I'm Beautiful#Part 2
Episode 52

"I'd be happier if my mind was right than your relationship with your playboy girlfriend who stamped the flip-flops" Nita said,

"I've had nothing to do with him" I replied briefly,

"Is it really beautiful? I know it's not really beautiful." whispered Nita coldly,

"Why can you talk like that?" my tofu, my,

"Because a few days ago, your mama invited me and Ami to attend your parents' wedding anniversary dinner, and your mama said Nio would be there too." whispered Nita,

"When do you want to cover it with me Beautiful?" connect Nita with an annoyed look.

Like a lightning bolt in broad daylight, I seem to forget that we are students at the same university, but my ego is bigger than my fear, no matter what Nita said I thought about how to keep my rotten secret from being exposed by anyone, especially not known to Dhino and of course Nio, hate - hate her I with Nio but I am still not ready to be dumped or dumped each other, I really - really confused how to, how, as if I felt stuck with my own game, my brain kept spinning how to keep things going together and let none of us get hurt .

Looking at me frozen with my own thoughts, Nita whispered to me again "I'm not going to expose anything, but please don't hurt Dhino, she's too good to have to be the one to be hurt Beautiful" Nita said as if stabbing a hole in my heartroom wasn't okay.

I no longer answered Nita, I just looked at her with a difficult look but I knew Nita understood what my gaze meant to her, the many things I went through, starting from my relationship with Mathew I have suffered enough, do I also have to suffer now? If with Mathew I spend three more years with Nio I can't stand it if I have to last that long, we've been together for over a year but I still feel like a stranger to her.

Would I also regret it as much as I regret letting go of my golden opportunity when I had the chance to choose between Mathew and Roy and Jhon? Do I also have to regret the steps I took at this time. My relationship with Nio has gone too far, if this relationship has to end again then I will make myself the most cheap woman on the face of this earth.

But if I were to be cast out, wouldn't I be a pathetic cheap woman? Then the words of Nio who once said "Don't Leave me" is it just an emotion or a momentary feeling??? If Nio was serious about what he said, then Nio's attitude would not be like this. Even now Nio was already cheating behind my back before I got back at him by being in a relationship with Dhino. As things got more and more chaotic in my mind again my heart insisted "I will still stand on what my choice is right now" I muttered inwardly,

For a moment I looked at the cheerful face of Dhino, there was a sense of pinching on my chest, I could not bear to see Dhino but this stubbornness overcame my pity, I turned into a woman who started to be selfish, I turned into a woman who started to be selfish, what I normally couldn't hide my feelings, couldn't lie, and couldn't be hypocritical but now I'm changing and able to do what I couldn't.

After passing our afternoon with a lecture class that was quite tiring, the four of us spent time sitting under a tree near the campus field while eating the bread that we had brought before, little attention began to show Dhino to me, sweet little thing,

"Here." said Dhino, giving him a bottle of mineral water that had been opened by him, I received the bottle of mineral water while chewing the bread full in my mouth, after drinking the water I thanked him,

"Thank you." I said with a slight sigh, and Dhino laughed at my almost unyielding behavior as a result of the full bread in my mouth,

"If you eat heart - heart.., the bread will not run anywhere" said Dhino smiling while shuffling - random hair, my hair,

Ami bengong saw the interaction between the two of us, occasionally looking at me then looked at Dhino again with a face that continued to gawk because it was still confused by what was in front of his eyes, Nita also smiled at the sweetness of the interaction that occurred between me and Dhino, to divert the attention of Ami, Dhino took another bottle of mineral water and gave to Ami "It's a pity to drink, don't be dumb, the bread is chewed" dhino's tease, suddenly making Ami goosebumps also shudder in horror to Dhino and obviously it makes us laugh out loud - bahak together.

This kind of interaction I had never found in my relationship with Nio nor with Mathew, I again became selfish to linger - long holding Dhino in our relationship, I know it's not fair for Dhino if he knows his current position, but I need time to decide what steps I should take after all this is out of my control.

In silence I looked at Dhino who was joking, until finally my attention was diverted by the arrival of Rheno which of course made our association more crowded, so that my attention was diverted,

"Dad already Ren, but seniors have not yet stepped into training again" I said,

"This afternoon they are training, so I'm here to see you so all I info, they are also about busy stacking the beautiful thesis" said Reno,

"Oh yeah.., what time is Ren's training going to be?" my tofu, my,

"The plan is five o'clock in the afternoon, can you?" ask Reno again to make sure,

"Can I go to the training ground" I replied Reno,

"Okay, well go on, I still have this class, see you all" Reno said.

"I'll take you back" Dhino told me,

"No usa let me go alone well.., later let it fall between Reno is okay - what right?" I'm asking the same for Dhino,

"No matter what" said Dhino "Kabari only if you get home" continued Dhino.

"Okay" I answered,

We again spent our time together, how not anymore - again Ami and Nita went with her affection in front of the two of us, and how could the two of us not be entangled in this kind of relationship if indeed circumstances often make us together and as if forced to get to know each other by the situations and conditions that always give us the opportunity to feel the spark - a spark of feeling.

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