A Flick of Asa For Love
CHAPTER 64

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Upon arriving home, Nathan went straight into his room. He was so angry with himself. Why so believe in the deceit that Vina did to him, and just swallow what her little friend said about the incident in the pool.

Nathan was so sorry to remember all his words and treatment to his beloved at the time, which must have hurt and scratched a deep wound. Nathan is her lover, but why does he not believe what Widya says. He believes more in Vina— the former in the past. Luckily he was still given the chance to find out Vina's rottenness from Exel. So that he does not sink into his folly any longer.

Nathan threw his body on the bed. Rubbed his face violently. He was confused about how to deal with Widya. Now, only regret is squeezing Nathan's chest, because he has done a lot of wrong to Widya from the small thing to the biggest thing. When the time bomb exploded, Widya broke the cord with him until they separated. Sick .. for sure. However, after knowing the truth, this was indeed the reply he deserved. How do you begin to explain all these misunderstandings to Widya? Does he want to accept it?

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In the afternoon the rain drenched the dry earth, as if the universe felt the emptiness of Nathan's heart. His selfishness exceeded his love for the lover at that time. Tired of his restless mind, he intends to contact Widya to untangle the tangled threads in their relationship. Nathan took the phone on the nightstand. He ventured to contact Widya, and wanted to make an appointment with her. Long enough the call was heard. Nathan made the call several times, but it seemed ignored. Nathan continued to try, until finally Widya's voice was heard across the street.

"Hello, Nath. What's up?"

Suddenly a nervousness strikes Nathan. His heart was also becoming so strong.

"Yang ... ehm ... can we meet later tonight at a regular place?" nathan asked slowly. I hope Widya accepts it.

"What else do you want, Nath? Kan, everything is clear. We have nothing to do since a while ago. Why else would we meet?" Widya sounded annoyed.

"There's something I want to explain" exclaimed Nathan, hoping to be anxious.

"What else is there to explain, Nathan? I'm tired, yes, with all your explanations. I must have been blamed too. Aye, right? Please understand me a little! I'm tired of the heartache" Widya said, pleading with Nathan to give her space to be alone and calm.

"I promise this is the last time we meet. After I explain everything later, it's up to you to judge what I am, "please Nathan.

Silent. There was no sound behind Nathan's phone. Maybe Widya is considering Nathan's request. Until a few seconds later Widya's voice again broke the silence.

"I'm sorry, I can't." After saying that Widya immediately disconnected their phone call. Disappointment was just out with Widya's rejection, but Nathan could not do anything.

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The clock moves forward around the day. Now the sky of Jakarta is already dark because of the coming of night. Widya's rejection made Nathan worse. He who had been disappointed by his little friend, felt no support for life. Nathan doesn't seem to have a identity. If time could be turned back, but it was just a dream.

Unable to keep quiet, Nathan decides to meet his friends. They made an appointment at their favorite cafe—cafe Hamber. Nathan wants to get together with his best friend to just talk lightly. Share his complaints, as well as apologize to them.

Harsa, Zakir, and Edo came together. Harsa who was forced to come by Zakir always showed a sour face. Soon Kartika and Karin came with a motorbike owned by Kartika matic.

"Tumben with the motor?" zakir asked Kartika and Karin when they met in the cafe parking lot.

"Liar romantic," answered Kartika. Then took Karin by the hand and walked into the cafe.

Once inside, Nathan was on standby at the place they used to order.

"What's up, Nath?" zakir said as he grabbed a glass of Nathan's coco pandan flavored ice syrup, then drank it. Everything had gathered, and was sitting around the table in a confused feeling. What exactly does Nathan want to talk about? That question may have crossed their minds by now.

"Eh, Widya didn't come, huh? Invite him too, don't you?" ask Zakir again. Instantly the atmosphere became silent. If it had concerned Widya, surely the shadow of events in the pond would have been remembered again. Especially Harsa, she hated Nathan's attitude which made Widya hurt. But he tried to restrain himself. Harsa also came because of the coercion from Zakir. If it wasn't for Zakir he would have been so lazy to meet Nathan.

"Gue had invited Widya, but she refused to come" Nathan replied breaking the silence. "Gue deliberately ngajak you guys gather here, there's something I want to obrolin with you guys," added Nathan while bowed lethargic.

"Widya must still be angry at you, Nath. That's why he refused your invitation. But—"

"Lo can be diem, right? Dengerin Nathan wants to say what!" edo's jolt cut off Zakir's words. He was annoyed by Zakir's voice which had spoken a lot.

Both of Zakir's eyes twirled lazily, then flicked his lips to the words of Edo.

After feeling everything was calm, Nathan again continued his words, "Gue would like to apologize to all of you for my attitude that is not pleasing in the heart of lo-lo on. About what happened at Vina's party that time. I was wrong, I was trapped by Vina's incitement" Nathan said.

His friends looked at each other question marks.

"I mean, lo?" Harsa finally opened her voice. His eyes were sharp as if he could pierce Nathan's heart. His heart still could not accept all of Nathan's treatment of Widya.

"I'm sorry I let you guys down. Before it's too late I'll apologize."

“Lo is too late. Because in the end Widya chose to go from your side. I did not expect, you can be more evil than me even though since your High School is the most understanding Widya,” sarcas Harsa.

Nathan fell silent. What Harsa said is true. He also did not want to argue with Harsa anymore. Now he feels much worse than Harsa. “Iya, I know. But at least I've realized everything and apologized sincerely to all of you. I totally ignore you, especially for Karin and Kartika. Sorry, I made your best friend worse off. Sorry, I made him cry and grieve. I'm sorry, because I can't take good care of him. If I can't make him happy again, I hope he can be much happier with others,” Nathan said with a downcast face. His heart said it all because in fact his love for Widya is still very big.

Karin and Kartika were silent to Nathan's words at length. They admit, Nathan's treatment of Widya is outrageous, but they can also see Nathan being hurt. Karin and Kartika can also see how much Nathan loves Widya, just because Vina's actions make a mess of everything.

"Nath, don't-don't you say this for good-bye, huh? You want to go back to Singapore?" said Zakir while his mouth was full of sucro nuts.

"Ofurrrrrrrrrrr!!" All his companions shouted towards Zakir.

Zakir grinned the horse while scratching the nape of his neck that did not itch. "Sorry, deh," he said regretfully.

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Nathan was relieved that his best friend was willing to forgive him. Widya still hates him. Nathan's mood was still clad in black clouds. So that his friends feel awkward to start another chat. They chose to leave Nathan alone, and Harsa was the first to leave. Followed by Edo and Zakir who hitchhiked in Harsa's car. Then it was Karin and Kartika's turn, they followed suit as well.

Now, Nathan lives alone, no friends to accompany. Nathan felt this was better. Nathan, so disappointed with Vina, feels that the friend is meaningless. He used to believe in Vina. A person whom he regarded as a childhood friend, but carries wounds in the present. However, that opinion was immediately cleared from his mind. Everyone is not the same. He can't equate all his friends with Vina. Nathan needs to focus more on getting Widya's heart back. Although there is no hope of re-chanting with Widya again, and only disappointment that he got at this time.