HIJRAHS
"DANU'S RAGE"

We kept quiet for a long time, I don't know? what is currently in the mind of the man before me, the man who managed to change the way I thought, and the man who managed to make me confident, will the destiny of God is real.

Danu silent a thousand languages. I know? he must have been shocked and very surprised at the ins and outs of both my parents, even though Danu was a young doctor who was successful with his career. he also has a good name among his friend's doctor and also his friend Angga.

There was no way he would marry a woman of a bad background like me. Not only was I an ex-prostitute. My family also had no good background.

"We're done here? can we go now" Danu said flatly.

I guessed it. Danu will definitely be mad at me. She will definitely cancel all our wedding plans. O God, please be strong I. Please, strengthen my heart to accept all this.

"Eemm yes, it's done. We can go home now" I replied stiffly.

"Lea, let me drive the car" Danu said in an equally flat tone.

"Good" I answered.

Danu entered the car and sat behind the wheel while I sat in the seat beside the steering wheel.There was no chatter between the two of us. All the way was just Silent, silent,

Seeing Danu's attitude turning so cold like this, I'm very sure that she will definitely cancel all our plans.

Danu drives a car at a fairly high speed, not usually he drives a car slowly.

This time, he was driving the car like a doormat.

O Allah, please calm Danu, please take care of us both, O Allah.

Throughout the journey of my breath feels hunting.the longer my breath feels tight.the heart beats indeterminate direction.

"And, isn't this the way to my house or yours? where are we going?" I asked. because Danu drove the car into the Toll area, where this is not the direction to our house .

There was no reply from Danu, he just stared straight ahead.

My heart is pounding in an uncertain direction. actually Danu will take me where to go?

All the way, I kept praying to God so that Danu could calm down and we could be safe.

Even though my breathing was suffocating due to fear, I didn't have enough courage to ask Danu again? my question just wasn't ignored by him.

20 Minutes Later.............

"And you, where are we really going?" My toot.

Danu is still silent a thousand languages.he still does not heed my question.

"And you, please forgive me. I didn't mean to deceive you. I myself didn't know if my parents would act in such a way" I said again. But still the same, there is no answer from Danu.

"And you, I'm fine.if you're gonna cancel our marriage, and if you hate me and stay away from me, I won't get mad

I promise you, I will accept everything with a big heart. Danu, please forgive me. let me make up for all your wasted time.please do not be like this Danu, at least think of Angga and people who love you" I said again. I don't feel my tears dripping.

Danu still didn't answer my words.

"Andu, are you that angry with me? are you so disappointed, after finding out that my family is no honorable? I also know, who is Sudi married to a woman like me. Not even just my dark past. even my family also has a very bad life history. I beg you not to be like this Danu" I said while crying.

I just don't want to start a relationship with a lie. That's because I'm telling the truth.I guess, my honesty won't make Danu this angry at me. Apparently I was wrong.

Even if I hide the truth, I'm very sure, someday. Danu will know everything, either he will know for himself, or he will know from others.

Wouldn't it hurt so much if we knew the truth from someone else?

It will not be very painful, if the couple if hiding something serious enough.

Ls it? why is Danu this angry with me?

I kept crying.I wasn't crying over Danu's anger.or crying over my relationship that was going to break in a while longer, I was just crying over how guilty I was, how guilty I was, to make the man I love this angry?

How guilty I was, until I made Danu, the man who managed to take me down the right path, who always helped me to the point of sacrificing his salvation. right now in the thick of a huge disappointment.

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I don't know how long I cried.

until I did not realize, that our car had arrived in front of an orphanage which was spelled out far from the city.I looked around.The orphanage looks to have an old building. Yet very well maintained.

"Andu? why are we here?" I asked Danu.

"Let's Leah down" Danu answered still flat.

I no longer ask. Immediately I wipe the remaining tears that are still wetting my cheeks.

I followed Danu's steps.

we kept walking into the orphanage area.There were a lot of children playing with joyful joy.no look of sadness on their faces.they played, they played, like not feeling deficient or different from other children.

Not felt, my lips smiled when I saw a little girl who was cool playing dolls. with 2 children who were older than him.

"This is the place where I grew up, I used to be just like that kid. playing around, not having a lot of thoughts. Don't even know my biological parents. all I know? the mother of the parlour is a wingless angel.she raised me and the other children without asking for anything in return." Danu

"So, this is the orphanage you used to tell me about?" My answer.

"Yes, this is my house. The house of the man who raised me. The house where my brother grew up and lived. I don't know? where and who are my parents, just like any other child, they don't know? who's their parents." Danu

"Eemm" answered.

"Lea, who knows? I might as well be an illegitimate child, and my parents' deeds are worse than your parents. But, after all, the actions of both your parents cannot be justified.they are still guilty of throwing and selling their children, even though they are your parents, however, they are still guilty, their actions are still wrong" Danu said.

"Yes, I know that. Therefore, I want to take care of my sister and take them all from the clutches of the two human beings who have the title of parents." Answer me

"Lea, you're a good woman. Both of your adoptive parents must be very proud.they did not fail to raise and educate you Lea. You are indeed a kind woman.just like the words of the ustadz who had you. is the luckiest man, you are not at all afraid to admit a truth.In fact you are so easy to tell your identity.it is not easy Lea. even me, even me, I haven't been able to confess my identity to my colleague at the hospital.You're amazing Lea." Danu.

"You mean?" Reply confused.

Danu was silent, she looked at me with a gaze that I could not understand.I don't know what was in the mind of the man standing before me?