God's Choice of Mate
Uncomfortable

This morning I deliberately didn't make breakfast for Ray. Last night I ordered Bi Lastri to stop breakfast. I'm still not in the mood. But I have to keep trying to calm down. I have to appreciate Aunt Lilis, however she is Mas Ray's second mother. Little Aunt Lilis took care of Ray before she completely resigned her job.

"Let's go baby" Invite Ray mas who is also ready with his work clothes. Today is monday. It means I'm leaving with the driver because Ray has to go to college.

At the dinner table I saw Yola and her mother preparing food. Bi Lastri had to do that.

"For Ray, Shafa. Come eat. Yola has made your favorite meal Ray" Sapa aunty Lilis while putting dishes on the table.

Favorite food? Yola knows what Ray's favorite food is? He never said he liked any food. Every time I cook, I just say it's delicious. I think all the food he likes.

"Thank you aunt, Yola. Shouldn't bother, there is a lastri bi that can nyiapin" said mas Ray.

I saw the fried rice served on the table complete with eggs, cucumbers and crackers. If this is mah I also often make kale. So my favorite food is Ray fried rice.

"Sister Ray ate a lot of ya" Yola said as she scooped the fried rice onto Ray's mas plate. This is what my wife is what she is. How dare he take over my duties.

Seeing that makes you not eager to eat. I chose to take a banana as my breakfast with a glass of Strawberry milk.

"Shafa ain't eating?" Ask aunt Lilis.

"I have breakfast this is just a aunt" I said while showing a banana in my hand.

"Where did Ray cook Yola? It's yummy?" He asked while watching my husband. Ish, pen nyiram uses his face milk to let him know the taste!

"Enak" Ray said briefly.

"Yes..." Ray gave me a bribe.

"Mas?!" I looked at him, but he closed his eyes. It means I have to eat. I had to open my mouth and eat the fried rice. It's kind of taste.

"Oh yeah, Shafa also wants to teach?" Ask aunt Lilis.

"Yes aunty" I said politely.

"Sir kak Ray really don't wear hijab anyway kak?" Tanya Yola made my heart feel like it wanted to get out of place. I want to taste like I chopped his mouth with a plate in front of me.

"Sister Shafa is still learning. Ga long time to make kok" Jawaab mas Ray. It won't be long for you that I'm going to deputize from here Yola. Patience shafa.

"It just seems weird, Ray. What people will say later. You are a Cairo alumni doctor. Simply understand there will be a Muslimah but your own wife does not do it" said Aunt Lilis. Okay Shafa you have to be stronger. My mother and son were not much different. As an older person it is not appropriate that Aunt Lilis reprimands my appearance in front of my husband directly. I was there too. Mom alone real real real mommy Ray never dropped me like this. I saw a smile on the corner of Yola's lips.

"Sister Shafa should have appreciated Ray dong's time as brother's husband. Not even humiliating him" Imbuh Yola. You are a wonderful mother and daughter couple!

"Oh yeah aunt, Yola we're leaving first huh. Afraid misfortune. Come on baby" Mas Ray gently pulled my arm off the dining table. I'm still silent. My heart rumbled to spill my anger on them. My eyes feel very warm.

"Sister Ray wait..! Yola together" Yola ran following us to the courtyard.

"No need for a moment, you're among Madi sir huh? Madi sir where's mom's car key?" Madi gave me my car keys. Ray opened the door for me. Yola stomped her feet. Base to kanakan.

"Honey, don't take heart said Aunt Lilis yes. Think of it as an advice to make us better" he said. I'm not commenting, because whatever I say is useless. Mas Ray will still defend aunt and Yola. I grunted my face looking out the window

Ray grabbed my hand and kissed it.

"Honey to catch it" he said.

Ray pulled his car over as soon as he got to the school gate. He pulled my hand and made me fall into his warm embrace.

"Darling yes, don't be sad. Mas can't see Shafa is rich in gini" he said while peeping my forehead. My tears finally escaped too.

"Are you married to me?"The question suddenly popped out.

"What are you talking about? She never knew and married Shafa. It's just so happy to be living together with you"

"But I'm just going to make mas shy" I said remembering the words of Aunt Lilis this morning.

"Shafa doesn't make me ashamed. As long as Shafa is still willing to learn and improve, he will always be supportive. No matter how small Shafa's efforts to change, appreciate it, and I'm proud. So don't think anything" he said. His words began to calm me down.

" Yes, Shafa came in. Or want to go to college?" Ask. I'm shaking. I let go of his embrace and was about to come down but the ladder held me back.

"Kiss first" he said. Basic mas Ray in a rich situation gini can still ask for a kiss. I also gave a kiss to her lips.

"If there's anything quickly contact mas ya"

I nodded and got out of the car.

"Assynogaic"

"Wa aleikum salam"

My car drove to school. I entered the office in a doldrums. Like powerless. I'm imagining what my life will be like in the next 3 months. I need to prepare myself for something else. I feel like Yola's gonna do something to make Ray hate me. I've got to be careful. I'm sorry, if I end up being a selfish person. I'm sorry if I'm on the threshold of my patience. Not only Yola, his mother will fight me if they dare to harass me even further. I will try to be patient but not to be trampled and oppressed. Mommy has always taught that family integrity is everything. Whoever it is if he intends to disturb my household then I will not remain silent.

"Hey... are you ok? " Sapa Briyan who also just arrived.

"I'm ok Mr. Briyan" I said with a smile that was slightly forced.

"But your eyes don't say that" he said.

"Ah, I'm just tired because of yesterday's busyness" I said looking for an excuse. Mr Briyan, how is the duluaan road anyway? His legs are long.

"Do you forget, only by looking at the look in your eyes can I know the content of your heart" He whispered then stepped before me.

You know what you have to say about my heart, Briyan?