I'm the One who Lose
Chapter 14

Lord..Remove the heat in the heart of the servant. Give a feeling of patience. Eliminate this anger, O Lord, and give abundant and lawful sustenance to sustain all the needs of the servant and the son of the servant, O Lord. To finance the education of the children of the servants of God.

Such is the strand of Rini's prayer in the middle of the night. His lips whimpered with his hands looking up for protection and sufficiency in God.

Struggling on the prayer mat, spilling all his problems and sadness there. Pour out all his grievances and pains upon the Creator. Treat his pain with a thread of prayer words that can cool his heart.

Rini wiped away the tears that flooded her smooth cheeks while sobbing. Stand up and lay her body on the bed. He stroked his waist that felt sore, then his hands turned to stroke his stomach that had been protruding. Rini smiled in the dark of the night. The child he is elus, will not feel the affection of his father. Not because he's orphaned, but maybe because God hasn't allowed him to feel it.

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Rania looked closely at the Angga sitting in front of her. He looked very upset and full of anger.

"When are you going to marry me?"

Rania's hand clenched tightly as she asked that.

"Please say a little Rania, I will definitely marry you"

"certainly when?

It's been almost a year since you've officially divorced me, where's your promise to marry me soon?"

"Please Rania, this is for our good name. If I marry you right away after divorce, people will justify Rini's alibi that I was having an affair. Please be patient a little more"

"Wouldn't this nearly a year be enough. I want a clear status mas, we can't be like this continue. I also want to be like other women, feel like a legitimate wife, have children. Feel the pleasure of a household, not just a kebo gathering like this"

Rania banged on the table in front of her.

"I know Rania, believe me this is for our good name"

Angga tried to patiently face Rania, although sometimes he almost out of control saw the barbaric Rania.

Rania's emotions began to peak, she who was originally sitting now stood up while shaking her waist.

While Angga still sitting while pulling his own hair. Feeling frustrated with the increasingly uncontrollable Rania. Her sweet attitude used to be lost somewhere. Now it's like a hungry lion that always wants to pounce on prey.

Angga breathed a rough breath. Home work body feels tired intend to immediately rest but in reality he was invited to war by Rania once home. He put his body on the sofa. Wiggling slowly using both hands as pads. Angga closed his eyes, but it was with his eyes closed that a lot of things were milling about in his brain. One of them is the face of a newborn baby in the world. So damaged was Rini's heart that she did not want to say about her pregnancy. Why Rini even seems to hide her pregnancy by living outside the city. Angga also just remembered, since their separation Angga had never once visited his children. All this time he was busy with his own life, he was busy with his own world. What is his duty he never takes care of, what is his responsibility he never fulfills. There are so many problems that crammed his brain, until finally Angga fell asleep by itself.

Pyyyaarrrrr.........

The tiptoed goose was startled, he immediately got up and ran towards the source of the sound. With random hair scrambling from waking up he was like a madman galloping towards the room. Climb the stairs quickly to get there quickly. With a breath ngosan Angga opened the door of the room, he saw the condition of the room was like a broken ship. Pillow bolsters scattered, broken glass where where. All the things are not located in their place, all are scattered below. Angga shook his head. I don't know what demons are in Rania's body so she will rampage violently during emotions. He saw Rania sitting on the edge of the bed crying, her eyes look damp and her hair is random.

"What are you doing Rania, you want to destroy this room?"

Angga furiously asked, it seemed like his stock of patience was starting to thin, he who usually gave up and was silent now became provoked by emotions.

"If I could mas, it's not just this room that I'd destroy. But also you, I want to destroy youuuuuu"

Rania screamed like an infidelity person.

Angga walked up to Rania, roughly slapping Rania on the cheek until Rania's head turned to the side. Angga was no longer able to hold back his emotions. Silence, after the cross-section carried out Angga the situation became silent. No one spoke either Angga or Rania. Shortly afterwards, Rania heard. Angga stood looking at the woman in front of him. The woman he fought for was willing to leave his wife and child. But it turned out that he was beginning to realize that he had chosen wrongly. Rania is still crying. His mouth was silent and not a word came out. Angga walked towards the sofa next to the bed, sitting himself there. Just like Rania, she speaks a thousand languages. Long enough Rania cried, until she finally got up, walking towards the wardrobe. Rania took the suitcase and put all her clothes in the suitcase.

Rania drags her suitcase out of Angga's house. Angga just kept quiet while looking at what Rania was doing, there was no intention to prevent it. This time Angga felt tired, almost every day quarreling with Rania made him run out of energy.

Rania was running her car. The quiet streets because it was already midnight made it have no obstacles.

After driving for almost an hour, Rania finally arrived at the place she was aiming for. A minimalist house with a size that is not so large in a housing complex that is not luxurious, yes just an ordinary housing. In a hurry Rania walked towards the door, the house without an iron gate was repeatedly pushed into the corner of Rania. It could even be said that digedor was no longer shoved.

A woman in her thirties opens the door for Rania, looking surprised to see Rania in front of her. He rubbed his eyes to confirm his vision. Making sure that what he saw was indeed his cousin's. Not even he had time to say something Rania had rushed to hug him.