A Flick of Asa For Love
CHAPTER 35

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Since returning home from campus, until late at night Widya locked herself in a room. His eyes were fixed on the book in front of him, but his mind was not there at all. Widya also ignored all the calls on her phone, not least from Nathan. Even Arini repeatedly invited her to dinner, but Widya just shook her head. He was pondering what Cindy said the other day. Fear returned to her. Is it true that he was only used as an impingement by Nathan?

Repeatedly he rubbed his face to relieve his anger. Widya glanced at the clock on her study desk. How many hours he had been sitting there, only moving when carrying out his obligations, after which Widya would return to her seat.

Widya deactivated her phone before she finally decided to lay her body on the mattress, staring at the ceiling of the room that was getting increasingly blackened and made her move to dreamland.

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After dawn, Widya chose to jog around GOR. The atmosphere this morning was not too crowded, considering that today was not a weekend, making Widya feel quite calm because there was no interference from anyone.

Widya deliberately left her phone at home to avoid being distracted. In fact, from last night he turned off his phone. He wanted to relax his mind by exercising and get off his phone for a moment.

Widya inhaled air while stretching her muscles. He warmed up a few minutes before he started running. “Ah .. The air is quite fresh. It's nice to clear your mind,” he said while closing your eyes.

“Wid!” hearing someone call her, Widya's eyes suddenly opened, and she stopped her activities. Circulating the view looking for the direction of the sound source.

How surprised Widya was when she realized who called her. “Hai, Wid!” greet the girl as soon as it gets in front of Widya. “Lo, really, alone? Where's nathan?” he continued, looking for Nathan's figure.

Widya rolled her eyeballs. “Udahlah, Cin. I don't want to talk about that anymore. Mending we jog, yuk!” bring Wiyda.

Cindy followed Widya's quick steps as soon as the girl walked away from her. “Lo is fighting with Nathan again? Because Vina? They really have a relationship, huh?” Cindy pretends to be innocent. His feet kept walking trying to keep pace with Widya's steps. Unfortunately, Widya did not mengubrisnya and continued her jogging activities.

Not getting a response from Widya, Cindy thought of another way. “Lo break up with Nathan?” Cindy's last question successfully made Widya stop her steps.

Widya stared intently at Cindy, then adjusted her breathing. “Cin, Nathan is in love with me, so am I. You can't change that.”

Cindy smiled wryly, “Lo forgot, when Harsa ninggalin lo because you just venting? Do I need anything else at that time?” his challenge.

Widya smiled too. “Inget, Cin, I want, kok,” the answer is relaxed.

“At that time Harsa also said love lo lo lo, right? But in fact?” Cindy felt like she was winning. He feels able to make Widya feel suspicious of Nathan.

With that suspicion, Cindy hopes Widya will rethink the continuation of her relationship with Nathan. This will make their relationship more and more tenuous. That's when Cindy intends to get back to Nathan with all her attention. Plus the presence of Vina who is increasingly supporting her plan without her having to spend a lot of energy. Yes, Cindy has to be a little patient for this big plan.

“Cin ...,” call Widya slowly, making Cindy quite surprised and woke up from her daydream. “Nathan is different from Harsa. He was the first to love me. In the past, I loved first with Harsa. Oh, yes .. My love is reciprocated, Cin. Not alone like someone's love,” said Widya displaying her smirk.

Widya's words were enough to make Cindy shocked and furious. She felt insinuated by what Widya told her. It turns out that making Cindy hesitate, provoking Widya is not as easy as she thought.

Cindy's mood is inversely proportional to Widya's. After leaving Cindy with her shock, she immediately looked for a place to hide. Widya recalled making Cindy not wart in front of her, with a challenging smile that she rarely showed to others. He tried hard not to want to look weak, even though his chest was already rumbling quite hard.

“Nath, will you hurt me, just like Harsa used to?” ask Widya in heart.

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After jogging, Widya was so surprised to find Nathan on the porch of her house. With a giant step he approached Nathan, “What are you doing here?” widya sarcasm. Heavy, Widya held back the tightness that was squeezing her chest. Seeing Nathan, as if to remind him of his disappointment.

“Yang,” Og Nathan. There was a twinkle of regret in his eyes seeing Widya's indifferent attitude. “I miss you,” he continued.

“Oh, yes? Isn't it that you're still as fun as Vina?”

Nathan ignored Widya's question. For him at this time just want to let go of longing with the people he loves. Well, they haven't had time together in a long time. If there was even a chance to go with Widya, then Vina would always be between the two of them.

“What if I told you, you would follow me?”

“Definitely, dear,” replied Nathan full of confidence.

“Together Vina?” Nathan knitted his eyebrows together a sign of not understanding. “And if you come without Vina, when Vina contacts you and asks for your help, I will be left immediately. Aye, right? So much Vina means to you? What's beyond what I mean in your life, Nath?” This time Widya did not want to hold back her frustration at Nathan.

“Why are you, honey? Don't be jealous of Vina! I only accompany Vina as a friend, she needs a friend at this time,” Nathan said. He hoped Widya would understand the situation.

“And me? Don't I need you?” furious Widya, “Already. I also do not use. I want to get ready first.” Widya rushed into the house.

Nathan heard Widya's words. “Sorry,” softly while looking at the back of the lover who began to disappear from his sight, without wanting to explain anything else.

After Widya gets ready, they go to the campus along with Nathan's motorbike. Throughout the journey only Nathan actively spoke, while Widya only responded as necessary.

Disappointment and hurt that accumulate in Widya's heart as if unable to match the magnitude of his love for Nathan. It is so easy to apologize to the lover of the heart. Although upset, he still tried to be patient in the face of Nathan's completely insensitive attitude.

“Nath,” call Widya.

“Ya, Dear?”

“You didn't make me an impingement, did you?” Widya's question made Nathan quite surprised. Without warning, he stepped on the brakes that made Widya almost fall if not holding on to Nathan.

Nathan pulled the bike over. He opened the helmet that covered almost his entire face. He turned his head to the side to clearly stare at his lover's face. “What are you talking about, anyway? I sincerely love you.”

Widya pulled her hand from Nathan's waist. “Am I wrong, if I doubt you?” ask Widya slowly.

Nathan let out his breath. Winning Widya's heart is not easy, even when she has become her lover Widya still holds doubts about him. “What makes you hesitate?”

“Vina's presence near you makes me doubt you. You look like lovers, not as friends. And since Vina's presence, I'm no longer your priority, but Vina. There is only Vina in your mind,” Widya replied.

“Sorry, Dear. I really didn't mean it that way. I just can't see Vina slumped. Now he needs me again. I just want to strengthen him.”

“I'm jealous, Nath. I'm sorry, it's not that I don't want to understand Vina's situation. It's just that your togetherness has disturbed my heart,” Widya said, staring blankly at Nathan.

Nathan pulled Widya's hand back to her waist. Swiping it slowly to provide calm. “Yang, for God's sake. In my heart there is only love for you. Vina is just the past. From now on I will try to make a distance from Vina. You believe in me, don't you?” Widya nodded, although there was still some doubt.

“Honestly Nath, I don't want to see what happened with Harsa repeated. The fear sometimes arises, especially since the arrival of Vina in our relationship,” said Widya sadly, She tightened her arms from behind. He rested his head on Nathan's back.

“Whatever happens, I will stay with you. It's not easy, Wid. And it's not easy for me to release you.” Widya's heart was slightly touched, but she did not respond to Nathan's words.

After calming Widya down, Nathan resumed his journey. Widya was still staring at Nathan's figure from behind her body. I hope what Nathan said is true. Fortunately, he had a friend who always supported him. So that he can be stronger to face the problem.

“I hope what you say is true, Nath. Do not break my heart to formless, until I myself will be difficult to fix it,” inner Widya.

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I'm forgiven, no. Don't repeat, Nath! Except the same I 😅️️️

To his gift, dong, Gengs. Don't be stingy, deh 🤭