
“Before .. I seem to know that your relationship with your parents is not good. But it seems I also know less about you and your family. Are you not that close to them?”
Annisa. The shadow of the past in his life greeted back his mind, until he did not realize at all that his relationship with his parents was indeed that far. He can only look small.
“Annisa?” get Bram slowly. “Do not hesitate yes story ... as I said earlier, if I want to start everything from the beginning. Not just for Ramah, but for you as well. I want to have a good relationship with you. So ... we can start everything from scratch. They can know each other. So ... tell me everything you want.”
Annisa bit her lower lip, staring timidly at Bram.
Can she trust this man before her? can he tell me about his complaints. For now Annisa is trying to understand what is going through with Bram. Because that guy must need a story place, too. But the woman was afraid that if her wife came back, Bram was still thinking the same thing. What if my secret would even be a boomeran for Bram mas? And that's my weak point?
Many questions that arise in the mind of Annisa make the woman did not understand at all.
“Completed,” said Bram made his daydream stop. He felt a soft pat on Annisa's cheek. “Udah done .. tomorrow morning I will open the bandage again and check. Hopefully it does not cause other infections or anything like that.”
Annisa blinked and chuckled awkwardly.
“Luka kayak gini mah small for me,” he said again. “So .. I don't think there will be any other problems. Yes, yes, we slept. Tomorrow is work, right? So rather than waking up late, we better sleep aja,” said Annisa while standing but her hands pulled the same Bram makes Annisa's body sit again next to Bram.
“I haven't finished talking Annisa, we're talking heart to heart first. We'll just take a break. But now is the right time to get to know more closely,” explained Bram very seriously. “You want our relationship to continue like this?”
Annisa shakes.
“I am also the same Annisa,” continued Bram seriously. “Maybe you think this wedding is just a joke, but not for me. Even if we meet with no relationship at all. Meet suddenly with no ties at all. I am serious about this marriage. We are legitimate in the eyes of God and country, so I do not want if our relationship is finished just like that.”
“...”
“And I hate the talk of you saying you're going to divorce. No. .. I absolutely do not like your choice and talk this one.”
Annisa bit her lower lip. Stare confusedly at Bram.
“Mas ... You didn't lie by kayak gini?” ask Annisa. “I mean, you already know for yourself that Aqilla aka your wife is not dead. Which means Bram mas still have the same status mbak Aqilla. So, I think ... if you meet Mbak Aqilla later, you must come back with him.”
Annisa shook her head in great sadness.
“Although the horror is sad,” muttered Annisa slowly. “Soalnya mgebayangin later Rama more affectionate with other women, ah .. I know that mbak Aqilla is the birth mother of Rama. But .. I love Rama. So, mgebayangin Rama more deket with other women for me very sad.”
Bram changed his seat so he faced Annia. He ignored the lighted tv, he saw the face of his wife who looked very cloudy. No, Bram wants to talk seriously not to make Annisa sad. They just want to make their relationship better.
“Annisa,” call Bram make Annisa look at her husband. “First ... Can you call Sakilla only? because I know her as Sakilla not Aqilla or anything else at all. I'm not used to that call. So, can you just call her Sakilla?” pinta Bram was very polite.
Annisa nodded small. Although a little confused because he also knows Aqilla more than Sakilla. But he will try to call with a name known as Bram. Not to cause misunderstandings between them.
“And for the first point, you don't have to worry at all. Here I clearly know that Sakilla faked her death and I am really disappointed because of this one problem.” Bram took a deep breath. Still trying to deny the fact that he had clearly seen with his own eyes. “And I am not the type of person who easily forgives when disappointed.”
“Jadi ... did you mean mas?” confused Annisa
“Yang means I will divorce Sakilla once I meet her original location and not only that, I will ask Sakilla further. About the reason the woman did all this. So ... after straightening all the problems. I will divorce Sakilla and continue the marriage with you.”
“Mas?” annisa muttered softly. His heart thumped at the sweet words of the man.
“Iya Annisa ... why?”
“Mas not wrong talking?” annisa asked and then chuckled while shaking her head. “There may be men who admire many people like you, even choose women not clear like me. I really don't believe it at all. My level is the same you are far away. Uh ... You're talking like gini. If you're joking, don't go this far. I won't believe.”
“What do you not believe?”
“Ya .. all your talk,” Annisa murmured while exhaling. “Ngebayangin can be together mas aja actually already make me less. What else my lifestyle is the same I'm much different. Plus if you want to talk about mas who say love is the same mbak Sakilla .. so the talk of mas sounds a little bullshit in my ears.”
“So far do you believe in me?” ask Bram
Bram let out a rough sigh and leaned his body on the sofa. He stared blankly at the lighted television. Now the man realized that his actions were enough to hurt the woman beside him. All trust has been lost making Bram have to move extra so that Annisa can trust him again.
“You know not the real reason I agree with your silly request at that time?” ask Bram slowly. “Padalaah if remembered, I can just refuse you directly. We are strangers who never even met. But, I choose to help and agree to your request.”
“...”
“Ya .. even if I check you tonight with the ID you gave me. I found out everything about you and felt you were good enough and right for me. That's why I met you again and really took care of the wedding suddenly. But the reason behind it all, you know why I did this?”
Confused, Annisa nodded.
“Because it's you.”
“I saw there was a sparkling gaze that you showed when asking for help with me until my heart that several years ago died so vibrated. Just because of a woman I never met at all. And at that time ... Rama is a little difficult to meet strangers. But he just kept quiet and kept thinking about you. You seem to have a magnet of its own that makes me feel interested.”
“Mas ..” Ogre Annisa
Bram took a deep breath and turned to his wife.
“Maybe until this second we are still foreign. You who still have dreams have a husband that suits your type and I who are still drowning with the past. But what's wrong if we start giving up all our dreams. For what is in front of us? In other words accepting the life path we have been through at this time.”
“I'm afraid ..” honest Annisa
“What are you afraid of?” ask Bram. “I promise I will treat you well. You can see, even though my attitude was bad before. But I was never bad with you, was I? I never played physically, did I? So ... what are you afraid of again with me?”
“Not it.”
Bram changed his sitting position, looking back at Annisa.
“Jelasin same me .. earlier I have told you that we are honest with the contents of our hearts both. Let us understand each other and learn what we do not know. So, you're telling me. What makes you afraid of me?”
“Many mas .. many bad shadows in my mind,” Annisa said in a small voice. “And it's all because we're different. You are above and I am below,” said Annisa while staring around the mansion of Bram which is so big, very far from her home.
“Status is just an invisible thing, Annisa. I'm not the one who will obey you just because we're different. I am not a person who is disgusted by people out there, just because I have a lot of treasures.”
“Maybe you are, but what about people?” ask Annisa. “Not just that, ma'am. We are also too foreign. We're really so foreign that I feel like we're not husband and wife. Alias I'm just a babysitter from Rama doang.”
“Annisa!” snapped Bram made the woman flinch and immediately apologized. “No... I am not angry with you. I'm just upset about what you said earlier. From where you look as Rama's nanny. You mamahnya. The one who made Rama change and smile often. Never deny what you've done again. Because I really don't like it.”
Annisa nodded and apologized again.
“And what makes us foreign?” ask Bram again need certainty
Annisa bit her lower lip. There's a lot he wants to say for now. He looked at Bram. Does he have to say everything. After an equally inner battle, Annisa finally took a deep breath. He decided to tell everything.
“Parent ... have you ever told me about your parents, mas? Did you ever tell me about the family. Even the marriage we do, none of your family comes. I am indeed your wife. But you don't think I'm like that, ma'am. I don't know everything about you. When you can freely find out what you want about me and this is very unfair.”
“...”
“I'm like in brackets in this house. I can't freely go out and talk to people about my husband. Even I still often see you looking at Sakilla's mbak photos. Really, I'm not angry at all. But, with you like this for existence I am not priced at all, mas.”
Annisa's breathing hunts, she clenches her hands. His emotions were stirring and he could not stop saying something to Bram.
“I also want to be proud like people, mas. I want to know your family too. I also want to cook you, when you always forbid me to make food for you. I want to be a good wife to you. But, you don't let me make you a good wife.”
“Annis ..”
“I seem to have many complaints for you, mas. I even became an intermediary between Rama's grief. You, never know every day Rama always complains because of your attitude and all the wishes he wants to tell you. Because you were never home. Rama never wanted to tell me the same story. He was just my story, make me have my own burden to do what Rama wanted all this time.”
“But .. I can't do anything, because I'm also afraid to ask for something with you.”
Bram nodded, “lalu?”
“Every night. I always try to wait for you, Mom. From what you came cepet until late. I will continue to wait for you. But when you come, you never say anything and even blame me. You just said that I don't have to wait for you after I've waited a few hours. Kayak .. what I do is not priced at all. Kayak ... I don't like it in giniin.”
“...”
“I don't need your ban, I need you to tell me. You are the one who lives Rama. Really, mom. I'm not asking you to pay the same attention to me. I really don't care if our relationship is forever like this. I just ask you to love and care for Rama. That's it.”
“You are so dear to my son?”
Annisa nodded.
“I really love someone like Rama and Rama's cry for my heart is very painful.”
“Sorry,” said Bram suddenly made Annisa look up and stare confusedly.
Not yet asked, Annisa suddenly felt Bram's face approaching and her lips being smitten with the man she recognized. His eyes are breaking.
A warm kiss Annisa felt. From which his eyes were festering, he finally closed his eyes. While trying to relieve his heartbeat.
This is his first kiss.