From: Sacrifice Of Ilyas
Tiring day (Icha Story)

It was my busy days as secretary of the HMJ. All the files I was actually working on. Sometimes it feels dizzy but a bit grand because from campus we always get free food. And there are things that make me believe in the words of Ilyas, Dina was so relaxed as the chairman and hardly paid attention to what we had been doing. After hearing what the ordered work was done, he would go for a walk. Along with his friends.

After all, the responsibility will be that he who reads it is not me.

I'm doing enough what I can do.

Every day is so busy that it finally arrives at one of the programs that are so busy, namely Festifal Fisalfat. Like the program, this Festifal event is not like the one held by the previous senior. This event we do during holidays that start from Saturday to Sunday. And the entire faculty building is under control. This festival will introduce what kind of Philosophy, we use classes arranged according to their usefulness. And so as not to be boring, some selected classes will be ordered to open a special food and beverage cafe as an income of HMJ funds later. Likewise with the last day will be held an interesting race concert.

Knowing that, I had imagined how heavy my work would be. In the middle of the preparation we had a meeting. The Head of Department was present and wanted to see our development.

“So, how about Dana for this festival ?” Ask one of the lecturers.

“a... the.” said Dina the Doubtful.

“you use the class for the room Festifal. Are you able to account for it ?” Ask the other lecturer.

“ahh if that's actually..” Reply to Dina who is still in doubt.

“try firmly as the chairman, Dina” said the Head of the Department who seemed to be starting to grow furious.

Dina is not able to answer some questions and some budgets even solutions that must be done when knowing the funds is very minimal. So I answered everything and even accounted for everything. The solution is that I think about it too. In order to get the addition of Dana, I proposed raising the Fund by selling some snack items. Dina assented to my opinion that finally this meeting was able to be completed because of my argument and work again at the point of telling me.

“Waahh you are really great, Icha. In the future you still rely on you this business huh?” dina said to me.

Again, he placed his responsibility on me.

“will do. But, try to work and act as chairman” reply me warning him.

“iya-iya. Bawel deh Icha, I go first yaa” reply Dina even though the tone of pronunciation is soft.

Honestly, this makes me dizzy which finally makes me unable to attend the next day because I was so tired I finally dropped too and Fever. I still have a lot of work to do, I am sick like this.

That day I took a short break until finally when the afternoon arrived, I realized Yusuf was taking care of me while Kak Rahman and Kak Kiki and Ita came to work on our files through the help of one of my partners in HMJ. My senior was KKN but they both helped me. I wept near Joseph, holding him tightly.

"You don't have to push yourself, we all support you now" said Yusuf who stroked my head gently.

I could only cry because of my current state of being so weak that I finally could do nothing now. And even helped by all of them.

3 Days passed, although I know for sure my work piled up today and the show started tomorrow. But the thing I did not expect, everything was finished in 1 Hardisck file with the HMJ logo. I do not know who used it. I asked another colleague and everyone just said.

"that person is strange even though he was suspected, but it is true that he completed your task correctly. He calls himself your Secret Fan while wearing the Scream mask it surprises me” they said.

Likewise with my friends who after hearing a secret fan he assumed that it was Joseph who did romantic things and his face did not want to be known by anyone.

I called Joseph and asked him over the phone.

"Yusuf... Very grateful to you. You helped me again like you used to. I don't know what to do to you as a thank you" I said to Yusuf.

"uh what do you mean ?" ask yusuf.

"aa.. Ahhh... Yes... I'm doing. I'm sorry, actually I want to keep it a secret from you" Yusuf replied to me.

Somehow at that time, I loved him even more until my feelings were out of control. I should not doubt my feelings. Ilyas is my best friend. He was always there for me. But, when we were dating it was Joseph who was always there for me now. Tampa hesitated, I offered to her.

"this evening.... My friend doesn't live in a dorm. You're... Wanna stay with me in the dorm tonight, right ?. Just the two of you." I said to Joseph.

He just kept quiet for a moment because I knew maybe he was nervous or so happy. Until he finally answered.

"Baa... Alright. Tonight.... I'll stay at your dorm. My lecturer is coming soon, I'm closing the phone" he replied.

"Yes, I'll wait for you my secret admirer" I said and Yusuf hung up.

Since the work is done and everyone just has to prepare the preparations for tomorrow, all the students are active Except Ilyas. I saw him leave campus. Before wearing the helmet, his face looked disappointed and furious. I wonder what he was thinking this time but.... Suddenly he finally left the Faculty on his motorbike.

                                                                                                ...*****...

At night I was so tired and I took a shower. After taking a bath someone knocked on the door, I opened it up a little bit as it turned out to be Joseph. I just put on the towel because I took a shower and let her in.

"Come in.." welcome Joseph.

He looked nervous, and finally entered as well.

"What... Y-you just finished man...mandi ?" she was nervous and sat on my bed.

I just sat next to him and put my head on his shoulder. Honestly, this really makes my heart beat. Likewise with him who looks nervous, I'm actually ready to do it. Moreover, this was not my first time with him, but I waited for Joseph to be more aggressive. So I fished him

"do you not want to ?" ask him

Joseph responded in silence.

I don't think I can do this when I stand back up. But she suddenly held my hand and kissed my lips until we both made out. But then he put his jacket on me

"you don't have to do this Icha. I want you properly, which I did before even unintentionally. I am not worthy of this" Yusuf told me which left me very confused.

"What do you mean ?" many confused.

He smiled at me but his face looked so sad and looked at me

"some day you'll find out. I'm not the nice guy you imagined" he told me.

Then that night, even though Joseph stayed with me, he was so awkward. This is the first time for us this bad. Maybe I overdo this.

Then how ?.

Because otherwise, Ilyas's face would have been imagined if I hadn't given it all to Joseph.

My feelings were mixed that night. That night we did nothing.