Wedding Dust's
33. Nadya Ayunda
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“If for example I betray you, how about?”
“Indeed, any intention there?”
“Cumbers the same.”
“I'll disappear. From anyone,”
I remember, I was shocked at that moment. My heart is so sore, so sliced that it feels like dying to remember everything that happened these few days.
“Included from in front of you, Nad.”
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It has been a week since Hansel forced me to establish a relationship behind Bagas and assented that because he threatened, today I decided to stay silent and not invite him to talk at all other than work.
Hansel always stole the chance to get close to me, in his own way. But I chose to ignore it and focus on work.
“Let lunch outside yuk.” invite him who I still ignore. “Nad,”
I looked at her with a flat expression that she said, she liked very much. Hansel said, I am beautiful, sexy, and mysterious when looking at someone with such a gaze. But I'm sure, not so. They must have hated more than awe or curiosity as Hansel said.
“I bring stock, sir.”
“Once in a while dong, yes.” the door with a spoiled voice made-up.
“Sorry. I ate at Tara's office. After all, those who see, will be suspicious of us.”
“Terupon them. We're doing it, aren't we?”
This time I stared intently at him with dislike. Why was her mouth so light when saying this forbidden relationship?
“Please don't assert it in front of others. Enough of us who know.”
Hansel laughed, then he walked over to me and rubbed my head which I immediately brushed. I'm really scared of his recklessness. I was worried that if Tara suddenly showed up and saw what we were doing together, then complained to Bagas. I swear, I'm not ready to lose Bagas anytime.
“Why, hm? You scared?”
I chipped and pushed my chair a little bit away. “Please take care of your attitude, I do not want anyone else to know about our forbidden relationship.” I said once again want to affirm to Hansel so that he is aware of each other's status.
“Nad,” once again he wants to touch me, yet I always try to resist.
“Can diem not his hand anyway?!”
Hansel's dumbfounded. His face slightly hardened after hearing my rude speech. I don't care, getting fired today I'll be kabulin to quit.
“Tau no, the more you refuse gini, I am more encouraged to dapetin the more you know.”
I stood up for a moment, looking at him with my heart beating so fast that it made my vision twitch. “What do you mean by talking like that?”
“I want you more than—”
Stop. Pleases.
I closed my eyes, shook my head in disbelief, then took a step away from the room to the bathroom. Why am I now like a woman with no self-respect? Why did Hansel's attitude change to me so drastically that he dared to want me more? Shit man!!!
In the bathroom, there is a mbak Nana who also has a need in the bathroom. Our gazes met for a moment before I disconnected by diverting the pupils looking at the bathroom door that was not far from me while nodding politely, because he was my senior here. I'm obliged to respect him.
“Nad, want to pee?” the question makes no sense. Think about it, do people as smart and competent as him, do not know the purpose of someone to the bathroom?
“Ah, yes mbak.” I replied casually while smiling, then grabbed the round shaped door handle and prepared to push it.
“Some days, there's something I want to ask you. But I never and never met you.”
I clasped the door handle, prepared to accept the question I had already ascertained, which would lead to my relationship with Hansel.
“Oh yes. Now we're meeting. So, please let Nana ask.”
He smiled at the corner of his lips.
“There's a connection you have with Hansel.”
My heart exploded. Does Nana know about my relationship with Hans?
“We have nothing to do. Mr. Hans is my boss and I only work as a partner in the office—”
“Bullshit. You think I'm stupid huh?”
“In Semarang, you guys even had dinner together.” he continued, this time he folded his arms in front of his chest and looked at me intensely. A second later, he clucked with an intimidating look as I did not lower my gaze from him. “Sway him. She has a child, Nad. Poor son with his wife.”
The vow. I am now worthless in the eyes of this woman. But I still chose silence and waited for another painful sentence that he was about to point at me.
“If you want to find an affair, look for a single Nad. Don't have a wife's child like her. Kasian. You also do not think your husband's feelings if you know what you are doing behind him?”
Oh God. Should I beg Bagas for forgiveness today? Why is my heart torn and broken and not afraid to find this sad reality?
“Stop seduced him, Nad. Or I will force you to stop—”
“Mbak, I'm not as bad as it—”
“You don't think you're evil. But your behavior is more than ibblis.”
One tear just came out. No words of defense came out of my mouth, for I was guilty. My fault.
“I think you are a good woman because you always keep an attitude and respect and courtesy in front of others.”
Stop, please.
My body is starting to limp. My legs no longer hold my body weight. I want to get it to the floor.
“But behind all your kindness, you are no better than a woman *******do not know yourself.”
“Stop mbak. I'm not that bad.”
“You're that bad.”
I shook my head in disbelief if I chose to open my heart at that time, it would end like this.
“Or do you want, I pass this shocking news to your husband?”
I shook my head weakly when Nana took a step closer to me. The distance of our faces was cut when he pushed his head right next to my ear.
“So your attitude, if you want to survive and your good name is still respected here. Stay away from hansel.”
“Why? Do you like it too?”
The woman was a little aghast, then laughed stiffly as she rotated her two eyeballs. “Nad, Nad. You are so naive yes.”
I just stared straight at Nana who sneered at me. “Hansel it—”
“Eh, Nad.”
Mercifully. I'll thank Tara because she showed up at the right time. I wanted to hug my friend because I was dumbfounded. But I kept trying to stand on my own feet.
“Ra. Can you take me to the clinic?”
“Lho, are you sick? Why not just permission?”
“Ra, price. Anterin me now.”
“Uh, okay. Come.”
Those words. Words that humbled me so much. My heart was so broken when I heard Nana say that with a sarcastic whisper and a sharp tone as I walked past her to ask Tara for help.
“Basic ******do not know yourself.”
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Tara drove me to the clinic without speaking a word as if knowing my chaotic situation, just kept looking at me who was walking while crying not knowing myself.
Until we Samapi in the room is not too broad and shades of white, we were greeted by a health worker who was standing guard there.
“Lho, it looks pale. Why mbak? Please lie down first in bed.”
I didn't answer. I was more busy wiping the tears that kept falling in front of Tara. Then I said to Tara in a raucous and chaotic voice as the health worker was busy looking for her stethoscope and thermometer on the desk. “Ra, don't say anything to Bagas about this.”
He nodded in understanding and still faithfully stood beside me.
“Whatever you heard today—” I memejam hold shy. “—please forget.”
“You have a problem, Nad?”
Tara approached, she grabbed one palm of my hand and grasped it slightly tightly with a swab. “You want a story to me? I want to know whatever your problem is. Do not forget, if you have me as a listener, I am willing and there whenever you need me. Okay?!”
I'm grateful, at least Tara's not like Hansel. With a raucous whisper I said, “Thanks.” []
^^^to be continued.^^^