character of the female inmates who were here. Most of them experienced domestic violence that triggered the women to defend themselves to kill her husband or make her ex-husband disabled. Not only that, there are also women who are in prison for stealing to meet their needs. However, there are also among them the actors who can damage the household of others and hurt fellow women.

Not only did I have a cellmate, here I began to adapt to the environment in the prison. I also took some training given. In addition to sewing, I also make various handicrafts made from perca and make cakes. Activities that can at least distract me from not always thinking about Delano. Somehow there was a longing in my heart, thinking of him far away. Yes, honestly after his departure, my life seemed to have fallen back. Almost every day I go with gloom. Although Reni and Hana try to comfort, but still the sadness does not want to disappear.

Until finally, the first letter from Delano came and it immediately returned my spirit, it turned out that he kept his promise to send me a letter. A promise I thought he had forgotten. Not only letters, Delano also sent me books to read. The first shipment that meant so much to me after me every day was always looking forward to it.

"Lissa, so how? Is Delano okay in London?" Hana who had been watching me since then, suddenly immediately asked me that when I had only half read the letter from Delano.

"Yes, he's fine."

"Cie, cie, means after being free you will immediately become Mrs Delano nih. Now that's it, you don't be moody anymore!"

I think that conclusion was too quick to think about by Hana. Though I myself did not dare to dream about it because I began to feel inappropriate for Delano.

"It doesn't seem like it will, Na. I know that Delano and I are on a different level. He will be an undergraduate graduate of S2, while I just finished in High School. Maybe I'll just be friends with him." When saying that somehow there is pain that increasingly feels piercing my heart. It was a pain I could hardly describe and only feel.

"You sure? If it turns out that Delano doesn't care all that how? Do you still want to refuse?"

"Why do you have to think about education and your status? I tell you the same, if people are in love will not care about you ex-convict or just high school graduates though? Love is love, there is no reason, no consideration whatsoever!"

In the middle of my waste, Reni suddenly commented on what I was talking about with Hana.

"Well, didn't you just go to sleep, Ren? It turns out to be eavesdropping."

Reni began to sit from a position that had originally fallen asleep. "You two are noisy. People want to sleep and talk."

"There's also a strange lo, Ren. Mah people sleep at night, this nap is already rich little boy lo."

The two of them started to feel dizzy. I also did not care about them and thought more about the words of Reni which if the more I think, even there is a point as well.

"Is it possible that Delano would accept me? My education which is only a high school graduate plus my status is only an inmate," my mind began to feel inappropriate so accompany Delano who is highly educated.

While they were still arguing, I went back to reading a letter from Delano that I had not finished reading. Until the final paragraph of the letter, Delano told that Almira was currently pregnant with Mas Denis child and his gestational age was only running 8 weeks. Honestly, I was confused between being happy or angry when I found out. The news that made my heart grow..

"It's fitting that Denis never came to visit me at all, it turns out he was happy with Mira," my mind tries to strengthen a slightly weak heart because it feels that happiness should be mine and not Almira's.

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