God's Choice of Mate
Eye sight.

My mind kept forcing me to dig deeper into her, and all the changes that took place in her life cycle. My silence continued to dissolve my daydreams about him, until without me realizing the car driven by Mr. Budi had arrived at the courtyard of the Imandar family residence.

"Alhamdulillah, Son Rani we have arrived at home, " said Mr. Budi broke my silent daydream.

I still did not respond to the words of Mr. Budi even though I heard his voice, until Bik Inah slowly held my shoulder while saying again the words of Mr. Budi.

"A... I. yes Bik, "so I said.

I got out of the car with Bik Inah, but not far away I walked. Quickly Mr. Budi got out of the car, then called myself. I turned to look towards Mr. Budi.

Mr. Budi then approached me, giving me a box, which he said if it was a deposit from Brother Reno.

I looked at Mr. Budi's face, and had not received the box. While thinking , what is Brother Reno doing with all this? After the letter, what is this box now?

I kept muttering in my heart.

Until Mr. Budi called my name again, and made me aghast from my daydream. I was still fixated on looking at Mr. Budi, where my mind was trying to guess what Kak Reno meant and intended with all this. Seeing me who still seems to be thinking and confused. Bik Inah quickly took the box from Mr. Budi's hand, then invited me into the house.

The house looks quiet and quiet, where today everyone is going to take Kak Rafa at the airport to return to carry out his duties abroad.

Bik Inah then accompanied me to the room, then put the box given by Kak Reno on the sofa bed. Then, please excuse me for a shower and help other housekeepers prepare the lunch menu later.

The door closed, and I immediately headed to the door and locked it. After that, I immediately went to the bathroom to clean my body, as well as perform dhuha prayers.

And again...

After the prayers of dhuha and dhikr also pray to Allah. Brother Reno's face continued to cross my mind and gaze, even though he wasn't in front of me. But his face did not stop playing in my imagination, even though I did not want him. The end of the morning brought a dancing wind that blew away the swaying leaves.They seemed to wave at me, a sense of sadness that struck my heart as I was secluded.

My gaze then turned to the box given by Reno, placed Bik Inah, near the sofa bed. The one that was not far from me.By still holding my face, I immediately grabbed the box, which had always been evicting myself to open it immediately. I slowly looked at the box before opening it. And after I open it...

It turned out to be a voice recording.

Impatient of what it is, I quickly turned it around.

While sitting, deep

my wish.

Then..

His voice shook my heart.

The melodious chants of the holy verses of the Quran continue to touch my heart.

Like a time loop, which brings me back to the past.

Wh why? that same sound..

Keep reminding myself of the lover of heart, who has left me.

My heart rumbled in the sensation of my longing.

I seemed powerless, immersed in the shackles of the past.

However, my sense of hearing...

Keep pushing, as if not caring about the condition of my heart.

***

"Is it okay for us to help Nak Reno do this to Nak Rani, Mr Budi?, "asked Bik Inah who approached Pak Budi sitting in the backyard.

Mr. Budi sipped his black coffee, then looked towards Bik Inah.

"God willing, it's okay. This is the way that Nak Reno told me, so that Nak Rani does not continue to be shackled by her memories and love for the late Nak Fariz."

"What's the Bik?. "

"Hmm.., "I'm hesitant.

Mr. Budi again sipped his black coffee.

"Just say Bik Inah!, "pinta Pak Budi.

Bik Inah looked towards Pak Budi, with a face full of doubt and anxiety.

"We both know, sir, if Nak Reno still has feelings for Nak Rani. Then, with us helping him. Does it indirectly, Nak Reno take advantage of our closeness? Under the pretext of making Nak Rani, can get out of the belongings of the late Nak Fariz. Sorry sir, I have a little doubt. Because it is no secret, if Nak Reno has always hurt Nak Rani, with his various tricks. And it could be, Nak Reno wants revenge on Nak Rani, for the destruction of her family."

Pak Budi laughed at Bik Inah's words.

"Haha... Haha... Bik Inah just exists, " said Mr. Budi while shaking his head.

Bik Inah was more surprised to see the attitude of Mr. Budi, "Why did Pak Budi laugh? What I said could have happened, right? We can never know what someone's heart is!. It looked sweet on the outside, yet it did not look similar in his heart. "

Mr. Budi took a short breath, then looked at Bik Inah.

"Bik Inah, I've known Nak Reno for a long time. So that I can judge him very well. In my opinion, Nak Reno has no more motive on Nak Rani. His love is sincere without requiring Nak Rani to be his. I saw it from him."

"But I'm afraid that the attitude Nak Reno showed us and Nak Rani was just camouflage, sir. What if he really still has a grudge and evil intentions on Nak Rani?, "said Bik Inah a little panicked and hysterical.

Mr. Budi smiled again, and looked at Bik Inah. This time Pak Budi immediately gulped down his black coffee.

Then, he explained to Bik Inah.

"Here I don't mean to defend Nak Reno, Bik.

What I want to say is that we cannot judge a person, just by looking at the person through the eyes. Because sometimes what we see, it doesn't fit the real situation.

So that we have no right to comment, judge, what else to judge the actions of other human beings, especially Nak Reno. Because we don't know what he's been through in his life.

Not necessarily we can live his life. It is very easy to speak up for others. But we never think, that not necessarily we can live the life that Nak Reno lives."

Bik Inah was silent listening to the words of Mr. Budi, who indirectly began to shift doubts in his heart.

Mr. Budi looked at the sky with his face that looked serious and very deep, then continued his words back to Bik Inah.

"Everyone is given different gifts and trials, Bik Inah. Each has a different ability. Not far away we can see Nak Rani and Nak Reno. Where the trials of life they lived were so extreme and full of injuries were also steep. We cannot imagine how God took all the important people into their lives. That's the thing, actually behind me wants Nak Reno to help Nak Rani out of her past. Because, without them knowing both indirectly. They have a common destiny and destiny. And one more thing, the two had a relationship and memories together. Despite his many bitter memories, but at least their hearts and minds were both slightly more well-connected."

Nah nodded, and just kept quiet.

"Not necessarily we are better than Nak Reno, Bik Inah. There is also a lot of good that Nak Reno has done to Nak Rani, without being known to everyone. And only me, the late Nak Fariz are also some people who know his kindness."

Mr. Budi smiled towards Bik Inah.

"No man is perfect, Bik Inah. If Nak Reno has shortcomings and has made mistakes, so do we who do not escape mistakes. Lucky Allah Subhanahu Wa Ta'ala covers the disgrace of our mistakes.

So, the most entitled to assess and manage one's life is each individual who lives it. The person responsible for a person's life is himself, not someone else, not us.

Where we do not like to be judged, right Bik Inah?" asked Budi.

Bik Inah nodded his head to the sign that he understood and listened correctly to what Pak Budi said to him.

"So, Bik Inah the most important reason why we do not deserve to judge the lives of others is because we ourselves do not like to be judged, do not do something if we do not like others to do the same to us.Including reproach and bad thoughts about someone's past. Because the wheel of life keeps turning. Not always a bad person will be bad.And not always the bad person has a rotten heart and is created as a bad person."

"Yes Mr. Budi, I understand now, " replied Bik Inah.

Mr. Budi smiled, then they were both surprised by the arrival of Kak Roy with his daughter.