Love (But)Need Certainty
Serious Man

Romi sat sweetly and with a line of bright smiles adorned his face. His fingers knocked impatiently at the table where he sat waiting patiently. Of course he was happy and patient because in front of him Karina was making a lotto for him. This time he came as a consumer, besides he was the last consumer of the day.

No, he's not late for Karina's stall. Instead he deliberately came a little afternoon when most Karina customers were already rare. His goal? So that Karina's attention can be full to Romi without being divided into other activities.

"Now, don't design, don't pay" Karina said, giving a plate of fresh lotto to Romi's desk.

"Perfect !" tukas Romi then ate his food.

"Tumben is no longer dating" Karina teases Romi.

"Ohuk!!" Romi immediately choked. Not a good start of conversation..

"Embbhua!" (lengga) said Romi still with his mouth full of vegetables.

"Hmm," Karina scowled in disbelief.

Romi continued to eat his food (which did not take long to do). Karina's lotto is the best, or maybe Karina makes it feel the best. I don't know which one but Romi obviously likes it.

Romi heaved a sigh of relief and sipped a glass of fresh orange ice as a cover. Just at that moment on the sidewalk outside the Karina stall, a pair of lovers walked romantically hand in hand. The man wears a simple t-shirt and tight jeans. His hair does not need much tidying up to look clean. While the brown haired woman with a long shoulder. When viewed from his semi-formal clothes, maybe he just picked up his girlfriend. While walking, the woman leaned her head on the man's shoulder.

"Duh irinyaaa," said Karina suddenly sitting next to Romi. He was so fascinated with the couple who passed by that he was about to take a plate Romi he even so sat next to him.

"Eatya have a boyfriend," said Romi teasingly while slightly laughing.

"Hm.have a hard way, there is rarely anyone who wants to be the same lotto and fried haha," Karina said with a slightly sad tone.

"Importantly beautiful!" romi said in praise.

"What am I beautiful??" karina asked as she stood up and acted as if a royal princess held up her apron like a Cinderella dress.

"Don't see how many guys queue up here," Romi filed evidence.

"That's because I'm good at making lots."

"Not only that dong, if it's good doang must also be a lot of mothers here to buy."

"Mom's come here a lot."

"Where are the guys??"

"Cowok anyway" answered Karina scratching her head. "But maybe because it's cheap, guys are frugal."

"If you want to save on instant cup noodles every day," replied Romi again.

Karina laughed off hearing Romi's argument, of all her friends only Romi could make her laugh like this. Though their age is quite far adrift, but Romi who is not pretentious adults make him feel there is comfort when talking to him.

"What kind of couple would you like?" Romi provoked a serious conversation.

Karina looked up at the afternoon sky as if looking for inspiration. Romi looked up at the sky as if looking for what Karina was paying attention to.

"Seriously," he answered briefly and concisely. The answer Romi said was a heavy one. Weight to refute, weight to emulate, weight to understand, weight to do.

"For example," asked Romi again fishing deeper.

"Em the faithful one" Karina replied straightforwardly.

The answer that directly pierced Romi like a Poseidon spear struck his weak heart.

"I'm not really dong," said Romi disappointed to deliberately want to see Karina's reaction when he heard Romi disappointed.

"But I don't have a boyfriend yet, so I can't prove that I'm not loyal" Romi said in self-defense and he also felt he had no other lover than a couple of dates.

"Keep if there's no boyfriend yesterday-yesterday's the same way who?" Karina as if interrogating.

"Temen," replied Romi firmly.

"Temen but both ways doang?"

"You want to confide in secrets."

"Hats secrets while being hugged?"

"Relgan."

"That's rare?"

"Yes that's it."

"Continue?"

"Anu.." Romi.

In addition to the feeling of falling in love with Karina, Romi has always considered Karina's existence like his friend. So not infrequently one or two or three or many of his dating secrets are revealed when joking with Karina. No wonder that Romi could not stand up and could not cover his secrets deeply in front of this girl.

"Well, that's why it has to be serious" Karina advised seriously.

Romi looked at Karina's face which gave a gentle wobble. Even when lecturing he looks graceful. In Romi's heart was convinced that it would be more difficult in the future to just cast the shadow of the face of this lotto girl from his brain.

"It can be serious," Romi clenched his hands like a whiz on TV while making a promise.

"Hm. proof dong mana, just believe haha. because mas Romi is the opposite mas Rizky hehehe."

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A simple remark was a little strangely painful in Romi's chest. It's not that he doesn't like to be compared to Rizky, because it's a fact. But this feeling is more like when someone suddenly builds a wall in front of him so that he cannot step forward.

Romi argues that Karina may have made Rizky his benchmark for finding a mate.

"But he has never had a girlfriend, so not necessarily loyal dong," Romi looks for weaknesses behind the comparison.

"It is not necessarily if there is not yet." said Karina again look at the sky that is getting darker.

and do not try it first as well as you try to be her boyfriend, Romi said in his heart.

While Karina starts cleaning her stall again, Romi says goodbye to go home. And while riding his motorcycle, in his mind began to raging thoughts about being serious. The shadow of the faces of the girl who had been with him alternately appeared like a photo slide in his brain.

It doesn't feel like he's been approaching women a lot. And not a few that he managed to gaet to a stage further than just dating. And Romi somehow most of the time he manages to avoid making relationship status with them to be serious.

In the corner of his heart he knew for sure that he was not willing to step into a serious level. Even for dating, he has to think a little long. He does not like to be bound, he does not like to be disturbed by the thought that he already belongs to someone and he cannot move freely. Selfish indeed, but that was his current mind.

He wants to be noticed, he wants to be loved, he wants to be caressed, but he refuses to give a sincere heart to anyone...

Except for Karina.is that the way of her destiny? Romi can't guess fate, but what he clearly thinks right now is that maybe Karina is his life partner.. and reaching for this near but distant Karina might end the selfishness of a Romi..

Might as well..