You Don't Consider Me
10. I GOTTA GO

The departure of – men it feels to make me very relieved like a person who is very thirsty and get drinking water after a long time. Yes, although everyone seems to still want to talk – talk further but it can not be done because of the promise he has made before.

Everyone drove the – man to the front of the house while I was alone in the house and did not pay attention to him at all his departure which I am very grateful for. For to me the presence and all the words of the – man are like the wind and have no meaning at all in my life, let them be useless.

“You are yes, if you are a person then pay attention to your manners and manners. Since earlier Budeh noticed you do not seem to like the presence of Abah earlier, if you do not like it.” Cetus Budeh Aini with a loud voice and it was very clear that this was heard by everyone in my house, making me feel very embarrassed.

My gaze that was busy with snacks in front of my eyes, immediately turned to Budehku whose speech was very outrageous because he spoke while snapping – snapped me. “Can not Budeh if his voice is slowed down, do not snap – snapped so. So it's not good to hear.” I told him by trying to hold back my emotions.

Budeh Aini immediately pointed at – pointing at me who was still sitting still earlier. “Boy stinks kencur, it's been brave for you to parse an old man. You don't think of me, what a pity my sister's fate is to have a child like you.” Said Bibik Aini who seemed to not care about my feelings at all.

I took a deep breath and then spoke to my aunt just now. “It's not that I broke Budeh, I was a kid and had a lot to learn. But I only asked for help so that his voice would not be too loud. Try Budeh if so me, how does he feel in snapped – snapped like that, must be hurt. Define Budeh.” I said that I did not want to lose to Budehku just now.

“See that, what's the name if it's not paring. Keep that your mouth, don't you know that you're the cause of my sister's death. You should be here, who died, not my sister. Basic child does not know grateful.” Budeh Aini said with a voice that grew louder again.

Bibik Ninih came straight to me and covered my ears. “Please he said, he is our father and he is the one who is the most grieved at losing his mother. So let's be more mature in responding to all this and don't get carried away with emotions.” Bibik Ninih's voice while crying was saddest – brewed.

I was crying at that moment. “If indeed the death of someone can be exchanged as Budeh Aini said just now, I want to be exchanged. I want to replace my mother if life is this sad, anyway I am also not who – who my presence will be needed in the future.” I said as I was broken – was broken because I spoke while crying.

Bibik Ninih hugged me tightly and tried to calm myself now. It seems that the person who most appreciates and cares for me now is only Bibik Ninih, not anyone else even my own Father as a parent.

He just kept watching everything that happened just now, he didn't split me and kept looking at me with an emotional look.

“I went back to Bik's room, it seems my presence here can only bring a dispute.” I said to Bibik Ninih and left everyone in the living room.

Immediately I opened the door to my room, there was my sister sitting at the study table without looking at me. I didn't talk to him, just chose to be quiet and lay down so I could calm myself down.

Teng ... Teng. The alarm in my room went off and I opened my eyes and started the activity early, although I knew that none of this would be appreciated.

After I finished my activities, I joined my family in the dining room immediately but when I came. I don't know why I feel like everyone there is silent and doesn't say anything to me.

I took breakfast without saying anything. Only the sound of plates and others being used for eating.

“Lisa, done. Let's go Mr.” Said my brother to the Father who immediately ended his meal as soon as possible.

I saw the two of them leave before me without speaking anything, not even a word. Immediately I turned my gaze towards Grandma and then spoke to her. “Nek, why don't Father and Sister talk to me now?” My toot.

I took a deep breath and I believe that this behavior has something to do with the arrival of – men last night, who spoke out for some reason. I ended my breakfast today because I felt no appetite at all.

I continued the activity in my room by starting to give back private lessons online because I was just an educator, so the time – time I went through by teaching even though the money is not too much but enough if to finance the needs of my life.

Time starts running second by second, minute by minute and hour by hour. Where I've all been through to spin the nation's generation.

“Dek, you in the room?” Ask Bibik Ninih who seemed to visit today to my house.

Immediately I opened the door and directed Bibik Ninih to sit on my bed right now. “What's Bik?” Ask myself again and allow my aunt to speak.

“What is your job done?” Ask Bibik Ninih back to me.

I nodded as a sign of confirming what Bibik Ninih had just asked me. Although I strongly believe that all this, there will be a connection with the conversation last night with the man – man called Abah.

“Already Bik, can I help you?” I answered Bibik Ninih just now.

Bibik Ninih took a deep breath and then spoke to me again. “You must already know what happened last night and the direction of the conversation. So, after you leave the living room and go to the room. There are a few things we discussed regarding some that Abah talked about last night.”

“How is the decision of the Bik family?” I asked while trying to hold back the sadness.

“Solve everything but don't repay lives with lives. It's just that, my brother or your father began to think negatively about your actions. Deck, in case you have to get out of this house and let things settle down first. Hows it? Only for a while Dek.” Ask Bibik Ninih to me. Where Bibik Ninih's speech now, like the expulsion that happened to me after my mother's passing.

“I mean Aunt, if I have to leave this house.” My cetus confirmed to my aunt just now.

Bibik Ninih nodded at me. “If it is indeed the best, I should how else. This house is not mine either. So want me to be sent out of this house, legitimate – is legitimate.” I said in a soft voice.

Bibik Ninih just fell silent to see me, I shed my tears and I immediately opened my closet by preparing some clothes for me to go under. “Do these clothes still deserve me to carry?” Ask slowly.

“Bring only Deck.” Answer Bibik Ninih.

I packed all my things right now, almost two big suitcases full of clothes and everything I needed. “Dek, not now you have to go. You have to prepare everything first, just go from here.” Bibik Ninih said while holding both my suitcases.

“You now or tomorrow, end – ends I have to scrape. If indeed my presence is a big problem here, then it would be better if I leave right now.” I pulled two suitcases out of my room.