HIJRAHS
"SARAN OF USTADZAH"

"Then,?" ask her.

"After his death, I always imagined the night where he was in so much pain.the night where he breathed his last.when he was a worshiper.

Until, where in one night. after I came home from work.or rather finished serving the lust of a striped man.I returned home to my home. I was lying in my bed, I fell asleep as if I had slept the night before.

But, strange things happen?

"What's that?" ask her.

"I dreamed that I was in a place I did not know.I dreamed in front of me there were a lot of people. But strangely, my feet like walking alone approached the crowd of humans. Until the moment I arrived and was right in the middle of the crowd.

I felt so ashamed, so ashamed.I felt that I was naked and I repeatedly looked at my body and I was still wearing the clothes I was wearing. However, I felt that I was naked at the time.

I was the center of attention among many of his Man that I was really embarrassed and forced my feet to move. my legs could move back.I ran away leaving the human crowd still looking at me. I ran in any direction.and ran as far as possible. it is filled with orange grass.

However, when my feet stepped on the grass. grass grass was as if I was reluctant to touch. until I felt very scared and sat down while crying. until a flower I don't know where it came from falls right on my lap.

flowers with white.even white more than cotton.and patterned black speckled. when I was looking fixed flowers.

I was surprised by the sound of knocking on the door of the room so loud. When I realized, I was in my room. my maid said that she had been asleep for three days and three nights.

it surprised me so much, how not? I myself did not realize that I was asleep for that long.I just felt that I was only asleep for a while.

And, when I told Sindi about the incident that happened to me. she was also surprised and took me to seek treatment from a shaman.

"Astaghfirullah" he said with his mouth shut blocked by a veil.

"Yes, I was taken to a shaman. And the shaman said that I was exposed to witchcraft or what was it?

"You know, it is the sin of the idolater.Joint God is a great sin.do you know that?" ask her.

"Yes, I also do not believe in shamans and others.it's just that at that time I could not refuse the invitation of Sindi's sister. and taking care of me a lot helps me.

however, honestly I myself do not believe what the shaman said.

Three days later.I was back dreaming.only in my dream.there was someone who kept calling my name.I don't know where it is? it's just that the place was like a very quiet street, so I kept walking to find the source of the sound, and arrived at a settlement where all the houses were facing the same direction. and on top of the house, like a grave sign. However, I do not know the inscription in the tombstone.

Then, I continued walking because the voice of the call re-emerged, and as I continued to look for it. I arrived at a very dark alley ahead. but when he called several times. Someone appeared from inside the alley. he was wearing a black Hoodie jacket. and I don't know? is she a woman or a man?

what I saw, he stood up while holding a knife in his hand. Because I was afraid.I was about to run. However, I was hit by a knife.he kept chasing me. until I fell into a hole, which turned out to be a hole.

The voice came back for several times, until I closed my eyes and mouth. For a while, and before long, the sound of many people walking closer. change with the sound of approaching footsteps.

Before long, many middle-aged men stood around the burrow which contained me inside. I repeatedly asked to be taken out. However, not a single human heard.

They all began to hoard my body with the ground, until suddenly, a smooth white hand stretched out in front of me. When I lifted my head I saw a woman in all black clothes. and the hijab and the black veil stretched forth his hand.

without a second thought, I welcomed the woman's hand, so that my body was lifted up, and after that, she went among the big trees, and then, as I was about to turn around. a black smoke suddenly arrived, making me lose my sight.

When I opened my eyes, I was in my room

I found that my face looked pale in everyone's eyes. But strangely, me and brother Sindi did not see that?

the more days my face looks more pale. until when I enter my room. fragrant yells there. when I search. it turns out that fragrant comes from the flowers that were once in my dreams. my maid found her under my bed, and she put her in a bowl.

the flowers are very fragrant. When I fell asleep, I was awakened by my parents.

in our dreams we miss each other, until they say that I must stop making sins.

and when they left, I met the woman in black, and she said I would repent, for God will surely accept my repentance. there are so many strange things that have happened to me until now.

""God once said, Leah, do you know the meaning of your dream?" said it.

"No, isn't that a dream just a sleeping flower?" my answer.

"True, dreams are sleeping flowers.but not all dreams are sleeping flowers.There are some dreams that God sends as a guide, and guidance" he said.

"I don't understand?" my answer.

"Shortly, you sold your body to help others, or the lives of others. And wrongly with that money too. You committed a great sin.You killed others? it was a mistake." he said.

"Then,?" my answer.

"In that dream you got a lot of guidance.How much God loves you Lea. he made you lose the way.then, he sent someone as your helper. Both of your parents must also really want you to return to the right path Lea" he said.

"How's it going?" my answer.

"Go back to God, and God Himself will help you" he said.

"What's possible?" answer me

"Nothing is impossible Leah, if we as her servants love her very much, then God, will love us much more" he said.

"Then, what is the meaning of my dream is. I have to stop and repent?" my answer.

"Yes, Allah loves his repentant servant very much" he said.

An hour later.

After I had talked and chatted a lot with the ustadzah, I felt my heart calm down again.

I feel that I am really calm.

after getting the advice and answers I had been looking for. I decided to meet Sindi.

No, not to ask her to take me to her shaman.I'll just say that I'm going to quit my job.

And, somehow? I felt that my intention was really unanimous to quit that adulterous job.I imagined the faces of Father and Mother.where they wanted me to repent.