The Wedding
28. When Love Should Choose

I was silent, staring at the two people in front of me. Faza immediately approached me, inviting me to sit down. I said, I really need an explanation right now.

"Daisy, I came here indeed at the request of the Stars. But that doesn't mean I want to meet him. Me and the Stars have been out of communication for a long time, I last contacted him at Om Hary's house, you know that right? It was really the last time I contacted him, after I promised you to leave and not contact the Stars again, I kept it. Why do I now agree to meet the Star, because I also want to explain to her that I don't love her anymore, Daisy, this is over between me and her, it's been a long time, it's been, ever since I realized that I do love you" Faza explained.

The star was wide-eyed to hear the statement that Faza had just uttered. He did not accept, it turned out that Faza had not contacted him intentionally.

"Oh so now you really love your wife?" ask the stars cynically.

"Right, Star, I'd love to explain that but you don't give me the chance to say that" Faza said.

"Aaah this is your play huh, pretend to love Daisy for being caught walking with me? Later if he had left, you would have said that what you said earlier was a lie? " ask the crafty star.

"That's at all. Star anyway, I know it's wrong, I'm very late to realize it. Our love is false, Bin. Real love is love when you're married to someone, I realized it when I was with Daisy. I was wrong to hurt my wife and still choose you. I'm sorry Star, but I can't run an illegal relationship like I used to" Faza said.

I was speechless, getting more confused by seeing Faza and the Stars arguing. What the fuck? They should have explained to me not arguing like this. I'm really pissed off. I finally decided to leave.

I got out of my seat, at first they didn't notice my departure, a split-second interval, Faza immediately noticed it and he tried to call me, I kept passing, I didn't care, I didn't care, I just wanted to get into my room and sit on the bed and shut up, thinking and thinking about everything that just happened today.

When I got home, I immediately went into the room and changed my uniform in a casual dress for home, I cleaned my face, then washed my hands, but somehow I felt nauseous instantly, I was vomiting, I was vomiting, my head felt dizzy, after I finished the bathroom, I hurriedly climbed onto my bed, laid my body there, why this, did I have a sudden pain? Is it because I just lied to my boss? So I was hit by karma? geez forgive me, my mind is anxious.

I was pensive, re-remembered by today's events, met with Helwa, told her about Fariq's unrest, then when I came home from the cafe I saw Faza with the Stars and heard their explanation made me even more confused. Who should I trust? Why did Faza renege on his promise not to see the Star again? But Faza has already explained to me, do I have to trust him?

When viewed from my relationship with Faza today it is arguably much better than before, since the incident from the house of Om Hary, everything has changed for the better, indeed, starting from Faza's attitude, my relationship with him, even we no longer feel awkward with each other. Do I have to trust Faza? But I also cannot lie that I am disappointed to see him with the Stars, aah.

While I was contemplating everything, I suddenly felt nauseous again. I hurried to the toilet. It seems like I'm sick, I plan to get out of the room and find a cure for nausea. Maybe my heartburn is coming back, I thought.

I opened the door to my room, and I saw Faza had just entered the house. I hurried inside and locked my door.

"Daisy, please trust me" Faza said as he continued to knock on my bedroom door.

I didn't answer, I leaned behind the door, it seemed like I was really feeling a mess right now. I was able to get the answer, I was really disappointed with Faza, even though he had already explained, it was still difficult for me to accept it.