I'm the One who Lose
Chapter 22

Angga's eyes looked at Rania Nyalang, the woman who had been his lover was teary-eyed sitting in front of him. Angga does not believe what is said by Rania, Angga feels Rania trying to trick him. I don't know where the love Angga once had for Rania, evaporated just like that. Now Angga began to realize, maybe he used to feel not love but just obsession. Or maybe just a runaway when he feels saturated with Rini. Angga sighed, at a time like this he even remembered with Rini. Suddenly his longing came for his ex. Really miss who does not know the time, why he came at the wrong time. Angga wanted to curse at himself.

Rania is still trying to convince Angga by showing proof of a pregnancy test. Her tears were still flowing, her lips were pleading. But Angga still does not believe it just like that. Until finally Angga dragged Rania to the hospital.

***

Rania who was told to lie down by the obstetrician began to feel panic. His face looked pale with trembling fingers. While Angga he is also the same as Rania. There is a sense of panic in her, if indeed Rania is pregnant her child is extinct is her hope to be able to return to Rini. Although Angga sure never do relations with Rania without security, but Angga also think about the word Rania. Rania said that the last Angga did it without safety while he was drunk.

Angga's eyes stared fixedly at the monitor as the doctor rolled the transducer into Rania's abdomen. His chest is pounding, please be anxious. I hope Rania isn't really pregnant.

"Pak Angga, Rania's mother is not currently pregnant"

Angga's body immediately degenerated hearing the doctor's statement, his heart was very relieved.

"There are cysts on the ovaries of Rania's mother, I suggest you both do a pregnancy program if you want to immediately have a baby"

the doctor again gave evidence.

"Ehmm yes doc, thank you for the advice. I'll talk to him at home later"

Angga said as he glanced at Rania, his sharp glances were seen once if Angga was very upset at her.

The doctor who saw it thought Angga was angry because he found out that his partner was not pregnant, as in some people. They will blame the woman if she does not get pregnant. Even until someone leaves his wife and seeks another woman under the pretext of his wife can not give him offspring. That is something that must be straightened out in society, but even though the era is sophisticated as it is now in fact there are still people who have thoughts of colossal and petty like that.

"Sabar sir Angga, you can work together and also pray properly. Ask the Creator"

the doctor said he intended to calm Angga who seemed to hold back emotions.

Rania went down the examination hall with her head lowered, she did not dare to look at Angga. He was sure that right now Angga was furious at him. Rania who wants to ask about the cyst in her stomach. He will return next time for a consultation. For now he has no guts. Rania doesn't want Angga to swallow her alive if she talks a lot for now. Rania's chest was pounding with fear, her guts were really shrinking. His lies have been exposed, he is sure Angga will hate him even more. Rania has run out of ways to get Angga back, the ultimate weapon doesn't work.

***

"Gue has to be careful about women. Crazy...he wants to cheat me, fortunately I had thought of dragging him to the hospital"

Angga muttered to himself, his hands agilely turning the steering wheel adding to the speed of his car. Like the one who chased the demon Angga so hastily left the hospital.

****

"Crazy, this office kayak has ancestors loe ya play go aja"

Aris entered Angga's room shortly after Angga sat down.

"diem loe ah, I almost got fooled earlier"

angga replied fiercely.

Aris laughed out loud when he heard the story from Angga, he held his stomach that hurt because of a long laugh. Angga pursed his lips to see the behavior of Aris, instead of being sad for what Angga experienced even he was so happy.

"From the first I've said, ati ati same it's a woman, almost got it loe... had lost the wife sholehah, almost slandered again"

Aris laughed again, laughing at his chum who was hit by apes.

"Seneng actually loe see I'm suffering"

Angga said with eyes glaring towards Aris.

***

Wallowing with a lot of work makes Angga go home until late at night. A disheveled mind adds to the tiredness of the body. Of course his mind is tangled, in two days Rini and her children will return to his house in the area. In addition to the school holiday time is up, Pamungkas is also healthy. Angga felt sad because he would not be able to often meet his children, especially Rini. The schedule of his meeting with Rini and her children will return to what they used to be, just during the weekend. Because of the distance that stretches and also because of the busy Angga work.

Walking into the house Angga sat on the sofa. His head was sandarka on the back of the sofa, taking a deep breath to reduce fatigue. Angga view surrounds the room of his house, a room that is not so spacious but quite comfortable to relax. With a television there. Angga remembered in the room that Rini used to teach her children to do PR, invite their children to play and watch TV together. Cartoon films that are repeatedly played but still do not make the audience saturated, there is still a special attraction to watch it again. The room was so crowded, so lively. Contains the breeding triakan Ais and Harjuna and triakan Rini who tried to stop the quarrel of his son. Floors are strewn full of toys and plastic snack wrap. Angga smiled, he remembered the moment when his feet hurt from accidentally stepping on a toy that was scattered on the floor. He used to hate it so much, often he scolded Rini for not cleaning toys. He used to feel very disturbed by the breed that every day slapped his eardrum. But now, after his wish was fulfilled, living in a lonely house turned out to make him empty. In the past he often imagined his house was quiet without a child and his wife would feel peaceful. But after it materialized it was not the peace that Angga felt. But the true desolation was completely desolate thus giving rise to a sense of emptiness in his heart.