Writing a Story on Earth
CHAPTER 22

Introduce my name Sky, he is a man who can be the sun for those around him, but one thing he does not want to be the sun for himself. he prefers to be a darkness to himself.

He can smile and be an entertainer to those around him. But you don't know about him.

He always looks quiet and mysterious but all you need to know is that he never shows the sadness or burden he bears, He always seemed to smile like there was no burden whatsoever to the person who saw him. They must think their lives are happy.

Actually life is tiring for him, if suicide is not sin and go to heaven after death.

It had been a long time since he had ended his life, for what he had lived for if it only made those around him sad.

Feeling alive in this world is meaningless for the figure of a man who has always been a darkness for himself.

Fuck everything, I'm tired god.. I wanted to scream as loud as possible until I forgot the sadness I was experiencing.

Was I born just to be a loser God, God I always carry out your orders, but why trials and trials always color my life.

Can't I just get a little happiness, until now my life continues to play you repeatedly.

God, you may not love me, if I get one more deep sadness, maybe I will become a real figure of darkness.

Don't let me darken my eyes and forget your god, please don't keep playing with my life like this, like a useless person living on this earth.

Don't let the devil enter my heart again, until I'm darkened and destroy this earth.

Can I be sad and cry, tonight I am desperate, about the heart and always involving feelings. Makes me want to scream as loud as possible.

Exposing all the feelings in my heart, looking at my face I was not able, as swift and as slow as I was, shallow-minded.

I can ask to advise others with every piece of my writing, when in fact I want to slap myself, so that I always remember back when I was down in life..

I do not want to be a hypocrite in the eyes of others, I am not a sinless holy man, not a holy man who is good in religion.

I am also not a learned person, why do you welcome me, why do you always support me.

My work is not good not romantic. Works of crumbs like ranginang gosong.

I just write to make my heart calm and peaceful, Ah why my mind is this shallow..

I am patient, my patience has no limits, I am always careful in speaking, because I do not want to make others hurt by my words.

I can't see people around me sad, I always entertain with all my silliness so that people around me smile back.

You don't know how painful and painful my life is, how much I suffer.

I don't want anyone to feel sorry for me and I don't want to show my sadness and burdens.

I used to get sick and almost die, but God is still kind to me. Haven't let me face him yet.

You know what it feels like, the body lives bone without meat, the food that enters my body is only water, soft porridge is not entered..

I was brought into a world I had never known, tossed about in the dark.

Only one can bring me back, my belief is to make both parents happy, As soon as I pray to the creator to surrender to my life.

Suddenly four male figures came up to me and brought me back, the exact same male figure as my face.

It is the power of Allah subhanahuataala.

In the end I came back and healed, since then every word I always articulated and I understood and I made a message from God for me.

But this superficial thought came back carrying the wound of sorrow.

All humans will die when it is time but can you be grateful for the breath that God gave us.

Aaaaaah the night grew darker and colder, coming again with a wind piercing my body, as if giving a message from God.

The cold is meaningful and we can feel it from anything.

From the water that always calms the soul and cools the heart.

From the advice of others who always cool the heart of the emotions that make doom.

Exams and exams but still my score is zero, zero because I never give thanks maybe for all the favors.

Eve lust hard I sleep, it turns out my faith is still a stage of worry.

Keep doing good wherever it is, may your kindness, bring you to heaven.

Don't tell me you hate her, if you love her.

Anything can be broken while still being given faith, do not be cut off to Allah subhanahuataala, if it breaks fast connect again before death and dark eyes and forget the purpose of life on earth.

You are like the sun carrying warmth and always spreading charm with your light, seducing hearts and melting souls, ending and disappearing in the darkness of the night, leaving unending sorrow, he said, now I am lonely in solitude under a dark sky, like a dark heart that has not yet found a ray of serenity.

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Thank God, the most beautiful greeting for you who love me, do not forget to take care of your health.

Take care of yourself. keep your heart.

May all our lives be blessed by Allah subhanahuataala and bestowed happiness far from the darkness of the heart, in the World and the Hereafter.

THE EARTH AND THE SKY WERE CREATED PERFECTLY.

😁TETAP SMILE EVEN THOUGH TODAY FEELS HEAVY😁