CUTS
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The task of the state made Rendra unable to visit Cut as he pleased. After hearing directly about Cut's condition from doctors and psychiatrists yesterday made Rendra more relieved.

On the same day he returned from the hospital, one of his friends reported that his guard post had just been attacked by rebels. They were targeting one of the foreign workers who was in the cement factory.

The strict guard meant that the rebels had to retreat into the forest because they were outnumbered and outgunned. Soldiers in charge of guarding vital objects do get complete weapon equipment to frighten opponents.

News from newspapers and television days were colored with news of the release of hostages that had been delayed by many things. A month earlier the release of hostages was also close, however, the presence of TNI officials at several points near the site approved by the rebels and the PMI and ICRC were again canceled by the rebels.

This time, without notice to the TNI. Teams from the Indonesian Red Cross and the ICRC from abroad again agreed with the rebels to release hostages at a place designated by the rebels.

Fery Santoro is a RCTI cameraman with two wives of TNI AU officers and a KOTRAS tabloid journalist named Nani. Fery's colleague who served as a journalist had previously died during the TNI army's assault on the rebel stronghold where, Fery managed to escape at the time. While Bang Ersa died on the spot after being hit by a soldier's bullet.

The release of the hostages in the interior of Aceh is encouraging news for families who have been waiting in prayer in the hope that their families can return safely.

Elsewhere, residents were again surprised by the sound of gunfire from both sides. A group of gunmen shot at soldiers who were helping repair a bridge at one of the village's borders. Four soldiers were killed on the spot while the others were seriously injured.  The act of revenge continues without anyone willing to budge or reconcile.

Negotiation for talks always fails to find common ground. Peace is far from hope. The decision of the central government to send more soldiers to Aceh further clarified the situation that the word peace might be a mere wishful thinking.

A man sits reading a newspaper from behind the fence of a mental hospital.The newspaper unfolds in front of the matan but his gaze is actually directed to the hospital yard. A woman is sitting with a well-dressed woman.

Cut is undergoing talk therapy with his psychiatrist Dr. Widia or often called Kak Widia by Cut.

“So also with Abu and Umi. They are also very happy if his beautiful daughter can recover and then return together with them.” the smile that had expanded now disappeared to be flat again.

“There is nothing wrong in this situation. Your presence in their lives is not a disaster but a gift. Everyone experiences the same thing with your family. Living in a conflict area that every day hears the sound of guns, bombs, screams of frightened people. All of these are facts that we must accept even if we do not like. Our loved ones die, our loved ones fall ill. Do we have to rebel by going without caring or blaming ourselves? Can't be like that.”

“A person's life story may vary. But running from problems or hiding is not the best solution especially to blame yourself. Death, death, destiny are all the secrets of the creator. We are not given the power to predict it all. Every human being has been determined what kind of death, where his provision, whose soul mate. We are only asked to be sincere, accept freely how our way of life. How our family met its end, we cannot protest. We also cannot blame ourselves for being less careful, perhaps less guarded and all other possibilities. All the words ‘may’ that arise in the heart becomes a reason for us to blame ourselves. Though everything that happened was already the way like that.”

This is the talk therapy that Dr. Widia has been doing all this time. When Cut was just there, the conversation was never this heavy. Dr. Widia noticed the changes in the last few weeks so decided to start the topic a little heavy in case of depressed patients.

Cut was still reluctant to close his mouth as usual when Dr. Widia started talking. Because a psychiatrist must be able to provoke the patient's emotions so that everything in the mind or heart of the patient can be removed.

“Death is not always bad. Are we not taught in our religion that there is eternal life after death? This world is just a stopover for us to find supplies to eternal life later. Like a rich man who collects treasures to build a large house that he will occupy later when old. So too with life in the world. We are all preparing the provision to go to the afterlife where the day of vengeance for each person will be met with the appropriate retribution for his actions during his time in the world. The guilty will be punished with just. Unlike current law, guilty people can be free with a bribe of money.”

“Shooter Razi may be able to live free at the moment but is he happy? Not necessarily. It could be that every night he could not sleep because of anxiety or fear that one day he would be caught. As for the late Razi, perhaps he was happy in his grave. With all the good he's ever done in his life. The prayers of the parents he loved and loved him always abounded at all times.he need not be as frightened as we are. No soldiers or rebels will hit him.”

Cut's tears flowed on their own without noticeably hearing every word for word spoken by Doctor Widia.

“Abang you are also calm with his wife and child there. Regardless of what he did in his lifetime. He no longer had to live in the woods. His wife was also happy because she could be with her husband and children until her death. God knows how much Abu and Umi love for Ilham and his little family. Not many parents show affection with words. But we never know how big their hearts are that can forgive no matter how big the mistake of the child. Perhaps in every prayer, they always pray for Inspiration until now. Allah is omniscient in what is in the hearts of men, it could be that Teuku Rendra deliberately left behind to treat the longing of Abu and Umi towards their son. No parent can hate their child for life. Like now, they faithfully accompany you while praying and continue to hope that you will try to recover and return to their arms as before.”

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