You Don't Consider Me
1. MOTHER'S DEATH

“Mbk, here's what his mother's face wants to see now. You see after this can not see the face of his mother again, want us to cover with a shroud.” The very clear word that already ringed – ngiang in the memory of Lianah when he wanted to see the face of his beloved Mother for the last time in this world.

The face is so tired that the body is full of needle puncture almost all over his hands and feet. The scene that made Lianah's heart so sliced and so painful in her life, there was nothing bad that she had experienced all this time other than the death of her mother now.

It is still clearly remembered in Lianah's mind when her beloved mother vomited and was immediately rushed to the nearest hospital with her own biological father. Mother and father cycling in the morning blind, around two in the morning while Lianah with a full nightgown followed her parents from behind with a sense of worry.

All administrative affairs immediately Lianah take care of because she could not bear to see her mother vomit – vomit like that and without waiting for a long time all forms of checks began to be done, and without waiting for any form of examination began to be carried out, from the heart to the X-ray to see the organs in the body, all this has been passed to see the condition of the mother more clearly.

However, the unexpected result was a severe blow to Lianah and the family. How not? Because the results showed all the above normal numbers in his mother, then the treatment in the hospital was something they could not avoid anymore.

Lianah swiftly cleaned up all the needs of her mother without showing a sad face to her parents because of the doctor's message so as not to make the patient burdened. All the burdens are carried by Lianah alone without sharing the distress with others.

Emergency Unit, there Lianah and her parents had to stay overnight while waiting to get a room for her mother. Praying and doing orders from doctors, always done Lianah and his Father without denying at all. Everything is done for the sake of the healing of my beloved mother.

The first day in the hospital around their house, make Lianah's – days not as usual. Because in the last – weeks he had to prepare himself for the submission of functional positions for the rank of his lecturer so that he was not only recognized as an educator.

Starting with education, research and community service and other support has prepared some but many more documents – important documents must be ready immediately because the deadline specified is in sight. But all of this was ignored, for him it was more important for the health of the parents when compared with the rank in the world that was only temporary.

However, the full concentration to care for his parents was nothing at all because the condition of his mother who was getting worse and worse even coma or unconscious for days – days. All the sacrifices that he went through ended on December 22 when the Maghrib adhan on Friday, where his mother last responded to all the tools attached to his body.

It is clear that even Lianah will never forget in her life, the time before Maghrib. An unusual drowsiness was occurring to Lianah, but her mouth did not stop mentioning the asthma of God beside her Mother. “Allah .. Allah .. Allah.” Lianah said so limply because it held back his drowsiness that was not restrained, not as usual.

Suddenly – arrived a sound from a medical device beside him. “Tut .. Tut .. Tut.” This suddenly made Lianah aware of the drowsiness that she had been holding back and immediately got up from her seat and then ran outside the room to call the medics who were on duty right in front of the room His mother or observation room which is indeed twenty-four hours guarded by medics there.

“Bu, please my Mother. The tool sounds – sounds since earlier.” Lianah said as she adjusted her breath in front of the medics for running.

So without waiting for a long time, medics and Lianah immediately ran to his mother's room and then did a check on his beloved Mother who was lying limp helpless at all.

All medical measures were seen Lianah with the Father and other families, where they were gathered there to take care of the mother who was very good and meritorious for Lianah.

The cry that could not be contained out of Lianah's eyes without stopping with a mouth that always chanted God's asthma so that his mother was healthy and could be with him again. Medical action in plain sight and the cries he heard from all family members made his heart pound more and more unruly, somehow at that time there was a very deep sense of concern for him and not as usual.

This speech was like lightning in broad daylight for Lianah, especially his biological Father who was immediately unconscious. We have for seven whole days kept Mom healthy but what happened, death is in sight and cannot be denied.

Beloved mother can no longer be helped, there are no words – words that are so soothing in her heart, no more sweet hugs from her, no more, and no more Mother who always prayed it in every prayer.

“Mother, I haven't been filial to you. Mother, please don't leave Lianah like this.” Lianah's shout that instantly made the female Bibik embrace her while crying was being sucked – brewed without stopping at all.

“Propos Li, patience. This is all God's destiny, pity your mother if you have to be injected and feel pain many times – times. Allah loves your Mother more so Allah invites your Mother not to feel pain anymore.” Cetus Bibik Ninih, the younger sister of his father.

Lianah was just crying in her arms nonstop, there were feelings of regret, sadness, disappointment, anger and many others in her at this moment. Everything was mixed into one in his mind.

“Sorry, want us to remove the tool – medical tool.” Say one of the medics who began to clean the device attached to the entire body of the mother.

Lianah simply nodded without having any more strength to respond to the medical officer's words.

Cry after cry sounded louder and louder within the room endlessly, the aura of sadness felt so profound back then. No one can not be sad because of the loss of a very good mother for Lianah and other family members.

“Bodies will we down first to the morgue, some follow me and some please to the administration to solve everything.” Said the medical officer who immediately walked outside while pushing his mother's bed.

Bibik Ninih without looking right and left immediately pulled Lianah out to the administration, they both walked slowly towards there while holding the sadness in each – each.

“You're patient Li, pity your fate Deck. Already lost parents and Bibik – Bibik from your mother even talk like that.” Bibik Ninih said while embracing Lianah and kept walking non-stop.

“Means.” It was Lianah who immediately stopped her path.

“Bibik from your mother had talked to Bibik if you are a child who is not devoted to your mother, even though you have been schooled until you can become a lecturer like now.” Cetus Bibik Ninih which made the world of Lianah more destroyed at that time.

“Means.” Cetus Lianah who does not want to accept the reality on him now.