From: Sacrifice Of Ilyas
The Injured Feelings

A few days have passed, my body has recovered. I finally came to college. Everyone was surprised as if I had just arrived. Though it was clear Ichi allowed me because I was sick at that time. But somehow they all looked at me because maybe I was rarely absent before or they already knew about Yusuf, or maybe because Kak Kiki and her boyfriend walked with me like familiar people.

"You know I'm a grim person, right ?. Then why are you following me ?" ask them.

"I just want to see how you are after you know that Icha and Yusuf are dating" Kiki replied.

"I didn't know I and Ichi were just best friends and I just admired them. No more, instead I like Kiki's sister but Kiki's sister has rejected me, if I give up" I reply to Kiki.

"Good then, Surly Child. Because if I don't, Loe I'll beat him up" Rahman told me.

"Ok ok Kanda's. And since you already know, it's better for Ngebucin's brother to be with Kak Kiki and leave behind my gloomy life" I told Rahman.

"Cave does not follow Loe Tol*l, cave follow My love Kiki. Why also urusin loe cave ?" answer brother Rahman.

"Sister Kiki, can you leave me ?" I said ask Kiki.

"It's been almost a week that you didn't come to college. You don't think I miss that action of yours ?" answer brother Kiki.

Hearing Kak Kiki's confession, Kak Rahman was immediately upset and immediately pulled my collar

"Damn loe a Surly boy !!!!" angry screams Rahman.

"Sister listen, Kiki just joked because he saw Rahman's possessive jealous brother. And also, Yusuf why was it that he was in the doang ?" I asked the real Joseph from there beside me.

Then Joseph pulled me over while whispering to me.

“you are strong and a killer. In his time you can't fight Rahman's brother ?" joseph asked in a whisper.

"This is called imaging. What would a college student say if he found out I was a killer ?. They're gonna hate me and I'm right in the D.O" I told Joseph.

"But what's being a gloomy person you're approaching someone else ?" ask Joseph who is quite happy.

"Better in the bleak than in the class of a liar" I replied.

“you offended me ya shit ?” tanyanya is upset with me.

Then after that the information from whatsapp grub finally came that my class had entered the course.

"Ok everyone, I'm diluan. The chairman of the level has informed me that my class has already entered. I'm diluan ok ?" I said to them.

But the three of them even simultaneously said to me in a hateful tone.

"DOESN'T CARE." they reply to me simultaneously.

“PEDULI LITTLE CAKE !!!?” yells annoyed.

It really hit me. I left them but I didn't expect, behind them to talk about me at that time and this imformation I got from Kak Kiki after going to college even after he explained it, I don't care enough, even though my heart hurts a little. At that time Kiki approached Yusuf and said to him.

"Are you sure you're related to Icha like this ?" ask Kiki to yusuf.

"Why indeed ?. As Ilyas said, everything is fair in love and war" Yusuf replied to Kiki.

"By cheating ?. Ilyas was supposed to get that feeling but you were the one who claimed to be his secret admirer. You're just stealing people's efforts" Kiki replied.

"Be quiet, this is none of your business" replied Joseph who began to be annoyed with the words Kak Kiki.

"Huh ?. You threatened Kiki Bangs*t !!!?" said Rahman, looking at Joseph.

"I'm not Ilyas the gloomy boy. If you mock my relationship with Icha, you will face me" replied Yusuf staring intently at Rahman's brother.

After staring intently at each other, Rahman held onto Yusuf's shoulder while smiling at Joseph.

"mmm... I know how you feel" he said with a sense of excitement and smiled at Yusuf.

Kiki's sister hit Kak Rahman on the head and left him feeling upset.

"Basar is not sensitive" Kak Kiki said and left them both.

“Auck... Baby..., what am I wrong?” reply Kak Rahman and pursue Kak Kiki.

And Joseph at that time, seemed not to care what Kak Kiki said and headed to his class to wait for the next lecture. To be honest, knowing Yusuf and Ichi are dating is enough to hurt me. But, next I just have to keep Ichi and Yusuf dating healthy without crossing the line. Because my feelings can't lie. I still like him to this day. This feeling, still not lost on me.

I was in class at the time, listening to the lesson. Until before the lecture was completed, we were finally given a grid for the final course of the day. Then we were absent and I did not expect, when Ichi's name was mentioned it turned out he was not present and was sick. I told their friend he said he had a fever today. I planned to go home later to buy him some porridge but I was stopped by Kiki's brother that's when he told me about his conversation with Yusuf but I didn't care.

"Ilyas, is it okay like this ?. Your love is clapping one hand" said Kiki.

I just ignored him and kept walking away.

“you will be hurt more stupid !!!” yelled Kiki cared about me.

“The light Ichi is emitting hasn't dimmed me yet. That's why, I just need to do it. Although this hurts my feelings” I said to her.

“you are too naive, just do as you like Gloomy Boy” Kak Kiki said as she lowered her head.

When the lesson was over, I went to buy hot porridge for Ichi. I met with Yusuf and explained to him.

"Well, how do I not know ?" yusuf said to me.

"You're really Ichi's girlfriend isn't it ?" I questioned joseph.

I just sighed and picked up a cigarette and cornered it. After thinking long enough, I gave Joseph the porridge

"nih, you went to visit Ichi there. She may need you as her lover" I said as I pointed a pack of porridge at her.

He was silent for a moment looking at the porridge. Instantly she recalled Kak Kiki's words this morning and imagined Ilyas's behavior before her now.

"why is everyone interfering with our relationship ?" yusuf asked in annoyance.

"i heard it from Kiki. You should be strict as a guy, prove you're Ichi's lover. Because from the beginning you intend to date her, do what men do to their girlfriends. And if it's my problem, you better assume I don't exist. Since I'm still ichi's best friend, I'll keep an eye on him. But this time, take steps as her boyfriend. Look him. This porridge don't tell me that I told you to. Just tell me, it's from you you bought it because ichi's sick" I said, strengthening Yusuf's feelings.

I don't know why I care when he's the one who took Ichi from me. And finally he took his porridge from me

"alright Ilyas. Sorry all this time I said you were gloomy. Turns out you're a good man. I will be the ideal boyfriend for Icha from now on" Yusuf said as he picked up the porridge.

I left it because I had to go to the workshop to see if my bike was worth wearing or not. While walking, I called Nuge

“Oi Aibo.(.Aibo Japanese people mengartokan it is the same as Bro call), my bike is good not ?” I said call him.

“Your eyes are made into lava motor !!!, this is your car repair shop instead bring a bicycle. Kimank kemane !!!?. yaa patience” reply Nuge annoyed.

“please, there is no place I ask for help other than yourself who is a workshop” expert I told him.

“if you want to come here, buy Avocado juice. Again want to be about” said Nuge asked.

“Ok, I'll be there” reply me to him.

“Sangkyu Aibo..” he said ending the conversation.

.                                                                                                    ..*****...

The next night I called Ichi because I was worried about him. How else, I did not meet him today.

"Hello Ichi, how are you doing now ?. Are you healthy already ?. You have a fever, right ?. Have you been taking medication ?" I asked Ichi to worry about him.

"Slow down ilyas, I'm fine. I just have a normal fever, I really care. Miss yaa ?" tanya Ichi teased.

"Mom.not so. The problem is if you're sick, who else would I cheat on a lecturer's assignment if not you ?" I'm going to Ichi.

He laughed because he heard my words. And suddenly stop laughing and get upset at me.

“just now you are insulting or how ?.didn't I cheat with you” said Ichi to me annoyed.

“Ma..forgive me Ichi-Chan” to calm him down.

"I'm fine. Yusuf visited me before my friends came, he brought me warm porridge. Ahh so sweet she is. Just panteshe's my secret admirer" Ichi told me.

Honestly, his words made my heart throb. I picked up a cigarette and went out smoking in front of the boarding house to calm my mood.

"I think you found the right guy" I told Ichi.

We had a conversation that night not long until Yusuf finally chatted via Whatsapp to Ichi in the middle of his phone with me

"ahh Ilyas was. Yusuf wants to call" Ichi told me.

"Elee.... After having a boyfriend, the friend in the abandoned turns out yaa ?" I said a little hope for him.

Although she must have thought it was a joke but I hope she takes it seriously. Even if it is just friends.

"don't dong Ilyas. We are friends. After healing later, let's go to Cafe nobar again. I have a new anime that you haven't seen for sure" Ichi told me.

"Are there any anime I haven't seen yet ?" ask me on Icha.

"This one you haven't seen, it's been. Call Yusuf first. Bye-bye" Ichi answered and answered her phone.

That night I was still sitting in front of the boarding house and cornered my cigarette. I always think and think until there is no chance to fantasize