
Long enough Rama just silently daydreaming, with his uncertain feelings. He stared focused one in the direction with his mind flying everywhere. It didn't feel like time was going on long enough until someone walked into the room without the child's knowledge.
Bram was silent for a moment, “eh why?” he muttered softly when he saw Rama take a deep breath, “Rama?” his calling made Rama turn his head and wipe his tears down.
“Eh dad?” the surprised one. “Daddy when to enter?”
Bram approached Rama and pulled out a chair and sat down in front of his son. He looked seriously at Rama who had looked down.
“Don't talk,” says Bram. “You're crying? Why cry? Something makes you sad. Not that you've been sleeping. You're having nightmares?”
Rama shook his head.
“Keep why cry?” Bram raised Rama's body and hugged him. “What— you,” greeting Rama stopped and he stared in surprise. “You heard everything that dad talked about in front earlier?” rama's nod made Bram pat his face and rub rough, “nak ..”
Rama down, “ayah ..”
Bram cursed himself. Why are they not careful when they are still in the same room with their children. Geez, now he doesn't know what to do. Bram raised his son's body again, put Rama sitting in his chair and he knelt in front of Rama.
“What did you hear earlier?”
“But mom ..” Rama reminds Bram
Bram stood up and approached the exit. His head slightly looked out, safe. Bram closed the door and locked it from the inside. Back to Rama who was still down.
“Now you tell me everything, mamah again in front. Mamah Annisa can not enter, you tell me why you can reach the cry of kayak earlier.”
“Ayah .. I can't see my mother?” ask Rama quickly. “So dad said that dad wouldn't let you meet me. Why why anyway? I want to meet your mother. I have a lot of questions I want to ask my mom. Including the question why mother ninnggalin I'm the same father. But ... from the same father's talk earlier, I guess I can not meet ya same mother?” heed
“....”
“I will know if you have died,” remember Rama who was taken by Bram
“Dad also said that, right?” Bram nodded. “But why do you suddenly say that you are here?”
Rama massaged his forehead.
“I actually still don't understand. I was confused, he said the mother died but it turns out the mother is still there. So if there is a mother why is the mother never near me a small fit? Even if you died, why did you say that you still exist. Then why did you used to look like you were the same mother and always tell me that you are a good woman and love me very much. But suddenly dad always angry with me when I talk about mother and say that this mother is not a good woman.”
Rama ruffled his waist with his mouth still sweet.
“If mom still exists why dad also forbid I to meet her. Dad obviouslyin dong, let me not be confused.”
Rama is still a child, a four-year-old boy who wants to know many things.
“Dad can answer?”
Rama nodded, that's what he wanted, right?
“If I explained too, I did not know you would understand or not. It's a complicated adult problem. I didn't know you could understand all this or not.”
Rama is getting more and more manyuning. “Dad obviously aja, my business knows or do not know the business lately. But yes I want to know,” whining
Bram ruffled Rama's hair, the more it became clear that Rama was just a little boy who was still whining about serious things like gini.
Bram sat on the edge of the bed and took his son's hand. Opening the palm of Rama's hand, while painting randomly on Rama's arm with the index finger Bram began to explain.
“Dad does not want to be hypocritical if your mother is a good woman. He's very kind. Sorry for the bad dad and talking bad about your mom.”
Rama nodded.
“Until finally you are present in the middle of your life with your father. We are very happy, because you are the one who is waiting for you. But ... After you were born, suddenly mother Sakilla dropped and dikabarin died. At that time we were all busy because of the presence of you until you did not get to meet the same appearance of Sakilla's mother who had died. Just look at your mother who is already in the chest and unfortunately the chest can not be opened the same doctor.”
Rama.
He's read this!
“Dad,” by Rama. He looked and whined, forgetting that they were no longer home. “Ih I've read, the book is at home kok.”
“Daddy has been open about various customs that menuburi people in different ways. There is still one page that is clear if the chest is used the same person who was in an accident? Her body is not intact. Really not?”
Bram nodded.
“But how did you say that you were in the crate? Why mother why? Continues ... means it is true that mother died because I was born in this world?” said pouty.
“Hei ... How sad is it? Listen to me first dong dad's story. Don't be right in the day.” Rama nodded. “And right what you said earlier, if usually the chest is used the same person who was in an accident. But I do not understand, why at that time father did not just and play yes-iya a doctor who took care of your mother. Until your mother was in the grave father tuh never saw the form of your mother.”
“....”
“Dad knows your mother is dead.”
“Terus?”
“Short story finally I know all this time your mother was malsuin her death. Your mother did not die, but went away you are the same father.”
Rama who heard was so shocked that he shut his mouth.
“Ya so .. that's why the father was released and even angry with you. I'm really angry with your mother. Because it feels like it's been deceived all out. Because in reality your mother never left us. Unless your mother wants herself and ultimately sacrifices us. That's why .. Dad talked to you. I said your mother is evil. Because yes dad was very disappointed with your mother that.”
“Dad—
Bram immediately rubbed Rama's arm and nodded, as if saying that everything was fine so Rama did not have to worry.
“But yah—
“Everything has passed dear, do not need to be thought of again yes. You're the one who wants me to explain. Now why do I think it's gini? Don't want to, I don't want to continue if you will even cry and think the same of this problem.”
Rama pouted and shook Bram's arm.
“Yes, no longer angry. Dad continued again, I'm really curious about.”
Bram chuckles.
“Just a short story earlier father met your mother.”
Rama gasped.
“True .. and here somehow your mother suddenly talked about you. Dad can't be like this. Dad was angry. Why did your mother play away, but now even nanyain you? Dad didn't want to at all. You just have a dad forever.”
Rama nodded.
“I just have the same dad mamah kok.”
“Daddy is afraid .. afraid later your mother even mengelakuin various ways to meet you. Dad is not sincere because he just left he did not think of you at all. Why are you now? No. .. You are okay if you do not meet your mother.”
Bram held his son's shoulder.
“You only have a father who is equally mama, not the others. I really don't want you to meet someone who has left us.
Rama digested everything.
His sadness suddenly evaporated and he realized that he could not be selfish anymore.
With firm conviction, Rama nodded.
“Dad just calm, forever I just have a father same mom. Because it's just you guys who are always there for me. Just the same old dad who made me calm not the mother who had left me from childhood.”
“Sorry dad is equally mamah yes can not be a good parent for you. Sorry if this father's decision makes you disappointed and a selfish father like gini.” Bram hugged Rama and began to shed tears.
“Don't dad, don't cry ya?”
Bram's burly hands tried to wipe away the tears that came down from his son's two beautiful eyes, picking up the bangs that covered his son's vision, and then he gave a small smile.
His little whiz .. has grown so big. I can decide something important.