A Flick of Asa For Love
CHAPTER 93

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Dusk has changed color with the darkness of the night. Lots of stars whose rays look so small, even though he is actually quite large. That was how Harsa felt about Widya. She thought her feelings for Widya had begun to shrink, because she sincerely let Widya choose and marry Nathan. However, the tightness in his chest and the feeling that felt chaotic after seeing Widya's state seemed to prove that his love was still quite big on the girl.

"Why is this sick when you see how you are now, Wid? I wish I would hold you in my arms, giving you happiness and tranquility. However, can I give you a sense of happiness and calmness, if I'm not the source of your happiness?" Unconsciously, her tears flowed gently to her cheeks, then she brusquely wiped them away with a sigh.

After returning home from Widya's house, Harsa rushed to clean up. Hope every drop of water from the shower's tiny holes can give him some peace. He recalled the moment Widya intended to end her life. Can't she imagine if she really lost Widya in such a stragic way. He tried to make Widya happy because he wanted to see her happy. Not even more suffering and chaotic like now. After taking a shower, he went to the balcony of his room. He watched the night sky with a look of sadness.

"What should I do to make you cheerful again, Wid?" ask her in heart while shuffling her wet hair in frustration. He let out an emotion by shouting, "Nat, why are you leaving so soon? Why did you go this way? It turns out that life without rivals is not exciting and not challenging, Nath. Please, back, Nath! Don't be a coward! He said you want to make Widya happy, why just make her suffer again like now, Nath?" Harsa's rant was heard softly holding back the cries. For Harsa, Nathan is not only a rival, but also a good friend. It made Harsa feel lost.

The knock from the direction of the room door made Harsa mourn for her grief. Not only because of losing Nathan, more precisely because of seeing Widya's current condition.

"Sa, don't you have dinner first? Papa's waiting downstairs." Mama Harsa–Eviyana's voice rang out behind the door. Mama Evi was worried, because unlike usual Harsa was late at the dinner table. The man will be there first, telling his mother when preparing the meal.

"Yes, Ma, Harsa's coming down." After hearing the answer from her son, Evi leaves Harsa's room and returns to the dining room.

When Harsa arrived at the dining room, she greeted her father and apologized. "Sorry, Pa, Harsa's late."

"Hem." After hearing the short answer from Papa Rendra, Harsa immediately took the rice and side dishes to eat in silence.

"Sa, how's Widya doing?" Evi's question stopped Harsa's activities that would feed the last rice, making her face turn sad. Finally put the spoon back.

"There has been no change. Harsa pity, Ma. He could not accept Nathan's departure. His mind was still muddled with the sadness he felt, Ma." With teary eyes, Harsa recounts Widya's circumstances, but not her suicidal intentions. Because for some people having suicidal intentions is despicable, Harsa does not want her parents to think the same to Widya.

While Evi himself has known Widya, because Harsa has often told her since High School. As Harsa plays the girl and realizes her feelings for Widya. Since then, Evilah has been the safest place to confide in him and not his best friend. "Ma, about Harsa should how to make Widya forget her grief?"

"So, from earlier upset because of thinking about Widya's situation?" Candaan Rendra immediately got a sharp look from his wife. He joked when his son was holding back tears.

"This papa. People are sad again, even mocked," Harsa replied with a sewot. The papa will look scary when the rules in the house are violated, but will be humorous at times unexpectedly.

"You'll have a meeting with friends, dear," Evi suggested, stroking the back of her child's hand. "Maybe it could shift his sadness. If left alone continue, of course he will be more daydreaming and the memory of Nathan will continue to be remembered."

Harsa thought for a moment. A fluffy smile was painted on his lips when getting advice from the mother. "Let's try, Ma." Harsa's answer was responded by Evi by patting Harsa on the back, a sign of encouragement.

"It looks like papa's just a mosquito repellent, yeah." Rendra's remarks made Harsa's attention and her mother distracted. Make the child and the mother shake the head made.

These few days Harsa was perplexed by the fifty-fifty final decision. Harsa also tried to send a message to Widya. However, what happens is just typing and deleting it. He did it over and over again without a single message being sent. Harsa hesitates, if the message will not be read by Widya. Finally, Harsa decided to call Widya.

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Several days have passed since the incident Widya who wants to end her life. Arini and Bowo are more strict in watching Widya. Widya herself felt calmer. Harsa's words on the lake felt to have touched his heart, plus often see the mother's sad face. Now Widya is sitting in the family room with her mother Arini. He followed his mother's invitation to accompany him to watch television. His eyes might be fixed on the screen in front, but the sight was blank his mind out of nowhere. Mother Arini who realized that only sighed confusedly. What's to be done? Did he have to take his daughter to a psychiatrist? The sound of mobile vibration diverts Arini's attention. Arini accidentally brought her daughter's phone that has been abandoned for so long, in the hope that there are Widya friends who call or just say hello through WhatsApp.

"Harsa called, honey," said Arini hoping Widya would pick him up. However, his daughter only glanced at him.

"Widya again males talk, Bun," Widya replied as she kept looking straight at the television screen in front of her.

"Released, Honey! Not good, Harsa had taken the time to call. Don't you want to thank Harsa?" Mother's speech was able to divert Widya's attention, Widya lazily picked up the phone.

"Hello, Wid. Assalamualaikum," said Harsa as soon as the phone was connected.

"Waalaikumsallam," Widya's reply was almost inaudible to Harsa. Of course this makes Harsa's heart feel sliced. Widya seems to have no spirit of life.

"Who else? We plan to go to the top this weekend. You come, yeah!"

Long time no answer from Widya. The girl seemed to be thinking.

"Sorry, I can't come, Sa." Silence there is no further sentence from Widya that Harsa expected.

"What if we go to the book bazaar? Yesterday I had time to go there, many good and latest books about the interior, or you want to find a novel? Many new novels have gone viral. Gini-gini, I know a novel that's viral, you know." Harsa tries to slip a joke, hoping Widya wins but as usual. "Gue knew from the guards there." Harsa closed the sentence with a small laugh, hoping that her joke could comfort Widya. However, all that seemed futile, because there was no response from Widya. Even across the street, a thin, barely visible smile flashed across Widya's face unbeknownst to Harsa.

"Why else can I make you cheerful again, Wid? Is that how much love you have for Nathan, so it's too hard to love him? When will you realize that the highest form of love is love?" Harsa had a monologue in her heart.

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