A Flick of Asa For Love
CHAPTER 90

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“Yang, you, really, skinny, anyway? Ugly tau,” Nathan wows Widya's nose as they enjoy the beautiful twilight on the edge of the blue lake.

“Aaan, anyway?” Widya brushed off Nathan's hand that played her nose.

“Smiles, dong! Me, tuh, most immediately look at your smile. Yang, sorry it's all my fault, yeah! I hope you will always be happy. I beg you very, smile!” Nathan looked into the sad eyes of the woman beside him. “You know, your smile is my happiness. So, no matter how bitter the reality of life you go through, you have to keep smiling. Be strong, whether I am or without me! You may be sad, but then you must rise. You're a strong girl. I'm sure you can live a good life. Remember, if the fire of my love never dies. Make it a spirit in wading the ark of life. I remain beside you even though my soul is no longer by your side, but I will always live in your heart.”

Widya was unable to reply to Nathan's words, she fell silent. The eyes of the lover who had been teasing loneliness. Leads him to a happy room, though the road to reach it must be through sharp pebbles that scar him.

Sayup-sayup sounds of holy verses echoing. Her temples were beautifully summed up to calm her troubled heart. Slowly but surely, the shadow of Nathan sitting next to him began to fade. Widya's soul began to return from the dreamland that she had been to. The voice of the mother who was teaching in the room was increasingly real. Ogre, but it sounds obvious in Widya's sense of hearing. The different room ceilings from some time ago are increasingly pulling Widya towards the real world. Widya turned to her left side and saw droplets after droplets of clear liquid in the infusion bottle that flowed slowly through the plumbing bending towards her hands.

“Honey, you're up.” Arini's voice diverted Widya's attention from her hand that was impaled by an infusion needle.

Widya looked at Arini who was still wrapped in mucus, her eyes asking for an explanation of what happened until Widya was in this place. Arini's shady smile emanated, trying to calm her daughter who was still devastated by Nathan's departure.

“We're in the hospital, honey. You fainted when we were at the tomb. Harsa immediately brought you here, and saw your weak condition. The doctor suggested a few days hospitalization. You take a break, yeah! Want to drink?” tawar Arini's.

Widya nodded slowly, she felt her throat dry, fusing her soul as if it was stranded in an arid desert. Arini immediately fetches water and helps Widya to drink.

“What time, Bun?” widya asked with her weak voice.

“Half eight,” replied Arini as she opened her door.

“I slept all this time?” widya almost couldn't believe it. His memory goes back, he was at Nathan's funeral, and Nathan was just there in his dream. A beautiful dream that is only for a moment.

“You need to rest so you can recover, honey. Wanna eat? Mommy bribe, huh?” bargain Arini after folding the mukena and put on the sofa that is beside Widya's bed. Widya shook her head slowly. “You must eat, Honey! You don't want to stay here long, ’kan?” ask Arini gently.

Widya turned her face away without answering Arini's question. His eyes closed again unwillingly to respond to Arini's question. Soon enough, a smooth snoring sound and regular breathing began to be heard. Arini smiled looking at her daughter's condition. As a result of the sedative that the doctor had to give last afternoon, making Widya sleep again.

More than a week since the news of the plane crash that hit Nathan, Widya has completely lost her appetite. The longer his body got weaker, the more his soul was shaken after Nathan's funeral. With a heavy heart, the family took the girl to the hospital for treatment. With the hope that Widya can really rest her body and soul.

While in the hospital, her tears never flowed again. However, he was more silent and daydreaming. Widya is busy with her own world. This makes Arini sad. Arini did not stop praying for her daughter. At all times he always invites Widya to talk and joke even though none of the talking material is responded to by Widya.

Tok tok!

“Assalamualaikum.” There was a soft voice coming from behind the door, a voice that Widya was familiar with.

“Waalaikumsalam,” reply Arini. Not long after that the door creaked. A beautiful face appeared with a shady smile, followed by the face of a sweet girl behind him.

“How are you, Widya?” Liana walked over with Ellen spreading a warm smile. Widya just turned her head for a moment without returning Liana's greeting.

“Widya getting better, Jeng. Last morning was going to eat porridge,” replied Arini as if faced with her toddler.

“Kak, spit healed, yes. Go back to Ellen's house. Let rame kayak first,” said Ellen with sparkling eyes. Hearing the word ‘rumah’ Widya's attention is diverted. He looked at Ellen's face.

“Go back?” The first word of the day that came out of Widya's lips. Ellen nodded with a sweet smile.

“Yes, we're home. Big brother is healthy, yes. Eat a lot. Oh yeah, Brother has lunch?” asked Ellen glanced at the food on the nightstand that was still intact. Understand if Widya hasn't touched her lunch ration. Widya shook her head slowly. “Ellen bribe, yes,” bargain Ellen take such food.

“Neventless. Sister eat alone.” Widya's reply made Arini and Liana smile happily. Ellen placed the place to eat in Widya's lap.

“Eh, Mama brought food from home, Brother want to eat too? Bentar, Ellen get it.” Deftly Ellen took Liana's cooking. Put some side dishes in Widya's eating container.

“Let's eat together, Tan. Even if it's not at the dinner table, is it, Ma?” ellen's noisy voice filled the room making Arini and Liana smile. This is the first time Widya wants to eat alone.

Three days Widya was hospitalized. His friends and family took turns to come to accompany him and invite him to chat. Widya's physical condition has improved to this day Widya is allowed to go home.

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Widya chose to go home, back to her own room she had long left behind. Despite the weight, Liana had to allow Widya to return home. Heavy for Liana to take off Widya. For him Widya is a replacement for her dead son. Half of Nathan's soul is with Widya. However, Liana was not a selfish figure. He prioritizes Widya's health.

“Frequently play to the house, yes! The door of the aunt's house is always open to you. Aunty is always waiting for you,” Liana said before she left Widya's house that afternoon.

“Iya, Tan,” Widya replied with a slow nod. Widya and Arini drive Liana, Evan, Ellen on the porch of her house until their car is no longer visible.

“Widya to room, yes, Bun. Want to rest.” Widya passed after getting a nod from Arini.

Entering his room again after Nathan's departure certainly makes Widya's heart ache. Slowly he approached his desk. Staring at the image of himself with Nathan smiled sweetly, signifying how happy they were then. Widya picks up a memorable album that is lined up on the bookshelf. He rubbed slowly while taking a deep breath before opening it.

“Can I get through it, Nath?” Her tears came back. He opened one by one the memories of his life. At first he met Nathan when Nathan became a freshman at his school. Nathan's kindness always keeps Widya in her silence. How Nathan used to keep his heart from teenage love conflicts with Harsa and Karin. How Nathan used to fight with Harsa just to defend him. Ah, all those memories were so sweet even though they brought back wounds.

Widya recalled how she had no sense of what could shake the thread of her love for Nathan. Until finally Widya dropped her choice to lean on the tall figure of a Nathan Putra Lesmana. His patience accompanied Widya when wrapped in deep sorrow due to his love for Harsa, slowly able to shift the name of Harsa from Widya's heart.

The night is getting late. In his nightgown he sat on the floor leaning against the bed. Widya never thought if the video call the day before Nathan's departure was the last time she could look into the face of her lover, her future priest. Widya wiped her tears violently. Recalling all of Nathan's messages before the bad news reached him. Widya doesn't want to believe it if it's Nathan's last message. He cried again, hugged his knees and stared blankly. All the memories of Nathan were dancing beautifully in his mind. His gaze was fixed on a teddy in the corner of his bookshelf. The doll was given by Nathan in High School.

“I miss you, Yang. It feels heavy without you by my side. I'd rather you marry another woman if I could see you every day, than if I couldn't see you at all. How do I complete my longing, Yang? You are the color of my life. Without you my life would be gray. Samar, there's no beautiful gurat in it. Now, my longing will never find the edge. It's torturing me, Nath. I'm not that strong, honey. I need you to always strengthen me, her inner” thrashed withstanding tightness in the chest. He recalled a message from Nathan a few days ago from his dream.

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