I'm the One who Lose
Chapter 4

Rini immediately entered her car as soon as she finished dropping off her two children in front of the school gate. Her hand that was preparing to turn the car keys stopped for a moment because she heard a message notification from her cellphone, she hoped her husband would send her a message. Giving any news so that his heart is calm is not filled with curiosity. But it turned out not to be in accordance with his expectations, the incoming message was only from a mobile operator. Rini's eyes were fixed on the image of the envelope on her cellphone screen, her mouth gaping after reading the incoming e-mail from the bank. Angga had transferred back to the same account number, the account number that Angga said was the wife of his friend with a pretty fantastic amount. It feels like Rini immediately called Angga to ask that, but Rini held back her wishes. Rini wanted to ask him directly later after meeting Angga.

Rini runs her car at moderate speed, she heads to Angga's office to find out about Angga's departure out of town. But not yet reached the office of her husband Rini turn around because he got a call from one of his customers who wanted to meet with Rini, Rini's loyal customers who have been for years. Since the beginning of Rini opened her shop business she has started to become a customer.

"Good morning, sorry for the long wait" Rini said politely as she met her customers.

"No problem. It's my fault, asking to meet does not make an appointment first. I want to order clothes for me and my kids, I'll wear them at the family reunion"

" It's okay sir. You're alone, not with your mom?"

With a friendly smile that always expands Rini to serve her customers, that is what makes Rini customers stay loyal to her.

"My wife died two months ago"

"Sorry sir, I don't know that. I am sorry sir"

"It's okay. My son and I have broken up. He was calm there, no longer feeling any pain"

Hermawan replied with a faint smile.

"I'm sorry to know, what kind of sick mom?"

Rini asked with concern.

Hermawan smiled looking at Rini's face for a while then his gaze led out the window that revealed a stretch of sky. This morning the sky looks very bright without any clouds blocking the appearance of the sky in the eyes of humans. Far at the end there is a mountain shoot mound that looks green and beautiful. Hermawan's gaze was fixed on the mountain tops that look beautiful today, reminding him of the face of the wife who has gone home. Feel the chest that began to overcrowd Hermawan took a deep breath to scoop up a lot of oxygen as if the air supply of life had begun to thin and did not want to lack. Twice sighed in the new after that Hermawan again looked towards Rini, the person waiting for his answer.

"breast cancer. Two years he fought the disease with great struggle. All kinds of treatment he went through. Me and the child also faithfully always give him support and encouragement. My wife is so persistent and passionate about treatment, hoping to recover and get together with us again. He spent almost half a year of his life in and out of the hospital. Our efforts are no less to strive for his recovery. But God wants something else. We're not allowed to be together much longer. We're separated"

Hermawan smiled as he rubbed the end of his watery eyes.

"Please sir, I'm sure you're calm and happy there"

Rini tried to comfort the person in front of her.

"I'm sorry, I'm even venting"

Hermawan took off his glasses and then wiped back the tip of the eye that is still seeping.

Hermawan smiled while nodding his head, then he put his glasses back on.

"Well sir, what kind of clothes do you want for a family reunion? is there a theme to the show?"

"Well yes, until you forget the purpose here is to find you. The theme of the event is no Rini ma'am, I only ask for simple clothes but the impression remains elegant. Because I heard from my late wife that you also opened a boutique so I came to you"

"Yes sir, thank God"

Rini replied with a deep smile and bright sparkling eyes, showing happiness at the opening of her new venture.

"Hopefully succeed at his new venture"

"Amiinu. Thank you very much for your prayers sir. May God grant"

"owh yeah, the show will be held in three weeks. Whisper?"

"I try sir. Here sir, besides our clothing store there is also a fabric store located next to the boutique. So, if you like, you can come to our fabric store and choose the fabric yourself. You can choose the type and motif of the fabric there. But if you are busy, I can send some samples of cloth to the father so that the father can choose. sample cloth can be sent to the office or to the father's house. Later there is an officer from the cloth shop who will meet the father to hand over the sample of cloth. For the process of workmanship no later than fourteen days sir. So if the show is going to be held in three weeks it means it has to be immediately sir"

Patiently, Rini gave a long description to Hermawan.

While Hermawan looks mangosteen mangosteen just listen to the information from Rini.

"Look at Rini, I asked for a bright but inconspicuous fabric color. For simple but elegant motifs and designs, that's all. For the selection of the type of fabric, I am sure that Rini is more reliable than me. So don't send me a sample of cloth. I'm sure Rini won't let me down. Seeing the appearance of Rini's mom who is always fashionable like this I'm sure the taste of Rini's fashion will not disappoint. So I just resigned the same Miss Rini"

"Well, sir, you and the kids can go straight to the boutique to take measurements"

"How about you send people to my house to take measurements on a child. As for me bu Rini can make measurements now"

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It doesn't feel like it's almost afternoon. Being too busy with work makes Rini forget about her desire to go to the office where her husband works to ask about her departure from the city. Rini took a long breath. With his lunglai walking towards where he parked his car, today his body was really tired because there was so much work to be done today. There are also some customers to meet.

The morning changes, the day changes the night. The late night did not make Rini's eyes closed. He sat alone in the garden behind his house holding a cell phone. I hope my husband returns the message. Yes Rini just sent a message to her husband through the green application on his mobile phone. But even though the blue ticked there was no reply from her husband. Rini's thoughts drifted far away, undeniably she put suspicion in her heart. And it was undeniable that deep down he also felt lonely. He needs a friend to complain. She also needs a mooring of the heart to lean on, and right now her husband can't do any of that. Angga prefers to give all his time for work.