I'm the One who Lose
Chapter 18

Laying on the bed all day makes Rini bored, but what his limp strength makes him unable to move. Stress makes Rini's stomach acid relapse.

Night has come, Rini's body now feels good after taking medicine and rest all day. Walking out after seeing his son who was fast asleep, sitting in the front garden chair of the house enjoying the night breeze. Pensively Rini thought about tomorrow morning. Tomorrow is Sunday, you can make sure Angga will come to his house tomorrow to meet his son. I really want Rini to avoid not meeting Angga. What Rini wants is really not to meet Angga again, but what power God has arranged his meeting once a week, sometimes even twice. Rini took a breath, undeniably her heart still felt pain over the wound incised by Angga. Memories of bad memories are sometimes still present in Rini's dreams. The wound had not dried to the inside, it only seemed to have improved from the outside. Even about his love for Angga, as strong as he can to forget but in fact the feeling has not been erased out of his chest. Really he wants the feeling to disappear without anyone left behind, but at this time he is not really able to do it. For this reason he wants to stay away from Angga, with the more often he meets he will be more difficult to remove the taste.

Rini realized, everything that happened was God's will. He should be able to accept it anyway. Taking a deep breath, Rini got up from her seat. Entering the house and taking ablution water the thing he always does when his heart is restless is to rest on the prayer mats to pour out all the heartbreak on the creator.

"Lord, this incident changed my perspective on many things, increased my maturity, drew me closer to Engaku the almighty, trained me to truly deliver not just the sincere spoken. Spread the heart that was once narrow, realizing the arrogance that used to be often spoken of from these lips. This incident really slapped me, showing me that I was far from good. This incident shows that the me who was right must be changed. Lord, so good are You, so unfortunately You are to this proud and sinful servant of yours. Thou hast drawn the servant, Thou hast reminded the servant before the servant is far fallen in sin. This heartache, Lord, this body pain, but I realize this is how you embrace the servant. No, it is not he who seizes the one I love but I believe You are the one who took it from the servant in this way. Nothing will happen without your intervention, God. There would be nothing in my life without your will. Help the servant Lord, help the servant to go through this phase. Help the servant to remain patient, iklas, and calm in living your destiny. Sorry if all this time I protested a lot and did not want to accept. Asking for everything as you wish is not aware that you are the best scenario. Kneel, cry asking with a little force so that all according to the wishes of the servant. Thank you Lord, You remind your servant of this many caliphs. This incident is painful but I believe You have prepared a great gift at the end of it. With this incident You have awakened the servant to the morals that I need to correct. Servant is aware, Lord, it is this self-conceit that causes this to happen, so please God allow this servant of yours to correct all things that are not good from within the servant. Verily You are as good a helper as you are"

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Rubbing her face with both hands, Rini closed her prayer this morning. Planning to come to the boutique and shophouse while taking his son the road, a long vacation makes Rini want to invite her children to enjoy the beauty of the city. They haven't seen Dufan in a long time. Rini smiled as she imagined the laughter of her two children while playing to Dufan. Walking towards the baby's closet choose the right sling when used later. Rini is very enthusiastic, the article after giving birth is the first time she went to boutiques and shophouses. For two months he didn't see the boutique and the ruko at all.

Preparing everything from yesterday. Not to forget also mak Narmi the mainstay assistant to be invited.

Traveling far away does not make them feel bored, because they enjoy it very much. The carefree voice of Rini's children made the atmosphere crowded in the car. Mang Udin got carried away until he sang along with Harjuna and Aisyah. A very pleasant journey for them. The little baby in the lap of mak Narmi can also be invited to work together, not at all fussy as if to be happy with his two brothers.

Rini was stunned as soon as she got out of the car, and was the first person she saw. With a sumpringah smile Angga welcomed the arrival of Rini and her children. Angga took Pamungkas from the sling of mak Narmi, he smiled towards Rini. Angga who saw the confusion on Rini's face made her chuckle, Rini's confused face made her anxious.

"Harjuna told me last night, and I got late for coming to the office because I wanted to welcome you"

Rini nodded at Angga's description.

Angga cradled her baby and invited her into the room that had been prepared by Rini employees. Rini until the head geleng, Angga like his own home. Without permission, play in. Mak Narmi smiled at the change of Angga. Pray that the two will be reunited. Mak Narmi who saw for himself the struggle Rini felt sorry to see her mistress was living alone.

For half a day Rini was under checking the job she had long left. While Angga he was on top with his two children. Playing, joking in a room that has been transformed into that room. Mak Narmi who was in the lower room put Pamungkas to bed smiling, also happy to hear the joking sentiment between father and son.

At exactly twelve noon Angga said goodbye to Rini and her children, she had to leave for the office. The permit is only half a day, Angga promised to come again after returning from the office.

Along the way to the office Angga lips always smile. Yes Angga is very happy today, not just because he has met his son. But because today she had gotten a smile from Rini. Angga is really like a boy who just knew love. Just getting a smile has made his heart go numb. Angga scooped his face with the palm of his hand, inexhaustible with his behavior that was like a big new child. Today he is determined to win Rini back.