I'm the One who Lose
Chapter 21

Angga hurriedly descended his car as soon as he reached the hospital parking area. His face looked panicked, he walked down the hallway of the treatment room looking for the name of the room that Rini had sent him earlier. Rini told Angga if Pamungkas had a high fever and was rushed to the hospital. Angga who just woke up from his sleep immediately ran without bathing first. Snatched a t-shirt that was draped on the back of the bed and then darted away. He wears his shirt as he walks towards the car garage. Random hair scrambling with face amburadul Angga go away just like that.

Angga immediately entered as soon as he found his room, Rini's face full of tears that was the first time Angga saw as soon as he opened the door. He hurriedly approached Pamungkas who was lying on the hospital bed, there were many hoses attached to the baby boy's body. Slowly Angga kissed his son's cheek, rubbing the head of a baby who was struggling with pain. His heart was so painful to see the baby in such a state, wanted him to cry but his tears were unable to drip. Like a sliced knife that is the feeling of Angga at this time. Angga then walked around the bed approaching Rini who was sitting on a chair. Rubbing Rini's shoulder slowly tried to calm down. The sobs of Rini filled the treatment room, she who was shocked to see her son convulsing during the trip to the hospital could not stop his crying. Unknowingly the ex-husband and wife hugged each other, they strengthened each other. Angga stroked Rini's back to calm the mother of her child, Angga knew Rini's heart was certainly more bitter than her.

Two hours Angga and Rini sit waiting for the ultimate with a troubled heart condition. Not a second Rini wanted to leave the treatment room, her eyes were fixed on the tiny body in front of her. It was as if he was afraid that the boy would disappear if he turned his eyes away. Angga still continued to be beside Rini while clasping the fragile woman's hand. Nothing can make a mother more devastated than to see her child suffer. The woman who is wallowing in tears is a tough woman who has gone through the process of living with a tough. With your head up, with a strong heart. The journey of life is long and not easy he went through without trepidation. But this time, it seemed as if he had lost his strength. He became weak instantly, like a life that was almost uprooted from a body. Sick without anyone to help him.

Rini stroked her son's body as soon as the baby cried while Angga ran to find a doctor. Two doctors with three nurses approached Pamungkas, Rini and Angga were welcome to come out for a smooth examination. Almost fifteen minutes Rini paced back and forth at the door, she could not sit quietly waiting for the doctor to examine her. Angga to the point of looking at the hardness of Rini, feeling sorry for his ex-wife. Even though he actually feels the same way. But he still controls himself well.

Angga and Rini breathed a sigh of relief once the doctor declared that Pamungkas had passed his critical period. Now Rini looks calmer even though her face is still shrouded in worry.

Angga forced Rini to put food in her mouth. Last day since coming to the hospital Rini's stomach was filled with nothing. Rini always shook her head as Angga offered her food. Angga continues to force Rini to eat, but unfortunately Rini always refuses. Until Finally Angga uses the right way.

"Eat, or I kiss your wayward lips"

threaten Angga while his index finger presses Rini's lips.

"So, do you want to kiss her?"

said Angga again when Rini did not open her mouth.

Finally Rini opened her mouth, she ate by being fed by Angga. Rini's hand moving will take the food in Angga's hand, she wants to eat with her own hands. But Angga quickly kept his food out of Rini's reach. Of course, Angga did not want Rini to eat alone because she did want to feed Rini. Rini who frowns because she is upset with Angga actually makes Angga more anxious and wants to continue teasing him. Right, other than he wanted to accompany his sick son he also wanted to always be close to Rini. She wants to take Rini's heart back, she wants to cultivate Rini's love for her again. The widower falls in love again, falling in love with a woman he once abandoned. His heart cannot deny that his love this time is deeper than it used to be, unfortunately this time it is heavier than the previous one even though the person is the same but it feels much different. For some reason, Angga feels lonely when away from the idol of the heart. His longing that always comes arrives, his passionate love makes him sometimes unable to hold back. For every reason, he'll meet Rini or call her on the phone. He is like being exposed to karma, putting love on people who don't care about him.

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Rania walked back and forth while holding her cell phone. He was waiting for an answer from Angga. Repeatedly Rania tried to call but none of them were picked up. Rania sends a message to Angga about her pregnancy. Yes, of course, pregnant temple, because Angga has been wearing safety when dealing with it. Rania is forced to lie in order to attract the sympathy of Angga. In order for Angga to marry her, the love that Rania has for Angga makes her blind. Throw out every means to make Angga his. His soul and mind were shrouded in selfishness so it was no longer the love he had now but rather an obsession.

Repeatedly Rania checked the phone screen, hoping there was an incoming message from the man she expected. His face was anxious, his fingers were clinging to each other. Feeling tired of walking back and forth from before Rania finally sat down, she fell silent to think about what next step she would do so that Angga would soon marry her. His brain kept turning in search of ways. Rania is determined whatever she will do to make Angga her husband, like a target in the job.

Rania's character was selfish since childhood, for that he did not have many friends. The only friend who would understand him was Supia. His mother's cousin was always willing to give up on him, and also always wanted to understand him. Rania who is selfish and willing to win by herself makes him shunned his friends. No one can be friends with him for long. During his time at the faculty. Even he did not hesitate to betray a good friend to her. Beautiful face, but the character is very sad. He likes to justify all means to achieve his wishes.