Writing a Story on Earth
CHAPTER 34

God I'm tired but I don't want to give up, the burden on this shoulder is so heavy I accept.

Aaaaaaah I'm desperate..

Aaaaaaah I'm confused there's no place to share a burden story on this shoulder.

The brain raced and kept stabbing my heart and mind, I can only tell you about all the trials from you..

Day after day the insults blinded my eyes, sometimes the desire to end my life but I could not give up..

The smiles of both parents, my loved ones will be very sad if I am invisible to their eyes.

My smile had disappeared, no more smiles were on my face.

Almost every day I cry in my own time, lamenting the contemptuous life of the one who has the throne.

I am a man who must lift the dignity of Drajat parents, so that there is no cry from my parents that I love very much.

Forgive your son mah pah, have not been able to give a happy speck. I'm helpless . As if I regretted a useless life for my parents.

Only resentment that every moment burns emotions.

I want to destroy the body of the person who has the throne because it has made the person I love and respect the most cry in front of me..

Because of helplessness .

Our Lord of simple families do not show the cries of both parents in front of me..

Aaaaaah I can't see it.

This heartache .. as if pierced by a sword from head to toe..

God gave happiness to my parents, always..

Give me all the pain, don't let the pain be there for my parents..

Even if you ask for my life, I'll give it this moment..

God, am I not this useful to my parents, am I this stupid to keep my loved ones in such a lowly way.

God, I believe in what I feel today, someday.

The man who humbles with insults, from his venomous mouth..

It might even hurt more.

Because I believe the earth is spinning, the wheel of life will spin.

Perhaps we are currently in jolimi with all efforts by their throne and property.

Remember the one whose prayer will be quickly accomplished if he sincerely accepts with grace and remains in submission to Allah subahuataala..

But I realized the more I grew up the more I knew what I thought was good.

Because I truly believe in you, O God, I was born into this earth you have set in your whole life.

Well, maybe this ordeal is so hard, I accept it with a big heart as I believe in you, O God.

Rizki's life dead soul mate you've set before I was born on this earth.

For I know and am very sure of you, O God, live dead soul mate in your hands and by your will, O God.

But I always accept freely, keep my heart and surrender to you for all your plans and plans against me.

I continue to do my best for my life and surrender to all the complaints of my life to you, O God.

Because I know, you will not simply change a person's fate, even if that person wants to change it.

What happened, happened with your permission..

Because my story is like a story, there is a writer there is a main character in the story..

All that determines is a writer. A main character can be a good actor or a bad one.

It all depends on the author, what the plot of his life is like. good and evil only in the hands of a writer who determines a story will be a beautiful masterpiece that is able to be conveyed to the hearts of readers who read every story that a writer makes with a deep heart and deep feelings..

I am not a great writer but by writing I have created a true story that I have experienced in the story of my life that God has set for me.

The curse . With treasures and thrones in the possession of a human heart demon.

Always oppressing the weak helpless, I believe at the end of the story they will become demons that God hates subhahuataala..

Amiinn, O God.