HIJRAHS
"LEA'S DREAM"

Tahlil mbok Inah event always runs smoothly, so it does not feel 7 days mbok Inah left me.

we distributed the parcels and sembako to the residents of the residence mbok Inah, All this is intended to thank us. because honestly I and kak Sindi do not know where the location of the family mbok Inah. all we know is that she was a kara. after living dead by her husband and children.

and I have also consulted Ustadz around the house of Mbok Inah, I delivered the mandate that Mbok Inah wanted, namely building a Mosque or mosque.

I told Amanat mbok Inah, but I did not tell about Mbok Inah's desire for me, because I did not know how to stop from the mud puddles, or the world of the night.

I remember very well what Sindi said the other day. Once I come in it will be very difficult for me to get out. I am also very sure, fat pimps it will not let me out easily. .

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Six Months Later.........

After six months of Mbok Inah's death, Mushola's wanted mbok Inah has finished in the wake.

and the rest of the money from the savings mbok Inah. Sindi and I donated to the orphanage.

Mushola wanted mbok Inah has stood upright on his land.The house he used to live in. is now a field of worship for all the surrounding residents.

After all the Will that was in the ink mbok Inah I have granted.only her wishes remain that I have not been able to fulfill.

Since the night of death mbok Inah. somehow? I became lazy to work as a butterfly night. somehow also my feelings are always imagined the shadow of the night of death mbok Inah, he who often worship only looks so painful. let alone me?

Even I am not sure that God will forgive the sins I have committed.

I'm the woman who deliberately sold her body and showed off her aurat to another man? can I repent?

is God still willing to accept me as his servant?

Not only that, I have also taken revenge by killing three men on purpose. Does God want to accept my repentance?

And is it true that I once heard a lecture that when our lives were about to be taken out, the pain was overwhelming?

Don't know why? my sweat is always pouring when I remember when mbok Inah was about to take his life.

For some reason, there is a great fear every time you imagine and remember it.

I repeatedly reasoned that my Mood was really a mess.

sometimes I reasoned that I was sick, sometimes I forced myself to continue working because Pucikari could not always believe the reasons I made.

until one night....

After coming home from that despicable job, I immediately laid my body on a very soft mattress.

Room with shades of gold and white, making it look very luxurious.I look at the sky of my room that displays the ceiling of the latest model.

My eyes went around to the corner of my room, until drowsiness hit my eyes.

I'm so slumbering.

Till......

I dreamt, I was walking somewhere? a place that is very foreign to me that shows a lot of people in front there.

My legs felt to walk alone.I just follow this foot that continues to carry me. until when I arrive in the middle of the crowd containing the man and woman.

they all saw me. And somehow I was so ashamed, so ashamed.I felt that I was naked without wearing a single piece of clothing and cloth.

I look at my body, I'm still wearing the clothes I was wearing. But why do I feel so embarrassed?

They were all still staring at me with a gaze that was very difficult for me to understand. All over my body it felt numb. All my dim fur felt standing up and like I wanted to get away from my skin.

Sweat was pouring so hard, the wind was blowing it was not able to make me feel the cool of this place.

I was so embarrassed, My legs still felt difficult to move.I really wanted to run away leaving the human crowd who was still looking at me with a gaze that I could not understand this.

It felt like this face was very red, withstanding the extreme embarrassment.I don't know, how long do I stay at the center of this human spectacle?

eventually, the feet can walk back.

I feel so tired. And somehow? I felt like there were still a lot of eyes watching me, and I ran as far as I could.

I cried when I realized that I had been in a very large field with grass grass colored to orange nan. I don't recognize this place? I've never even been to this place.

every foot I walk on is like the grass I move by myself and I don't want to touch.

I looked at the sky above. I did not see the sun above, but it felt so hot here. I even felt if the sun was right above my head.

I was really scared, really scared!

until I decided to keep running to find a way out. But all of them are nil. I just feel like I'm running in the same place.

I cried as hard as I could, until a flower fell right on my lap.A white and black flower. A flower that doesn't know where it came from? I spread my eyes. I did not see a flower tree in this field.all of it contained only grass.

Until I looked at the Flower. very beautiful and beautiful, but it smelled bad. I held the Flower. and continued to cry until I was shocked by a knock on the door quite hard.

My eyes open perfectly.I look around me. This is still my room.the room I slept in last night.I look towards the door that makes a loud enough sound.

When I tried to get up from my position and walk to the door, somehow my legs felt very tired.

I forced my feet to step up and open the door to my room.

"Mom, why not why?"

Ask my housekeeper, who confused me.

"What am I really doing?" my answer was so confused by the question my assistant asked.

"Mom, mom didn't leave the room for three days.I guess mom why?" he said with a confused face.

"What, I slept for three days?" I replied, very surprised by his words.

"Yes, Mom, but I'm not why is it?" he said that still looks at me.

I just shook my head, I don't know what to say? Just be right.

I slept for three days? do I feel like I'm just sleeping for a while?

This is all wrong.

That dream? why does my body feel all the pain and my legs are also very tired.

Should I consult someone?

"Mom, do you want me to make you a meal? Or do I want to make a drink?" said my assistant.

"Eemm, no. I'm not hungry yet" I replied.

"Yes Mom, if so I go back to work again" he said as he left

I went back into my room. I looked around my room. I still can't believe that I slept for three days?

I took my phone, and my eyes widened perfectly.when I found hundreds of missed phone calls from Sindi. and hundreds of chats she sent?

and, all the messages I haven't read exactly three days from today?

what did my assistant say was right?

I have not replied or told Sindi, my mind is still wandering in any direction.

Something that couldn't have happened?

until I lay down my body and found a flower lying on the floor of my room. I looked at the flower and when I observed carefully.The flower is a Flower in my dream?

my chest rumbled violently, sweat began to pour back.I don't know why the dream image last night.make my room that was very cold by the AC felt so hot.

I also ran out of my room...