You Don't Consider Me
4. SUSPICIOUSLY
The words I just unintentionally heard, I didn't really care because they didn't matter in my life right now. The important thing in plain sight is to focus on my sister and I think that's more important than anything else now.
Me and my sister Lisa now can only rest at home and try to accept the reality that is so bitter now. I as Big Brother should be able to show more fortitude and strength in me to face all of this. Because if I'm not strong, who else can strengthen my brother later.
In my mind there was still a feeling of sadness and disbelief, but after I thought back to what had happened now. Then it will be until when I act pathetic continue and if this is the next, how the fate of my sister in the future. He still needs a figure that can strengthen him, so I am the figure of Big Brother who should be able to be the person next to him continuously.
“Lianah, sleeping?” Ask Bibik Ninih who was in front of my room while knocking – ngetok door.
Hearing this made me immediately wake up from my seat and open the door, even though my body felt so tired because it had not rested since yesterday. “Include Bik.” Answer me while opening the door.
“What's Bik?” I asked Bibik Ninih who came to the room with a blue apron in his hand.
Bibik Ninih lowered his head for a while then answered my question just now. “Listen to Bibik for a moment, your Uncle was asked by your father to go to the smart man's house. Want to ask about the death of your mother who was considered unnatural.”
This makes me remember some of the events that I had experienced yesterday while keeping my mother in the hospital, there are indeed some strange things that I experienced.
Remember, before Mom was moved from the hospital near the house to the city center, the night Mom was angry – angry at me because I did not give tea on the table. Not to be a child who was ungodly, but the doctor forbade me to give food or something sweet to my mother and recommended fasting for my mother so that her condition would improve.
I don't know why, that night. When I was alone guarding my mother in room Melati 2 with two patients who were on the left and center while Mom was on the right. It was still clear when it showed the time of eleven nights, where the patient who was in the left corner shouted – and did not wait for a long time was declared dead by doctors at the hospital.
That time, I tried to be brave to be able to keep my mother alone because the patient who was in the middle immediately closed the curtain with his family while you had to go home to check the pond he left that night. So I immediately closed the curtain following what the patient's family did in the middle of the room, even though the atmosphere felt so scary and that night I tried to sleep even though it was very difficult.
The time showed at one in the morning and Mom seemed to be trying to reach for the tea that was next to me, when I woke up then I reflexively moved the position of the tea while saying to my mother. “Bu, don't drink this. Prohibited by the Doctor, Lianah just get water ya.”
I haven't had time to take the water that is not far from my mother but I heard the voice of Mom who was angry with me with her voice so soft. “Basic brat, you don't know grateful. Infirm child with parents.”
“Bu.” I said as I gasped to hear Mother's words just now, things I've never heard in my life. Never once did Mom get angry or yell at me in her life but this time it was different that it made me so shocked.
When I and the others were about to calm Mother, with her strength my clothes were immediately torn while my uncle grabbed her neck until it felt so painful because it was pulled so strong. We think this is an out-of-bounds force, a woman who has been unconscious for four days but has that kind of power.
In light of other events, at twelve o'clock more nights. There I and some of the Bibiks who were waiting took turns to read Yasin and other readings. Arrived – there is a bad smell or goods that move by themselves, and this was witnessed by many people so I myself feel astonished at what happened.
However, the strange things we have experienced so far. I just think of learning as not something to be questioned again.
“You daydream Dek.” Said Bibik Ninih who saw me a little pensive for a long time.
I woke up from my daydream just now. “He .. He ... He …. Yeah Bik, a little bit. It's not natural how to Bik?” I asked Bibik Ninih who continued our conversation.
“Say your Father, there was once a small snake that did not know where it came from and strange events that we have experienced when looking after your Mother as well.” Answer Bibik Ninih.
My gaze was fixed on Bibik Ninih with a view full of question marks regarding the real thing that happened. “You know Dek, the smart man's answer is if someone accidentally killed your mother and her man's house is in the east.” Bibik Ninih told me.
“Don't believe such a thing Bik, this is all God's will swt. If it is true like that but if Allah does not want it will not happen at all.” My cetus to Bibik Ninih while looking at my sister who was just silent listening to our conversation.
Bibik Ninih took a long breath. “Iya anyway Dek, but want any thing – things we experience that we can not let go. Moreover, the bad thing, actually addressed to you but instead befall your mother. We can't stay silent.” Said Bibik Ninih who is still very excited to tell a story.
Lianah was silent for a while and looked at Bibik Ninih's face then began to ask again over Bibik Ninih's words just now. “What do you mean Bik? I still don't really understand what Bibik just said.”
“That is to say, the person directed bad things at you Deck but because bad luck befell your Mother so the thing that was aimed directly at your Mother until your Mother died as it is today.” Reply to Bibik Ninih who began to explain to his father.
Lianah took a breath and started to say back. “I still can't think straight back Bik now, because it's still awkward in my opinion. Let alone the wrong targets or bad intentions directed at me or my mother, we never bear evil fruit to others. Why would anyone else do this to us? It doesn't feel possible. Then I also do not understand Bik, if it is true then we cannot prove and if there is a bad person then what we do next. Do the same with him, so what is the difference between me and him? So in my mind now that you don't need to know who made her die like this because everything that happened was God's destiny and the important thing that was needed was a prayer for my parents. So, it feels like I can't if invited to think until the mystical thing.”
The length of things I explained to Bibik Ninih just now but that suspicion can not just disappear, let alone someone who is said to be smart and say bad things that happen to the family. So it is only natural that Bibik Ninih or anyone will dig deeper into what was said just now.