I'm the One who Lose
Chapter 3

"Should we go there? is there no other employee who can be assigned there other than mas?"

Rini looks very sad when Angga tells her that tonight he will leave the city again.The article is only two days Angga is at home now has to leave the city again.

"I have to be Rin, I'm the one who's doing the project. Yes you should know my position is Rin, as a wife you should pray that your husband's business is made easier. Not even that ngedumel"

Angga said at length so that Rini did not protest his departure back out of town.

"I don't mengedumel mas, but me and the children will also need you. You've only been home for two days, now you have to go again. Two days at home if you go home, keep going overtime. When do you have time for me and my son"

Rini stood in front of the room door, her hands crossed with her face bent. His gaze was straight looking at Angga who was arranging a number of documents that would be taken out of the city.

"Yes you are patient dong Rin, later if the business has been sorted out, I will also not be as busy as it is now again. This is all I do for you and the kids. For the future of children, so that the needs of our families are fulfilled. Who knows, after this, I was promoted to the same position as the boss"

Angga is still trying to give understanding to Rini. At the end of this Rini is a bit much protest, Rini always protest when left out of town by Angga. Whereas in the past, Rini only kept quiet if Angga said goodbye will go out of town for work. Rini will be patient even though Angga never has time for her.

"I know, I believe that you're doing it all for our family. But mas, me and the kids also need your attention, need your time for us. Even if you do not rise to office, our lives will not lack. Even my income from the store is enough to meet the needs of our family. Me and the kids not only need money from you, but me and the kids also need your attention and free time"

Rini began to growl a little, holding back her slow but sure emotions towards the top.

"That's your income Rin. I, as the head of the family, as the backbone, have to fulfill your living. I can't possibly use the money from your income, I have to fulfill your living from my own sweat. The money from your store's income is your own money"

"No need to use my money for the needs of the family you said mas"

Rini's lips look shot to the side, she sneered at her husband who said very much in his opinion.

"Yes. I do not want to use the money from your income to meet the needs of our family, because I can provide for you. I've told you before that you don't need to work, just at home take care of your children and husband"

Rini took a step closer to her husband, her hands that had been crossed in the chest now moved to the waist. While shaking her waist Rini walked forward to approach her husband.

"Mas, do I need to make a list of our household needs so that you know how much we need in a month. So that you know think the money you gave me can be sufficient or not. All this time I just kept quiet, because I didn't want to burden you too much. That's why I work so that I can help you to meet the needs of our family. All this time I was silent even though the money you gave me was still not enough. I don't want you to carry the burden of this family alone, I'm dealing with you. That's why I work"

"Why didn't you tell me that the money I gave you wasn't enough Rin? your own fault is not being honest with me, instead choosing to work to help the needs of the family. Had you told me that the money I give you each month would have been less, I would have added more"

"Mas, how can I be honest with you about the needs of our family. But I don't know exactly how much your salary is. If I ask for additional monthly money turns out your salary is not enough how? that's what I think of you, I'll tell you if you carry the burden of this family alone. Therefore I am silent, do not ask for additional money even though the money you give is still lacking and choose to work to cover the shortfall. You're not open to me. You never honestly say how much you pay"

Angga's emotions began to peak, the morning that should begin with a pleasant atmosphere to start the activity even began with a debate between a couple.

"okay! now I'm asking, how much is your salary?"

Angga then fell silent immediately after Rini asked how much her salary was. His face looks pale and misbehaved.

"There are no reports of entry to your phone via SMS every transaction in my account"

"That's your personal account number, which is the account number from the office I don't know"

Rini rolled her eyes lazily, she walked to the bed and sat there. Rini tried to dampen her anger so as not to explode again. He was afraid that his son would see or hear his quarrel with Angga.

"That's the deck, don't get emotional. I go to work, just pray for everything to go smoothly let the spit be done"

Angga again tried to give understanding to Rini, he pressed his intonation as gently as possible so that his wife did not return angry.

"Trus, so answer my question? how much's your salary?"

Looking at the Angga who was just silent, Rini turned her face the other way as both her hands cremated the bed sheet she was sitting on. Her chest felt tight to see her husband's unhappiness.

I don't know why the end of this feeling Rini as a wife feels uncomfortable. She felt that something was being hidden by her husband, I don't know what. But her feelings tell her that her husband's love has diminished, not only for her but also for her child.

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Three days ago, Angga was out of town. For three days Angga only once contacted Rini, telling him that he had reached the destination city. On the second night Rini contacted her husband via video call but there was no answer. After a few minutes there was an incoming message on Rini's phone from her husband, Angga asked Rini not to contact him because she was busy day and night. Rini could only let out a long sigh, she could only smile when her son asked about his father.

"Prophey baby, I'm busy working. Later, if you're not busy, I'll call us"

That sentence is what Rini always tells her children when they ask the father who is out of town.

Two days have passed from Angga's promise to go home. Angga said he was out of town for three days on his farewell, but to this day it has been even five days Angga has not come home. No phone calls or messages were sent to his wife. Angga always refuses Rini's call when Rini calls him.

Today Rini woke up very early, she prepared breakfast for her children earlier in the appeal. Today she decided to go to Angga's office to ask about her husband who left the city. Children have finished breakfast, Rini intends to take her children to school and then to Angga's office.