I'M Nathasya Gustari
Avoid What?

"Lho. How come you guys are home?" asked Caca astonished, found his daughter and Rian and the mother who had been at the door of his house when he was cleaning the house.

His housekeeper was not allowed in for a few days. After all his house was not too big, so he could clean it himself. Also choose laundry services to wash her clothes and the princess during the absence of a housekeeper.

If he doesn't work, he might be able to do it all himself. It's just that his work at MFA is also quite time and energy drain.

"What's in first, Cha! tired of just getting home." rian grumbled when Caca even scouted them in front of the door like that.

Caca opened the door wide, letting them in and holding the little princess who had not even met for two days but it felt like a long time.

Caca until he kissed Mentari, until the little girl laughed amusedly.

"Where would it be a week, if there was Om Tara."

Deg. Caca's heart seemed to stop when he heard the name he was avoiding spoken aloud by Rian.

Is fate joking with him?

Yesterday he met Shinta's mother. And in a different place, far from his reach. The princess also met her real father.

Like the proverb says like a house on the edge of a cliff. Caca always felt anxious and unsettled. Afraid that Tara will find them.

And after those two events, Caca believes that the world is indeed only as big as moringa leaves. Although Mentari vacationed far from the city of Jakarta, even there his son met Tara.

Caca still hopes that neither Tara nor her mother will find her again this time.

What the hell, is he afraid of?

Mama Shinta is back to health. Even the middle-aged woman seemed to clearly miss him.

But the snapping of Tara. His attitude when they last met first, made Caca feel not really loved. She felt that she was only considered a bed warmer by her husband.

Or an ex-husband?

Have they not been in contact for a long time?

Hasn't he disappeared long ago and not met the man?

And isn't he even married to Rian?

She now has the status of a widow. But still, she had already been someone else's wife. Her ex-husband never touched her.

"What is it that keeps you in hiding, Icha?" the soft voice full of understanding that was thrown by the doctor Risma resuscitated Caca from the complexity of the contents of his head.

"Mother see, you've never been close to any man. Even with Rian alone, the only man close to you, you refuse."

Rian nodded in agreement. Even though he loves Caca. But if Caca loves Tara and can be happy with the man, Rian willingly takes off the woman.

He just wants to see Caca and Mentari happy. Shining brightly like the name of a little girl who is now playing with her favorite doll not far from them.

"If you're not mistaken, it means you still love your real father, don't you?"

Caca silently looked down. Question doctor Risma roared inside his cranium. What keeps him in hiding?

"And maybe deep down, you've been waiting for that man to pick you up and your daughter."

Caca's eyes are starting to heat up. What the doctor said Risma hit him. Has he really been expecting Tara to come home?

Will Tara accompany her to breastfeed their daughter in the middle of the night?

Will the man accompany their daughter and play in the early hours?

And much what the others. Because to be honest Caca did expect the man to be by her side. Accompanying and raising their daughters together as a complete family.

And then again, what has he been avoiding for all this time?

I don't know. Maybe he was too cowardly to face Tara's parents. All this time he was afraid of receiving rejection and disappointed gazes from his grandmother and grandfather. He was not ready to see their sorrow (again) for the mistake he and Tara had made.

And maybe her very sensitive pregnancy hormone still leaves the wound with the indifference of Tara first.

So, there are many reasons that he can actually face but make him choose to stay away and not come back.

"Poor Dance. Think also of the need for a father figure for him." doctor Risma still spoke softly.

"Can, there's Rian, ma'am." denied Caca. After all, Rian has been the perfect father figure for his daughter.

"Lo won't marry me! I also want to find another wife. And when I already have a wife, there's no way when I'm still doing a lot of dancing. Although I don't mind. But there will be a heart I must take care of."

Caca nodded in understanding. Their status that was nobody, would trouble Rian later on.

"Try to make peace with the past, Icha." ask Dr. Risma again. "Let you no longer have to lock Dance in the house. Let you go free without worrying about Tara finding you. Is this still the same town."

Is correct. They are still in the same city. Although they live in the suburbs of Jakarta. But it wasn't hard for Tara to find them. What else yesterday mama Shinta met him in a restaurant that is still one area with where she lives.

But somehow Tara never found it all this time. Or is it the man who is not looking for him?

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Caca's heartbreak continued until the next day. He still can't make his choice. Whether he'll come back to Tara or not.

There's no way he's gonna meet Tara first, right?

God gave an answer to Caca the afternoon. When the woman had just returned from MFA with her little daughter.

In front of the fence minimalist house, parked luxury sedan. And as soon as Caca and Mentari walked into the yard of their house, there was a middle-aged man and woman who were knocking on the door of the house and saying hello many times.

Caca nailed in place. Throat's choked. His chest rumbled with his eyes heating up.

There is a burning longing. The back of that field, the back he always missed. The back belonged to the man who filled his heart.

The mentor pulled the dress he was wearing. "Who is that, mah?" the girl asked innocently with her hands raised, pointing at the two people who were on their backs.

The two people who were appointed turned their bodies, when they heard the cheerful voice of Mentari.

Caca and Tara looked at each other. Dive into each other's eyes. Fill the view of the longing for the person they both love.

Caca has indeed tried to prepare himself if at any time meet again with Tara. But he did not expect that it would be so soon that fate brought Tara before him.

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