From: Sacrifice Of Ilyas
Darkness

At the time of the confession, everyone did not expect my words to come out of my door directly and be seen by the crowd. Not long after, her boyfriend approached me while threatening me and said to me

"loe knows, right ?. He's the cave boyfriend !!!. Dare to shoot him in front of a lot of people" his girlfriend said angrily.

At that time I smiled because everything was in accordance with my expectations like chess, this is a Skakmat movement and like gambling ding dong, this is a Jackpot.

"Senior know why ichi approached senior ?. Because it's according to my plan. I borrowed the other 3 books for Ichi to approach you. Even though this plan I didn't tell him. In order for Ichi to be said to be cheating and kiki's sister starts to get disappointed in you. And that's when I'll be a predator and approach Kiki's sister with sweet words. And you don't stand a chance anymore" I replied pretending to be annoyed at him.

"But what the fuck is this ?. Even if the plan goes ahead, Kiki gets closer to you after you apologize. That's really pissing me off. And that's why I better reveal it before you as a declaration of war for you" I said firmly to him.

"If you want to shoot the right kiki dong the Gentle. Time use how to cheat cake gitu loe ?. Don't know how embarrassed you are" said Kiki's boyfriend began to annoy.

"Everything is fair in Senior Love and War, there is no cheating at every step because that's why I took this mine step" I replied and made the senior speechless not to say anything.

Next, just wait for the words of Kiki. He stepped in front of me then slapped me, and said to me

"you poor, stupid man. Understand your position, only for the sake of which you admire you are willing to sacrifice yourself. Your life will be bleak" Kak Kiki replied to me.

It turned out that he better understood what I was doing now, it was precisely me stepping on a mine like him. But, Kiki continued her words

"And just so you know, I love my girlfriend more than anything. That's why I obviously rejected you. You stupid man. Enjoy your life more bleak than ever, Ilyas" Kiki continued.

His girlfriend even smiled satisfied to see me rejected by Kiki's sister, but I have not exhausted the idea, I smiled and looked at Kiki's sister

"thank you, Kiki. Just so you know, I won't give up" I replied with a cruel smile on her.

His girlfriend couldn't stand it and almost beat me up

"YOU ARE STILL IN VAIN !!!" he pulled my collar.

But suddenly the deputy dean of the department came through the association until the people began to disperse. Kiki's boyfriend threatened me but it made me very happy. Just this time, my plan was 100% successful%. Am I that smart, huh ?. But well at least the light shone back and my status even changed like in an RPG Game.from a gloomy classmate to a gloomy schoolgirl. And I, not regretting it for Ichi's sake so that the light doesn't fade, I think it's okay.

...*****...

After the class was over, Ichi suddenly pulled me and everyone looked at me and they started saying bad things with speech

"after this their friendship will be a little distant".

" it's better if Ichi takes a stand to scold the damn kid not knowing himself"

"they are sahabatan huha ?. Pantes only Ichi benefits easily".

" wah this opportunity after Ichi upset. Because his best friend already loves him" And so forth.

Maybe after this the reader will say I'm a psychopath, but, I'm right finally the taunts for Ichi start to disappear and start to center on me. After arriving at the park, Ichi told me to sit on a chair and he sat down beside me. As usual, I asked her for permission

"may I smoke ?" my permission to ichi.

"No way." she replied in a slightly low tone.

"Thank you" I replied as I picked up a cigarette and cornered beside her.

He ransacked his bag even though I didn't care. Maybe he'll get mad at me or he'll pick up a book to slap me. Well, that's my imagination. So wild, huh ?. I'm a Wibu whose imagination is wild, what can I do ?. But in fact, she gave me a sweet candy while shedding tears at me.

"I know you're not that cruel to me. But why are you sacrificing yourself all the time ?. Though you only need to do tricks like in Oregairu or in Hyouka and Elite Class Room so as not to sacrifice yourself. I know, you're innocent why are you doing this ?. Why ?" ask Ichi to me.

I put my cigarette on and said to him

"unfortunately it's not as easy as it was in the Ichi anime. This is reality, you are light and I am Darkness. Two different sides, and always will be. When I am full of darkness you come like Light. That is why when the Light dims, I rise as Darkness to those who dim it" I reply to him

"You always say that !!!!. I am your light!!?. I am your light !!!. We are Ilyas humans we are not angels !!!. I don't want to see my best friend sacrifice himself like that. In the future you're replacing my position. Even if I am not insulted but I will bear the guilt because of me you have to bear it all !!!. I hate this Ilyas thing !!!!" ichi said to you bluffing furiously.

I just realized the turning point. And it surprised me. I can't say anything more. At that moment we were silent for a moment not long after that pitiful word came out of my mouth

"I'm sorry." I replied while throwing away my cigarette butts.

Ichi stood up and looked very annoyed looking at me. she was silent for a few seconds and turned her gaze away from me

"for a while, don't meet me first. L'm.... Wanted to be alone." he said and left me alone on the bench.

I stayed there smoking. Although it was raining, I couldn't leave the place because, I realized. I'm even making him hurt more. I'm really the worst.

The next day I did not dare to enter the classroom. With a face full of bruises after being beaten by senior for challenging him in the presence of everyone. I didn't fight back at all because I knew I was doing the wrong thing. Even though Kiki's sister had defended me by persuading her boyfriend so that I would not be beaten again. After they quieted me, Kiki's sister approached me and spoke to me

"is that how you admire that Icha ?. Honestly, if you were a little handsome as Icha I might be happy. But also sad because of your stupid actions. You're not the lead in a movie that can do anything. Stop your stupid behavior" Kiki said to me.

"is not every human being the main character in their lives ?. We are the only ones who live this life as well as anything" I reply to argue against Kiki's sister.

"I didn't know you were smart or weird. But this time I will help you because that day is not only Icha you help, but you also help me" Kiki replied and left me on the Roof top of the faculty.

I just sat there until I was ready and went back to the boarding house. I don't know how many days have passed. It feels a little awkward because Ichi also often dodges me and everyone doesn't talk to me. How else, the title of the steepest man in this Faculty makes them not dare let alone they think I've been fighting When I took my bike to go home with a bruised face. I know that I was in Gebukin. Where am I going to fight ? there are-there are people.

A few days later, there was one moment when Ichi's Wallet missed in her dorm. Now it is noon time. And she hasn't eaten from the morning I heard from her conversation with her friends. Well, when the class started in the middle of the lesson, I asked permission to go to Wc to defecate. And everyone laughed at me because I said it out loud while raising my hand. But in fact when I was allowed, I went to buy a packet of yellow rice and glass water and then I put it in my jacket so that it would not be seen by the Lecturer when I entered. After getting back into the classroom, I put it in my bag for a while and no one noticed. How else, right ?. People like me won't be the center of attention even if I crash.

When the class was over, I started writing letters with my left hand again and then put them in a bag of yellow rice and glass water. After Ichi went out to the toilet with her friends, I approached her friend who was staying in class while sitting next to her and pretended to ask about her previous lessons. As he explained, my hand started to move and put the canticle down the column of Ichi's table. Hopefully he realizes it.

"Oi Ilyas, after approaching Kak Kiki you have no intention of targeting me as a predator right ?" ask Ichi's friend.

"Where possible, you're not my type you know. I don't understand it because at Wc I was quite a long time ago" I replied to him.

"What are you doing on wc ?" tanyanya. I smiled at him and said

"do I have to explain it to you in detail ?" ask her.

"it seems not to. Everyone has their own problems" he replied by looking at me rather uneasy.

"next lecturers do not enter friends. But we are in the task of please chat other friends who are outside" he said giving imformation.

Ichi wanted to pick up a book in his desk column but suddenly he felt a crackle bag containing yellow rice, glass water, and a letter written on it

"Hay I'm your secret admirer. You know, you've been looking sad all this time trying to hide it. And also, you look pale when I see you come out. Haven't eaten yet ?. Here's toyou. You are the spirit" said the letter.

Ichi smiled and ate the yellow rice in the classroom voraciously. while eating it, he was like a confusion. Maybe he thought again who this secret admirer.I keep looking at him. after eating, he was like a confusion, he did the job from the lecturer until it was done. After the assignment from the lecturer had all gathered, Ichi approached me

"i thought you were my secret admirer ilyas" Ichi told me.

"Huh ?. What the hell are you talking about ?" ask her.

At that time I was acting as neutral as possible so that he did not realize it.

"You bought yellow rice and wrote me a letter, right ?. Don't dodge it" he told me, showing me his letter.

I spread my hand and asked for his letter

"here I see" I said asking him.

After giving me the letter, I wrote the words on the same paper. And the writing is quite different. Yaiyalah, previously use the left hand and this time I use the right hand.

”does our writing look the same ?” I asked him and he believed it wasn't me.

"You know best, no, what you suspect is me. And before you said don't approach you for a while, so I just stayed for a while" I told Ichi.

But my words made him a little annoyed with me

“not because of your stupidity, why do you have to do that anyway in the middle room of the faculty?” he said he was angry with me.

“we do not need to discuss here, many people because” reply me to him.

“you know, I hate your overly naive nature !!!. You're not the hero Ilyas, you shouldn't have done that” Ichi continued yelling in annoyance.

It reminds me of a past I don't want to remember.

“At least you don't have to say that to me, if it's that hateful to say it in front of so many people, fine. I don't need to talk to you, do you?. You won't see me care about you anymore. Starting tomorrow, then live in peace that noble Icha” reply me exasperated and leave class

My words were enough to make Ichi shocked and petrified because for the first time, he saw me angry with him.

The days passed, he approached me seemingly wanting to talk to me. I just ignored him and passed him as if he wasn't in front of me. Sometimes he wanted to lend me a book that would be in the Review for college assignments, but I ignored it and went through it. This is what he wanted instead?. For some reason the word naive haunts me from the past to the present.

The next day I was still doing the same thing and it made Ichi tired and her eyes glazed over. Until the afternoon arrived, I who just wanted to go home after being beaten by Senior in the rooftop, suddenly pushed by Ichi to fall near the wall with him. She hugged me with Erat and then covered her face in my chest

“ooii what are you doing ?. move aside Ichi” I told him.

“I don't want” said Ichi hiding his face.

“ooii. Later lecturers see us like this, you know this is very dangerous” I said mmbujuknya.

“The problem is if I let go, you will ignore me again !!!” yelled Ichi while holding himself back from crying.

That afternoon I finally resigned.he still hugged me tightly and put his face on my chest.

“I guess you want me to avoid you right ?. Then why are you even approaching me?” I asked Ichi.

“because it hurts so much. Seeing you ignore me, I was overwhelmed. Why do we have to be like this Ilyas?, we are friends right ? hiks...” said Ichi who started crying.

Then I stroked her head and it seemed like this was not working as before until her face was smiling like a cat. Now, Ichi just hid her crying face.

“I hurt your feelings huh?. I'm sorry Ichi, it looks like I was so hard on you” I told her.

She shook her head and still put her face on my chest while hugging me. At that moment, I held his shoulder and said

“can you let me go ?. This is really embarrassing because Ichi-Chan” said I to him.

“no want, let me longer like this” said Ichi who still close his face.

“Ichi, there is an upright but not justice Ichi. You made me tense” I told him

before long, she understood my words and quickly let go of me. her face flushed red and then she wiped her tears.she tried to cover her body with the sweater she was wearing and said to me while blushing in shame

“basis mesum” said with a flushed face.

Not long after, we laughed together.

As usual, we went to the park to sit together. He cleaned my wounds after being beaten up by the seniors. Ichi's touch was really very gentle to me then I suddenly remembered something.

"I gave my bicycle a seat behind him. You want to go to the cafe ?. All right, we're looking for a good anime" I'll take her.

"No" he answered briefly.

It had disappointed me suddenly.Yeah natural anyway, we will just fight not long ago even directly ngajak that....

"How about tomorrow ?. It just so happens that Saturday is tomorrow. If you have to work first. How ?" said offer.

I put my thumb in front of him

"sip Commander" I said.

"Hm... It's been determined" he replied happily.

To be honest, this was actually just a small sacrifice on appeal in my dark past. In the past I had to sacrifice everything but this time, I didn't need to cross my line. Or I myself will get the reply. It seems, I can hold myself back when I am with him.