God's Choice of Mate
His plan.

Tonight my heart is so agitated and unsettled. My meeting with Reno this afternoon, really riled me up. My eyes are hard to shut, her words take up all the space in my mind to keep thinking about her. Although, I want to reject it. But still my mind and my heart, continue to work together to force me to remember him.

I immediately got up from my bed, and immediately took the water of ablution, to perform the Tahajud prayer in order to get peace of heart.

Because when the heart is in a state of distress, prayer is the healer.

The night is getting late where everyone is already asleep in his sleep and various activities of life have stopped. The atmosphere was so quiet, quiet, and calm.

Thus supporting my concentration, who wants to get closer (taqarrub) to Allah Subhanahu Wa Ta'ala.

In this situation, I can easily get the calm felt by my psychic or inner self, namely by performing Tahajud prayers.

Where in Tahajud prayer there is a dimension of dzikrullah for me to remember Allah Subhanahu Wa Ta'ala.

I drift in the chant of my do'a, to the Creator-Great-to give peace in my heart.

"A'udzu bi sarajillahit tammati min ghadhabihi, wa'iqabihi, wa syarri'ibadihi, wa min hamazatis syayathini wa an yahdhurun.

I take refuge in the perfect words of God from His wrath, His torment, the ugliness of His servants, the distractions of Satan, and the demons present" I said softly.

The next day, after breakfast. I asked Ummah, so that we all go home soon. Ummah saw the unease in me.

"Why do you want to rush home, baby?our vacation is still long here. Are you bored here son?, "ask Ummah to me.

"No Ummah. Rani just wants to be home, "I replied.

Ummah looked at my face inside.

"Is that really, baby? No other reason?, "ask Ummah in doubt of me.

I nodded slowly, but Ummah was still staring at me.

"But Ummah look, there's something you're hiding from Ummah son. "

I shook my head, "No Ummah, "I said quietly.

"Well if Rani says that, but Ummah asks that Rani not keep everything alone. Divide with Ummah, so that your mind and heart become calmer, "pinta Ummah while rubbing my head slowly.

I nodded and hugged Ummah, where my feelings were much calmer.

Ummah still wants us to be here in a few days.

My feelings became more and more uncertain, after listening to Ummah's words.

My heart became afraid and more and more restless, remembering the words of Brother Reno. Which is so very disturbing to me.

I really hope he doesn't really realize his words.

From the top of the rooftop with the roof open, to the hotel where I was with Ummah and the others. We all sat down to enjoy the sunrise panorama at the highest point, where our hotel stayed.Our view enjoyed the warm sunrise , on the right side in the morning, ' he said,and see the orange color in the sky when the sun began to want to show its light.

Abi, Enjid and Pak Budi utilize sports facilities such as swimming pools and gyms located in the rooftop. Meanwhile, I was with Ummah, Wirda and Bik Inah sitting enjoying the view from the natural panorama that is still beautiful and so stunning to the eye.

My slow footsteps continued to carry me to the desires of my heart that led him. Sometimes I point my eyes around, to make sure that he is not near me.

And after I observed my surroundings that were safe from her presence.I felt quite relieved, and continued to walk carrying Fariz in my arms.

Fariz was so happy when I showed him the beach with the sweeping waves, decorated with chirping birds that beautify the atmosphere this morning.

Warm and calm, that's how I feel. While occasionally I kissed the cheek of the bully Fariz, who continued to chatter from his tiny lips, to make me anxious at him.

I was so focused on Fariz's cute charm that I didn't realize it. If from when Brother Reno is by my side.

"God, you are very good at taking care of Rani's children. God willing, our children will be happy to have a mother like you, as will I who will be calm to watch our children grow up in the love of a loving woman like you, " said Brother Reno while smiling at me.

His presence really made me surprised and wide-eyed. Especially hearing the words from his lips.

"What are you doing here? Didn't I tell you, Brother Reno, not to follow and approach me again?, "I was upset.

Brother Reno smiled at me, where his gaze made my heart beat fast.

A strange feeling that keeps exploding in my chest, every time I see him near me.

"I want to fulfill your request, Rani, that is to stay away from you. But what is my day, if my mind, heart and body continue to lead me to seek your existence. So do not blame myself Rani, because God also plays a role in every meeting we have, "he said in a statement.

"That's just your boo, Brother Reno, "I said.

Brother Reno looked straight ahead, looking at the beautiful sparkling beach.

I don't know why my eyes don't want to get out of it. Without me noticing, my eyes continued to observe him, by looking at each corner of his face that was very much different from before. He was so calm in his self-saturation.

"God better understands that we are a pair of people who knit the story but can not be resolved Ran, and for that our bodies are reunited. Where the rays of the Sun and the caress of the Baby no longer tempt each other, then the destiny of the sky will be too tired to see the distance between us, and want to witness the union between you and me, " brother Reno.

I fell silent at his words, and took my eyes off him.

For a while, I was drifting in my own daydream. Where every word keeps popping up in my mind. My heart kept trying to guess what purpose he was doing all this and was constantly near me, which I felt was no coincidence in our meeting.

I slowly turned to the side to see her. Suddenly, he was not beside me. I was shocked and riled up, looking for the existence of her who had suddenly disappeared from the reach of my eyes. I looked around to find him.

And how shocked I was, when I saw from a distance where I was standing right now.

Brother Reno is sitting joined by Ummah, BiK inah, Wirda, Abi, Enjid and Pak Budi. From a distance I saw Brother Reno talking about something. I was getting tense and panicked, where my heart thump became stronger and more erratic.

I hope that Brother Reno does not express what he desires, I asked in my heart.

I wanted to walk up to her, but I was scared and not ready to hear things I didn't want to hear.

I was silent to look at him from a distance who already seemed so familiar with everything.

When my eyes looked at him, he suddenly turned and smiled at me. My body is weak and feels fragile.

What other game is he playing this time, I murmured.