Writing a Story on Earth
CHAPTER 42

Miss is not delivered

At this moment I miss, I miss everything about you but this longing I can only ponder deeply.

The days that I have lived are empty without your presence without your greeting, I wish there was one message from you.

I can just go back and forth and open the phone just hoping that there's one incoming message from you..

Actually I'd love to call you but I'm too scared, afraid to bother you.

I would love to ask you at night, is it wrong if I like the figure of someone who already has a lover?

Tonight help me to feel my longing for him, I miss everything about him.

why can't I forget your figure, the more I want to forget everything about you the more you are present in my mind.

The more I want to get away from you the greater this feeling is for you.

I understand very well, I can't possibly have you or more than just a friend..

But right now I really miss you, I can't lie to myself.

I try not to see your smile in my daily life and not to look at you your face that increasingly disturbs my heart and mind.

If only this longing was reciprocated to you that I always wanted to avoid in my life but the longer I got without being able to not see your smile.

Hope this miss tomorrow morning is reciprocated by your greeting that I will be more and more and I wait every time.

But it's impossible for that to be true.

Who am I to you?

Who am I in your life?

I have to ask who else to miss this.

What on the wind that blows in the silence of the night.

What on the stars in the sky that adorn the beauty with its millions of colors.

What on the moon that always gives beauty in every night.

Universe I don't know what I'm thinking right now just that I miss the figure of his smile that makes me in the drunkenness of everything about him.

Aaaaaah this is a longing that drives people crazy.

Lord I can only ask you, you are all-powerful and the most beautiful, the best planner in which I complain of all the restlessness in my life.

Why did he change?

Do I have anything wrong with him?

I didn't know what was wrong, until now he felt distant from me and began to change his attitude towards me.

I hate losing someone again and again.

why I always fail in love.

Fail and fail again and again.

I had to how to find someone who both wanted to be a match with me.

I always carry out all your orders, I always pray and try to find a woman who can accept all my shortcomings.

I have nothing to be proud of.

The throne I don't have.

There's nothing I can be proud of.

I am not a rich man who has everything.

I only have the wealth of heart and always in your way, God.

Is it possible that my soul mate is death, God?

Because I have always failed and failed in love.

God, there is no woman who loves me because of God.

If there is a show and bring it close to the servant.

At my age, the more mental stress that often makes me sad, whether it's insults or insults..

Maybe at my age, all my friends are married and have a child.

Will I feel the beauty of getting married and having a family and having a child.

But I don't want to rush to get married because I want to marry someone you love God.

May my soul not be death.

I believe your plan must be best for me, God.

Amens.