CUTS
Goodbye goodbye...

“Hai, how are you?” Anugrah could not stand the longing for Tiara until finally sending a message through the green application. Anugrah could only sigh at the sight of her message only ticking one which meant Tiara's phone was dead. His feelings were more uncertain when he remembered the incident last afternoon where he seemed to see Tiara in the car with Doni.

“Don, where else? Exit yok,” Anugrah again sent a message but this time to Doni.

Ten minutes later Doni just reply, “Gue again same Tiara in the arena game. Sorry, A. I have to accompany him first. He's dropping really off right now. Hope you can understand.” Doni replies and sends a photo of Tiara hitting a game with excitement. Tiara is also like her who wears sunglasses to cover her eyes.

“Thanks, Don. Loe has given him the worst moments like now. He needs more than me. I miss him a lot, Don.”

“She too, I told her too. You gave up and married her, but there was no answer. He seems to be unable to leave his beliefs to be with loe.”

“David, Don. I also have no right to make him. I myself cannot follow his beliefs. Thanks, Don.”

“Same-sama, A. I am sorry about your relationship. Hope you guys get through this well. If a soul mate is not going anywhere. Many pray that God will match you later.”

“Amin..”

Anugrah ended the conversation when her parents and brother joined her in the living room.

“So what's next? You can't be single until old just because of one girl right?” ask Rendra. Although reluctant to discuss this again, Anugrah still responds to his parents' questions. “Come, Pa. I don't want to think about that yet. I just wait for who will be my soul mate. I was lazy to find that I finally failed again like this. There are only disappointed and injured.”

Both of his parents were just silent, they were also at a loss as to what to respond to. “That's patient Deck! Everything that happens there must be wisdom for all of us.”

“Maybe it's time we told you about our love story to the kids, Ma. Especially Anugrah, she does not know anything about us and Iskandar.” Said Rendra looking seriously at his wife and two children.

Anugrah frowned in wonder staring one by one family members. “Don't tell me that I'm a collecting child.”

Bugh…

A sofa cushion landed beautifully on Anugrah from the hands of the elder brother. Finally, Rendra tells how their love story to the child. Nothing they cover includes about the figure of Faisal and the woman named Shinta who turns out to be the mother of Tiara.

Anugrah and Iskandar are devastated when they hear the last part of their parents' romance story. Cut himself had told Rendra about the mother of Tiara who turned out to be the father's ex-boyfriend from Iskandar.

“So indirectly that Tiara???” ask Anugrah confused.

“You can get married because your father is not the father of your brother and if so, you can still get married too, Ma? Because you're Papa's son.”

“It could, Pa. I don't know, Mama is also confused.”Answer Cut.

While the eldest son just fell silent digesting the faithful story that his parents said. He was shocked because all this time he knew was just that he was the son of his father's first husband. But, now he already knows the full story of his mother's life until the divorce process with his father and his mother again met the man who is now his father.

“Is, why are you quiet? Sorry if we offended you. But this is what really happened. Mama does not want you to go through the same incident so Mama asks you to be the man responsible if you get married. Never offend a woman whom you have married before God. You have learned glam from small of course you understand more than Mama.” Cut said softly. His eyes are dewy.

“Pardon Is if all this time Is has hurt Papa's heart. Is should thank you because Papa already wants to accept Is as a child.” Lirih Iskandar, he looked down with a circle of tears that had been flooded in the eye. Rendra held the eldest son in his arms.

“Without you Papa will never be able to marry a strong woman like your Mama. You're the reason Mama accepted Papa. So, it should be Papa who thanks you for accepting Papa as your father's replacement. Although Papa knows, your father must love you more than Papa. The proof, Papa to throw you into the pesantren after Anugrah was born.” Rendra's last sentence was actually just a joke but somehow so pierced Iskandar's heart niche. Had drenched hatred in his heart for the papa because he had thrown it into the boarding school when he was first in the cottage.

“You must really hate Papa right?” Rendra Goda.

“Mafin Is, Pa.”

“Lebaran is still a long time, Is.” Reply Rendra again that makes Cut and Anugrah laugh in the middle of the moments haru.

“So, the father and son of his mother Tiara is still alive or what, Ma?” ask Anugrah curious.

“Mama don't know, Nak.”

“Your grandparents' family there too no one met your papa, sister. That's why they agreed to accept that your father is gone even if his body was not found until now.”

Ting…

“Sorry, A. I'm kind. There's Doni accompanying me at the moment. Tomorrow I will return to Jakarta. I'm sorry, A but it looks like we can't share any more messages like we used to. I can't stand having to go through all this as if nothing happened between us. Everything that is vague has become clear as well as our relationship. What happened is destiny and I will try to accept it. Being here is so painful because every place has our memories. This whole thing is torturing me, A. I hope you are happy and thank you for everything. Sorry, we better not exchange messages anymore because all that is just a waste. I hope you can move on because I am also definitely trying to move on. Again, thanks A. The moments with you are happiness for me. Sorry, if during our courtship I ever hurt your heart. Good bye, A.

Anugrah's face muttered again after reading a message from Tiara. Father, mother and brother looked at the Anugrah who had laid themselves on the lap of the mother. His face was covered by the void sofa. Cut rubbed the head of the son who is now starting to grow up.

“That's patient, Son. Slowly but surely you will soon accept this circumstance.” Soft Cut vibe.

“Hey, don't cry like that! You are ready to play means you have to be ready to accept the result between losing or winning. And unfortunately, you lost!”

“Paaaa..” Pekik Cut on the husband who looks relaxed say every word to the youngest son.

“Ma, which Papa said was true. He's a man, soldier again. Isn't it a shame to cry for a girl for days? Don't date again after this if you're going to mess around like this. What if you were on the battlefield in this condition? Can die standing you.” Rendra began to pull out his fangs as a father and commander.

“I love her very much, Pa.” Anugrah replied in her mother's lap.

“Lah, continues? What do you expect from that? Hoping that your affection could bring Tiara to change her beliefs? It's not that easy, Bambang! Your affection has not been able to shake Tiara's heart to change her faith. Now accept the fact that first love doesn't always go smoothly all the way to the.” Rendra's uncharacteristic emphatic remarks made the aura of the family living room slightly stiffened.

“Ma, before Is ngajar. Is it okay to visit family in Aceh?” Not only his parents were surprised, Anugrah who was sad was also surprised.

“I'm coming!” sahut Anugrah fast.

Cut looked at the husband, “Let's go home together!” rendra's answer was like a refreshing flush in the middle of the desert.

“When do we leave?” ask Anugrah spirit.

“Tomorrow!” answer the father.

Iskandar's request became a place for Anugrah to refresh themselves from the sadness of failing to marry. He was very excited to beat his brother. There were not many items they had brought because of the sudden return moreover they would not be there for long. Iskandar will have to teach next week and Anugrah will also be active again after spending his retirement. After hearing his parents' stories about the past, Iskandar and Anugrah were curious to visit their village. Moreover, all this time they never went back there. During the marriage, Cut seemed reluctant to go back there. His curiosity sank along with the growth of their two sons which certainly cost a lot. Cut did not want to burden Rendra with additional costs for him to return home. But now, the children already have their own income.

They arrived at the airport the next day. Anugrah's beautiful smile suddenly returned sad when he saw the former wife was also laughing cheerfully beside his best friend. And more painful is, they actually got a bench adjacent to the position of Doni between Tiara and Anugrah.

“You want to exchange?” doni asked his best friend when he was on the plane.

Anugrah smiled as she flung, “He's happier next to you, Don. We are done!” reply Anugrah. It was truly his heart was deeply broken as he said that with a gaze fixed on Tiara who was pretending to look at her phone. Doni himself felt wrong to be among them. Those two heartbroken people are her best friends, what can she do?

“What events to Aceh?” tanya Doni diverts the conversation.

“Visiting Mama's family all on pilgrimage to the graves of grandparents.”

“And hopefully I can also repeat the story of my Papa who met his soul mate there.”

Degs…

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