Writing a Story on Earth
CHAPTER 38

I've known you for a long time, but I don't know your name, miss?

When I first saw you I was already fascinated by your charm that always disturbed my heart and mind.

I don't know if it's love or just admiration.

But every time I see your smile I feel as happy as if I want to keep seeing you.

Unfortunately I don't want to know you, miss.

Because the first introduction will foster a taste and ultimately torment a curiosity.

I don't want it to happen and I don't want to miss it?

I see you in my silence.

Enough I admire every wail of your eyes that makes your heart beat.

It's hard for me to love you in prayer.

But I hope God has a wonderful plan for me.

Because I don't want to get hurt for the umpteenth time.

I've loved someone for three years without ever seeing one.

Only LDR.

Dating through handpone only.

For three years I fought to die to make you happy.

Everything I gave you.

It all just ended.

You left without a word.

Leaving me who always fought and loved you in prayer.

Am I not numb?

It's just that the feeling has run out all you're taking away with your idolatry.

But I never grudge or hate you, I can only pray that you are happy there with your choice.

Although this heart broke a broken fracture.

I can never be angry with you.

Day after day I'm broken but as time goes by I get used to it?

Get used to my ihklas.

Get used to my patience.

Get used to reality.

Get used to my emotions.

Accustomed to my solitude.

Accustomed to silence.

Are you getting used to being without your name anymore, miss?

I don't regret knowing you for 3 years and I never hated you.

In every prayer I pray that you may be happy with your choice.

May you bring a better man than me who can make you happy.

Take it easy I won't be looking for you anymore.

I appreciate a decision you made that recounted a deep wound.

Thank you good people for painting me the most beautiful memories, for being home to me.

I don't hate you?

although it took me a long time to heal this wound, it's okay that I can definitely get through all of this.

It's just about time.

I believe God has the most beautiful plan for me and I am confident in everything that happens in my life.

The story about us I'll write in every sheet and scribble penaku.

Because I never forget all the good you gave me.

I used to fall, but you made me stand on this earth and look up at that beautiful, colorful sky.

Coming and going is destiny.

Wounds and happiness are a choice.

Smiling and sadness are good choices from God.

It's just that life is hard going to be our stupid way of thinking.

As I got used to it without your smile, without your chat, without your voice, without everything about you oh miss?

Maybe today I'm still afraid to fall in love and I prefer to love myself and not want to hurt me.

It's just that right now I can only admire, love in prayer.

Although many women are seductive, I choose not to know her.

My eyes are enough to judge everything that happens in every sheet and sheet that happens in my life.

Before I could love myself.

I will not love anyone and open this heart.

........To know love again.....