From: Sacrifice Of Ilyas
My light

That day, I met him. As I sat down, he lowered his hand to me. She was so sweet with red chibi cheeks blushing like an apple, even though it was the first time she met, For some reason the woman was doing so familiar to me as she said

“ayoo...” he said smbil pulled my hand.

his university entrance exams are about to start. The wind blew fiercely making the woman's hair unravel. And at that moment I realized, this woman had a very warm spirit of light.

My name is ilyas, I am in the philosophy department of Nusantara Faculty of Philosophy semester 2. The woman I told you about, is now my best friend who is in one department and one class with me. His name is Icha but I often call him Ichi. Even so, she is a Primadona female in our department. As for me, the bleakest man in our majors. We were friends by accident because we knew the same thing. Yes, Anime. But he is more inclined to the Romantic anime. And me, a fanatic. Or in the community dj called as "Wibu".

I accidentally watched Shigatsu wa kimi no uso anime and apparently, he had been looking for the anime for a long time but did not know what the anime title was. He wants to ask someone, but he's ashamed. After telling the title I didn't realize I stepped on my own death mine. Every day she gets close to me and talks about her favorite anime to me because she says, she can't tell anyone else about it other than me. I don't hate it but, it makes my quiet life a little more uneasy. In the same sharp gaze all the men in the faculty with jealous gazes were uncomfortable men, especially maybe because ichi was too innocent and free so he realized sometimes he was holding my hand. Reason

"it's okay, right ?. We are friends" the reason is me.

Well that's for him. But not for those who stare hard at me. I'm so burdened though, I don't hate him. Because from his behavior, I began to know the advantages and disadvantages. And I hope I'm the only guy who can know that. Her cheeks were red like apples and her sweet smile curved like a crescent moon, it made me love it so much. And I admire him secretly. Although I actually want more ties, but that means I have to face all the men in my faculty after that. And given my past, I still don't know if I deserve to be next to him?.I'm afraid, being next to him is the Karma that I will face later.

A few days later, there was one moment where he was so sad. Due to a certain incident, he was very down because of this incident. His popularity made him hated by one of the senior women's gangs until he was dropped on charges of cheating on the senior girlfriend. Although at that time I knew, it was not accidentally because the book he needed for reference from the library turned out to be only 1 and it was owned by a senior boyfriend who dropped it. And I know it was on purpose, because the other 3 books had been planned and borrowed by his friends in the library. It's a trap and it sucks. I want to help her but, can someone like me help her ?. Talk to those who have a high status even sometimes I think five times until my imagination circled the world somehow. But as a friend, I can't let it go. And so, I walked to the shopping mall. You know, ichi really likes flowers. Therefore, I gave her one rose (well it was enough to buy 5 instant noodles). After that I wrote it with my left hand so that he did not know who wrote it. And I hung it on his boarding door just before he arrived.

When that night came, Ichi sent me a chat. By showing me a picture of the roses I gave and the words of spirit I had written in a letter. She said.

"Kok you know the hell I like flowers ?" ichi says.

At first I wanted to tell him but my heart was not ready to say it. Until I reply with the word usually as a friend

"huh ?. I'm gonna get you flowers ?. Mending I buy instant noodles times instead of buying flowers. Pretty full" I replied in the chat.

"so, didn't you send me flowers ?" tanyanya via chat.

"what you suspect is that I am your best friend. You sure ?" I went back to ichi.

"yes too. You're the one who's cute unless there's a wish to doang" ichi replied mockingly.

It felt a little relieved he did not realize it but a sense of disappointment could not lie even a little.

"If it hurts but, that's me. Your best friend forever" I reply a little comforting.

And he sent an emot laughing out loud in return.

In class, I avoided her for fear of talking to her. But in the end, he found me and spoke directly to me.

"Hey Ilyas, I've asked all of our generation of guys but no one's honest. So who the fuck did I get a flower that night ?" ask Ichi to me.

"You're still talking about that until now ?" I asked back to be surprised.

"But.... It made me curious" he replied with sparkling eyes in front of me.

I know, he did it because he needed my help. But from any side this is cheating. Really, she was too cute with a face like that until I was eager to pinch her red cheeks. I took a breath and said to him

"may I smoke ?" my permission's with him.

"No, I can't." he answered flatly.

"Thank you.." I said, picking up a cigarette and cornering it.

We walked all the way to the university campus park and sat on the empty seats that were there. Ichi breathed a heavy sigh

"It is precisely the person I consider a friend even does not care about me and I have to start chatting first and then noticed last night. I need your entertainment last night" he said, crashing near me.

"who asked to download anime romance who hayooo.... Isn't that enough to cheer you up, too ?" I said a little annoyed to reply to Icha.

"Yes too. Did you download the anime romance last night ?" tanyanya was curious with great enthusiasm.

I took out the flashdisck of his on the breast pocket of my shirt and showed it to him

"even inuyasha full episode I downloaded last night. And everything is safe, there is no error" I replied arrogantly.

Looking at the flashdisc he was greatly comforted as he snatched it from my hand swiftly

"i thought you were my best friend" he said happily excited.

"Sama-sama" I replied while turning off a cigarette I had finished.

Because he was a little amused I told him even though the words from my mouth did not match what I planned.

"That gave you flowers that night, maybe your secret admirer. You know, you're a prima donna in our class until the seniors like you" I told her.

At that time, I wanted to be honest with him that I was the one who gave the flower. In fact, my words made him sad again.

"I don't seem to like myself. Because the word prima donna made me get hated by the whole faculty as I thought I was cheating on people's girlfriends. Though, I had no such intention" Ichi said as she shed her tears.

I held his head and stroked him. At first he was surprised but long ago I elus his face even smile like a cat in tickle carrying his chin.

"you are still you, ichi, for it is your figure that is the sun in my gloomy life. Don't hate yourself, because the light of the world will remain dark" I comforted him.

"Then what should I do so that I can live quietly again in 'class ?" ask her while pouting a little.

I brought the jidat closer to my jidat

"when the light is in the cleft, there will be darkness. Take it easy, I'm by your side as your best friend" I reassured him.

I did not feel very close to him, his face reddened looking at me as well as I when aware of this condition, I took off his face reddened with embarrassment. And I left him at that time saying

"tomorrow you will return to life quietly, I promise you that" I replied while throwing away my cigarette.

When I left him, I thought he was the light in my life that had been dark because of the black mass. So as people admire him I will dare to step foot and become darkness in our direction. Tomorrow I will become darkness for everyone in my faculty, only for the sake of the light it does not fade in him. In the evening I looked for whatsapp contacts passing through my acquaintance friends on campus. After finding his number, we talked for a while and I made a pact with him to meet in the middle of the faculty room. The next day I met a senior who had accused him in the middle of such a crowded faculty room.

"I've never known you before, who are you ?" askinya.

"You don't know me. Well, how else, I'm not interested in social life until I have to group like a senior now. But, I'll introduce myself. My name is Ilyas, I will say something to the senior in this place. And the friends of the department will be silent witnesses" I replied to the senior.

She was so surprised I knew she might think that I knew her plan and revealed it here along with the real evidence. But, one thing I assure you. This is not an anime with a cave genre. Since I am only the gloomiest man in the class then this time I will upgrade that nickname to be the bleakest man in the faculty. That day I approached him and told him

"i like you senior. I mean, sister Kiki. Go out with me" I said, saying her name.

He was surprised I said it. Until everyone was surprised because the person who shot him was me, the person who was nicknamed as the gloomy man in the class.