A Flick of Asa For Love
CHAPTER 53

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Nathan kept knocking on that door until he finally gave up. Give up for now, but not give up to maintain his relationship with the lover. With the rest of the energy he had, he stepped his feet to leave Widya's house. Just one step, suddenly the sound of the door opening, made him excited to turn around. There was a sense of disappointment when she found out that the one who opened the door was Arini's mother.

"Widya is there, Bun? Nathan wants to talk to him. Can you, right, Bun?" Nathan begged Arini. He wanted to feel like he was whining for help in order to meet Widya, but he paused because it was inappropriate for adult men to do such a thing.

"Mother does not know what your problem is, but as Widya's mother, you can't see your mother's children constantly grieving. If Nathan can't make you happy it's better to let go of Widya!" said Mother Arini soft and full of emphasis.

Nathan was struck by lightning when he heard Arini speak. "But, Bun—"

"Not to defend the mother's child, but why maintain a relationship that hurts each other? If you are meant to be together, God will make your way together easier. For now let Widya alone, make this moment for introspection of each of you. What makes your relationship this way." Arini cut Nathan's words. Actually Arini felt sorry to see Nathan's situation that looked increasingly chaotic. Her whole body was soaked, Arini wanted to offer shelter, but it was the same as refusing the request of her son-Widya, who did not want to meet Nathan.

With his sluggish face, Nathan is forced to obey Arini's orders not to meet Widya. True what Mother Arini said, they need time to introspect each other. Maybe for some people it is easy to forgive, but the disappointment that has been in the heart is not easy to just disappear.

"I'm sorry Nathan, Bun. Nathan was wrong to make Widya sad and disappointed, but really Nathan really love and love Widya, Nathan can not lose her." Nathan apologizes to Arini.

"It all depends on Widya's decision. Mother cannot interfere. Mommy can only give advice that you think is good for you. Mother believes you are adults and can make decisions wisely. So think well!" While patting Nathan's arm, Arini gives strength to Nathan who looks lethargic and uninspired.

"Thank you, Mother. Nathan go home first." Kissing Arini's hand, Nathan said goodbye leaving Widya's house with feelings that were still chaotic, because he could not accept Widya's decision to ask her to break up.

Orange rays have been seen at the eastern end. The light that emanates seems to encourage anyone to start activities and look for needs or expectations. Although sometimes the spirit will fade with the fading of sunlight, but the cycle will still repeat. There are times when we fall, and there are times when we rise. Don't let that slump last long.

Widya who had looked fresh after taking a bath stood in front of the glass watching her reflection. She felt her eyes still look swollen from crying all night. Want how else, crying is one of the right media to vent sadness for women. Suddenly the sound of a mobile phone shaking distracts from her eye bags, there is Karin's name there.

"Hello, Rin. Assalamualaikum?" greet Widya.

"Kosanaflame, Wid. Kartika says we can't come, so we go alone, how?"

"Nothing, if it's just the two of us. Why couldn't he come? How, all of a sudden?"

"He said there was a family event, so he helped his mother. I'll pick you up, will I?"

"No need. I go straight to TKP, you'll be far away."

"OK, shit!"

"Mother, Widya say goodbye first, yes! Want to walk the same way Karin to the old building that I once told Mother," said Widya to Arini who was washing dirty furniture.

"Breakfast first, honey! Mother does not permit you to leave, if you have not had breakfast," he threatened.

Widya sat at the dinner table, forced to obey the orders of her mother who was taking rice and side dishes for her.

"No exclamation, Mother! Take the ngancem event anyway." Widya flicked her lips while putting rice in her mouth. "Ouch!" Widya complained when Mother Arini pinched her cheek because of anxiety. "Sickness, Mother!"

"Once your lips are empty, you will be gnarled." Mother Arini chuckled, followed by Widya's laughter.

"Mother is happy to see you laughing. Honestly, you don't like to see you grieve, honey," he added.

Widya's face became sad. However, he tried to smile when he realized that his mother had a face that was equally sad.

Arini stroked her daughter's hand as if to give her strength. "For so long, you've tried not to interfere with your problems, but seeing as you're often sad, it seems that your problems this time are quite heavy."

"There's nothing more to talk about with me than Nathan, Bun." There was a sense of tightness in Widya's chest as she said that sentence. Maybe Widya is selfish, but the disappointment she feels with Nathan is too great, "Widya chose to split up and it was the right choice, Bun." Without realizing it, his eyelids had already accommodated the details of tears.

"But yesterday you saw Nathan looking really messed up. Mother sure, Nathan still loves you very much."

"Either Bun, if he really loves Widya, what does it mean to love her if there is no trust for the person he loves? It's just gonna look like an obsession, Bun." The tears that he had been holding back from earlier had finally spilled out as well. Mother Arini immediately hugged her daughter.

"Well, you'll always support you no matter what you decide, as long as it doesn't hurt your heart. You feel guilty if you see you continue to grieve, dear." The conversation ended with a close hug from Arini while patting Widya's back to feel calm. However, it actually made him spill his tears while sobbing, as if he wanted to vent all his sadness so far. Mother let her daughter cry to vent her grief.

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Some time passed, heavy days passed by Widya and Nathan. Both hold a sense of love and longing. Since Widya's last communication with Nathan by phone, who said to mengikhlaskan relationship, make their relationship awkward. It wasn't easy for Nathan or Widya herself. Especially if you have to meet in person. Fortunately, they rarely met, because they just waited for the graduation schedule.

However, Nathan who realizes his mistake tries not to harass Widya again. The weight of the day he went through by busying himself on the work. Vina's presence no longer cared about her. Often Vina who whines takes him for a walk, he always ignores her just like that and ends up locking himself in the room. Liana was worried about the state of her eldest son who even when eating time was often absent on the grounds of falling asleep.

"Mama reminded you, son, but you didn't listen to her. And now, seeing you like this makes you feel sick, too" Liana murmured when she saw the chaotic and often daydreaming Nathan. His son is now a more quiet person and often confined himself in the room.

Liana, who could not bear to see her son, could only pray that things would improve soon. He realized that it was his son's fault. However, the weakness of a Vina is able to blind Nathan's heart from the truth. If his words alone are not heard, let time prove them all. He tried to convince his son.

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