God's Choice of Mate
Him again.

Finish eating chicken porridge. I got up from my seat and walked towards the park, while waiting for Bik Inah and Pak Budi who were still not finished finishing their chicken porridge.

The morning air is still very cool and fresh, with the occasional morning breeze blowing slowly, evoking a disturbing feeling to be more comfortable.

"Akh, why should I feel upset about Brother Reno's actions and words. Wasn't our relationship over and over, where I had forgiven all her faults for me, but somehow her presence made me uneasy and uneasy, " my mind in my heart while looking at the leaves that sway in the baby.

Suddenly, Brother Reno came to me.

"Are you thinking of me, Ran?, "he asked confidently which made me quite jolted to see him.

"What's? Hah!, "i said with a smile crowing at his words.

Brother Reno smiled with his attitude that was so very calm and relaxed.

"Don't be surprised Ran.I'm just kidding. "

Brother Reno turned to me for a moment, then continued his words again.

"But if you think of me, I don't mind Ran at all."

Brother Reno smiled at me again, without feeling awkward.

I looked at him for a while, then took my eyes off him.

"I don't know why God reunited me and you. But I beg of you, please keep the boundaries between us, because we are both nobody, just other people and have no relationship whatsoever. One more thing, please do not try to get close to me, by being the late Mas Fariz. Because Mas Fariz and you are so much different, he has a very special place in my heart and not with you, "I said as I looked at him and continued my words, "I'm sorry if I say that, Brother Reno, I hope you understand and understand. "

Reno smiled back at me, then turned her gaze to the flower population in the garden, not far from me and herself.

"Without you saying that, I understand this despicable and meaningless self of me Ran.

" I didn't tell you that, Reno. "

"I know it's Ran. I said it myself. I really didn't mean anything to you. I just want to try to make you smile, and forget your memories with the late Ustad Fariz, who still shackles you to be able to move forward living your life. "

"What business do you have to say that and care about me?, "I looked at Brother Reno.

Brother Reno looked at me.

"I don't know why you don't like my presence, and piss you off like this. But your anger means something that is hidden and becomes a mystery. "

"I'm not angry and upset, "refuse me.

"That's what you think Ran is, but the look on your face and the texture of your attitude says so, " said Brother Reno with a small smile.

"Since when did Reno become an observer and care about others" I said.

Brother Reno was silent for a while, with his face changing.

"That's me that used to be Ran, "he said looking at my face with a deep look.

"And now I'm trying to forge myself to become a better person. Although I realize it is difficult for everyone to capture and accept my change on the positive side, but I don't mind at all if everyone still thinks badly of me, including yourself Ran, " said Brother Reno with a soft and sad face.

For a moment I seemed to be able to feel her sadness, my feelings slowly tapped open a sense of sympathy and empathy for her.

"I'm sorry Brother Reno, if my words hurt you, "I said with a bad feeling to her.

Brother Reno shook his head and looked at me for a moment, "No Ran, you don't need to apologize, because you're not wrong. It is only natural that you say so, because my old temperament was so despicable. "

I was silent at his words, where I saw he was so sorry for his former attitude. Again, the sensation of a strange feeling filled my heart, while being near her. I don't know why there are vibrations running through my body.

Until Reno said back and surprised me.

"Why do you look at me, do you miss me, Ran?. "

I was silent looking at him, where for a moment our eyes met. In the seriousness of his face that looked at me, he slowly threw a smile at me that looked tense.

"I'm just kidding Ran, don't take it seriously, "he said lightly and calmly.

I looked back at him, "You are really very different from Sister Reno I have known before. Is this your camouflage or another trick you're planning?. "

Brother Reno was stunned to hear the words from me. He did not answer my question, which I waited for him to answer my question.

My mouth itches, as my heart begins to tingle to find out the silence that silences her.

"Why are you silent, Reno? Is there something you are planning, until you have responded to my question for so long. "

Brother Reno said, but this time he did not look at me.

Like the spinning wheel of life, it is very difficult to guess. Sometimes a person looks so lucky with the minimal effort they do, to be able to change his image in the eyes of others. On the contrary, there are also those who always think of being a useless person because they feel they fail in every effort, to be a good person. Even in the process of doing my efforts to process being a good person, I am still looked at badly. Especially in your judgment Ran.

Akh, but never mind, I don't care about everyone's judgment of me. For all I need is Allah, my dependant place, who knows my heart more. "

DEG...

My heart felt pierced by something hearing the words from him.

Again, I glanced at him who was looking straight ahead. The parasites still seemed calm without sadness, there was no expression of anger or hatred for the words I said from him. I assure myself, is it true that he is the figure of Brother Reno I have ever known?

My mind and heart took my eyes to play, to convince the doubt and to keep watching.

And again he said in his stable and very calm emotions, in his shady eyes.

"I was once at the lowest point in my life, so I felt my life was useless and so despicable. But the lingering sadness and regret, made me aware. Where the attitude of resignation and dissolve in sadness will never be able to solve the problem even change my state. Therefore, I immediately got up, despite having to limp alone, fell down and was injured again and again. Until all the people I love and mean in my life, started to leave me dead, including you Ran, " said Reno to look at my face at a glance.

DEG..

Reno continued her words, as if she was pouring out all the burdens of her feelings in her words to me.

"I always try to think positively, and live by always being grateful for everything, which has become a suratan of my destiny. As humans, we can plan by doing all kinds of ways to achieve the goals we want. But I realize and do not forget, that there are indeed some things that cannot be changed by man, if it concerns His decree. Once again, I can only accept everything that has become my destiny, Ran. Without ever doubting His Resolutions, because I believe that there are no bad days or bad destinies in my life. Because every event that happens in the course of my life, both sweet and bitter must have a good purpose and purpose to transform myself into a useful and better person, if you still think so to me Ran. Well, because only in the darkness, I can see the beautiful stars, "

I went back to listening to his words. My heart really feels really bad for Brother Reno, with my words to him.

Brother Reno looked at me with a smile, "Don't feel bad for me Ran. My heart is hard and strong enough to endure pain and injury. So that the words from you mean nothing to me. So you don't have to worry about me. "

I didn't flinch at his words anymore, where my heart had already gotten an answer to my curiosity. I looked at her shady face, and made me suddenly smile a little at her, without me noticing.

I have seen the honesty of his words to me, his enormous change of attitude in his very calm manner, once drugged me to look deeper into the other side of him.

Mr. Budi and Bik Inah also came along to me and Brother Reno, then they both invited me to quickly return home.

Time quickly rolled away, and ended my brief conversation with her, which made me feel like I was leaving.

Reno smiled back at me, as if she could know my heart.

"I will pray to God to bring us back together at the right time and place. So, before we part, I ask your heart to remain happy and insoluble in the past life. Because in the future, we never know, will God's wonderful plan on your life Ran. "

I nodded and looked towards him. Then walked together with Mr. Budi and Bik Inah, leaving him who was still standing to see my departure.

The sky revealed the sun that had just risen, and there was a beautiful scene among the darkness that had begun to fade.

Bik Inah opened the car door and immediately asked me to come in.

I also obeyed Bik Inah's request, before long Mr. Budi immediately drove the car.

I was silent in my mind, where the shadow of Brother Reno seemed to start playing in my mind.

Bik Inah smiled as she patted my hand slowly, "Auntie is happy to see Nak Rani, looking more courageous to go to places full of memory with the late Nak Fariz. "

I smiled a little at Bik Inah.

"Bik Inah and Pak Budi who made Rani become brave, by bringing Rani to visit the place where Rani used to go with the late Mas Fariz, ", I said.

Bik Inah smilingly looked at me, then glanced towards Pak Budi.

Well, unbeknownst to me Mr. Budi and Bik Inah have made an appointment to Brother Reno, to meet at the place I will go with Bik Inah and Pak Budi.

They deliberately asked for help from Reno, so that I did not continue to dissolve in my memories and fear of all the memories of my togetherness, with Mas Fariz.

Mr. Budi realized that only Brother Reno could make me, to get back up and continue to live my life, after the departure of Mas Fariz.

Mr. Budi and Bik Inah, it's really smart to play his role in front of me.

"What does Nak Rani see from Nak Reno now?, "ask Pak Budi broke my silence.

I looked towards Mr. Budi, "He has changed a lot Sir. Not the same as Reno I knew before. Many changes from him, which made me surprised and speechless, will be very calm attitude, and far from the tempramental attitude as before. "

"Hahahaha, "the voice of Mr. Budi laughed.

"Of course Nak Rani, the events in her life that made Nak Reno, made her a better person as she is today. It can't be forever, a bad person will still be bad Nak Rani," added Mr. Budi.

"Yes sir is right, "my mouth.

Mr. Budi smiled to see me, as well as Bik Inah.

Meanwhile, I looked out the window of the car and saw the crowds that began to appear along the road we were passing.

The car continued to perform at its speed, but my heart and my mind seemed unable to move away from my rendezvous with Brother Reno.

I was agitated by the strange feeling that was running through my heart at this moment.

Brother Reno's words continued to ring in my mind even, when his body was not in front of me.

I kept preaching in my mouth, to control my thoughts and my heart that kept on going to him.

Suddenly Bik Inah gave me a letter, which apparently from Kak Reno was entrusted to Bik Inah.

Without lingering again, I immediately opened a letter from Brother Reno and I read it immediately.

Rani, mani,

Never be sad even when you are sad. Because you will never know. Who will fall in love with your smile.

Do you know who that guy is?

That man is me, that man,

Reno.

I entrust this love only to the Creator, and hope that Allah will keep my heart and your heart away from disappointment and sorrow, until that time comes,to unite myself and yourself in His blessing and Ridho.

For your name will always dwell in my heart and in my mouth, when I am always at ease with Him.

Stay happy and smile, Ran.

Reno has always loved you.

I kept holding a letter from him.

Where my feelings are getting raging in the sensation of a strange taste, which continues to spread in my heart.