I'm Beautiful#Part 2
Episode 37's

Being a lover only makes me a stranger to your world,

Should we continue this status?

If giving me everything is not enough for you, too,

Do I deserve to fight for you?

lizbeth Lee - Lizbeth Lee

Months changed months have passed, it does not feel my relationship with Nio has stepped on a year of courtship, but all this time I still do not really know Nio, what Nio likes or what Nio doesn't like about our relationship, everything is going to look good - fine, but to be honest with me everything is not okay, Nio was always more concerned with the feelings of friends around him than with me.

Sometimes there is a feeling of saturation that becomes - so in me, Sometimes I think that I am just a tool of gratification****Nio alone, but at certain times Nio looks so attentive to me, but in many situations and conditions Nio looks very indifferent, Nio can talk loosely and familiar with many women, but with myself Nio seems to refrain from showing his original attitude and disposition,

I wonder if I've been myself all this time when I'm near Nio? or do I also hide a lot of my original character just to obey and please Nio alone, so that this relationship looks good - fine, all right, Until one day I can't stand it anymore to always cover my disappointment with Nio's sometimes self-willing attitude that is always to be understood, but Nio doesn't want to understand my feelings.

That afternoon I was accepted to work Part Time at one of the entertainment venues in this small town as Disc Joky or DJ, and I was very happy, he said, so that I can channel my hobbies and talents to music - fat-relieving music at night, and we will hold a regular show at the Mall in front of the entertainment venue, and the event we gave the theme "Freaky Friday", the plan for several times this event I will be the Official event as a DJ, can also as an MC, he said, or perform the band in accordance with the random event that we will arrange and perform this routine event for the next three months.

When all the committee meetings were finished with the salary I would get I felt this was my chance to be myself when not with Nio, to be honest, I felt that all this time I was too quiet and pious in front of Nio and that was not my true identity, actually my attitude was quite moody, I can sometimes be an Introvert and can also be an Extrovert at a time that suits my Mood,

One thing is certain that I am a cheerful person, and the joy that I have had disappeared since the tragedy of my love story with Mathew, but I was unable to restore my identity when I was with Nio, in fact, I feel that my relationship makes me become someone else just to please others, but I feel miserable with all this falsehood.

When I was with my bandmates and some of the organizers went to the location of the event that we were going to hold to see the decoration plan of the decor committee, the decorator, from a distance I saw Nio walking together with my junior high school sister named Ayu and they had a friendly conversation, Nio can look to laugh freely with Ayu, who is very friendly, even that twinkle face and laughter I never had when I was with Nio all this time.

My heart felt pinched, I wanted to cry at the sight, with the condition of our relationship is not healthy, of course the sense of possessiveness is very large, but this heart is at war with logic, logic, they might just be friends, but all this time I never knew Nio knew Ayu and Nio never talked about their friendship, even if you can say all his girl friends absolutely nothing I know except his boyfriends and or lovers of friends who already know me.

With a pounding Heart I chased after the two of them who were walking side by side with his mesra while laughing crisply,

" No...!!!" I shouted, and at that instant Ayu's face turned unpleasant like it was caught off guard, and don't ask how Nio's face was, he looked surprised but he quickly took control of himself, and Nio turned his head at once, too, but with the thumping of jealous flames I ran away leaving the two of them with unbearable tears.

Nio didn't chase after me at all, didn't fight for me at all back then, wouldn't it be so embarrassing if I remembered it again now?? Without wanting to wait for long I want to immediately break away from this pseudo-relationship and I want to be released immediately from Nio so as not to suffer any more inner thoughts I thought.

"*Nio.., I think we just end this, I'm no longer able to be willing to understand you, I don't think I'm the right woman to be worthy of being with you as a lover" *with a broken feeling I sent that short message to Nio.

Notification of sent message I have received but I did not receive any reply from Nio, after completing my obligations with my Team, I decided to go home immediately. Arriving at home I immediately met my mother and said "Mama.., Beautiful has broken up with Nio"

"Well, what is it?! you don't make mama beautiful? what's the problem? can't the problem be solved well?" kiss my mama to me, man,

Not wanting to prolong this conversation, I decided to take a shower and immediately shut myself in the room while listening to rock music with a large volume so that no sound out there interfered with my broken heart ritual,

Several times the door of my room was knocked on my mother and several times knocked on by my maid, but I did not want to answer or open the door of my room, she said, anyway, right now I just want to be alone and do not want to be disturbed by anyone.

The shadows on their faces both hurt me so much, and upset me, why am I always being played by men when I have given my heart to them completely but still it is not enough for them, even Nio has gained even more from my heart, he also got my body voluntarily but still it was not enough for him, again I felt angry with my feelings and thoughts that were not good.

"DUE!!! DUGGGS!! DUUGG!!!" The sound of my door was heard again, this time it was no longer the sound of a knock but the sound of a break from my mother who was upset by the hardness of my head in here.

"Yeah...? Beautiful again want to sleep ma. please do not be disturbed.." I replied while opening my room door with annoyance,

"Nio call!! quickly pick up and solve your problems properly and mature!!" Mama said in a slightly snapping voice. Again my mother took on the role of meddling in my personal affairs.

"Nothing's done before mom says it's done Beautiful!!! pick up the phone!!" if it's with a face like this and a commanding tone of voice I'm clearly in a loss with mama, and finally I choose to go out of the room to pick up the phone that is waiting at the table.

"Hello" I replied,

"Hello.., what's wrong with you? I was chasing after him and ran away?" ask Nio behind the phone,

"Why chase again? we've no relationship - what Nio, you're just dating Ayu, you guys look harmonious and familiar, even more familiar than when we were together right?" I said lazy, though,

"Beautiful.., Ayu knows who you are and what your position is" Nio replied calmly, saying,

"Thou? how may I know.., I just don't know the women who have been around you all this time" I replied,

"From the beginning I've asked you to trust me, don't mind any gossip you hear there, am I lacking enough to introduce you to all my family? why is there still such a doubt as this Beautiful? "asked Nio calmly,

For a moment my logic overcame the feeling of jealousy that had been burning turned into a smaller fire but was still upset considering what I had just seen.

"Beautiful.., why keep quiet, anyway I don't want to break up with you. period!" Nio, said Nio,

"Let me have time to think about Nio" my dear,

"Not Beautiful, just not yeah no, you understand?" stubbornly Nio did not want this relationship to end, that alone was able to make my heart melt weak with my rampage that was immediately also extinguished completely!

"hmmmmm.., well.., I forgive you this time" I sighed and gave up on her seduction, she said,

" Thank you dear.." rayu Nio "I picked up yah.." bargained

"I want to take a break today, we'll see you on Saturday" I replied, and Nio agreed, and then we'd acknowledge our call at the time.

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