Love (But)Need Certainty
Asterias

The TV sound that was playing a variety show buzzed into the background sound of the atmosphere tonight. Asteria opened her apartment window curtain and looked down. The streets today are so crowded, is this a red date? or was there an accident? Asteria can only guess. He rarely left his residence, his job does not require that he always be in the office. And he was so grateful for such a condition compared to having to get caught in a tight traffic jam.

Sometimes if you are looking at the streets below like this Asteria also wonders, is there Romi among the traffic jam is heading here?

He smiled to himself thinking of such a thing.Funny with his questions and expectations. Because not necessarily also Romi think the same thing. But he can't prevent his conscience from hoping, can he?

Asteria drank the warm tea that had been idle in her hands. It is very soothing when warm tea slides down the throat to the stomach. Invite comfort, calm, and also invite memories..

The memory was in the form of a shadow when Romi (who at that time he did not know) sprayed hot tea from his mouth because drinking it too vigorously through a straw. Though at that time he was in a cafe that was quite luxurious and Romi did not seem reluctant to act silly there. At that time he managed to attract the attention of Asteria who was still dating Khresna. At that time he just watched from afar and remembered the silly man's face. He did not imagine that he would meet again shortly after.

And yes, exactly two weeks after he met Romi back at the train station. At that time Asteria was busy wiping tears that seemed to be endless pouring out from both eyes. The stronger he tried to hold back the tears the more the tears rebelled out of his eyes.

And that's when the silly man reappears before him thrusting a piece of cheap chocolate bread for the 2000s that barely even contains chocolate.

"Eat.so as not to be sad." he said at that time and Asteria who was upset and sad received the bread without expression.

"let's eat. don't play," Romi scolded when he saw that bread was played only by a dreamy Asteria.

Romi took the bread back from Asteria's hand. Then he opened the package and gave the bread back into Asteria's hands. At that time Romi did not even ask what was with him who was crying. The answer, of course, is because he just broke up with his girlfriend.

Romi just sat next to Asteria without asking while eating her Bread. Asteria finally ate the bread, both of them sitting without a sound for some time. Asteria's chaotic mood made her not feel awkward with the situation back then.

"Okay, if you'll excuse me, I hope it's better" said Romi Rama with a friendly smile when he saw Asteria had finished her bread.

Asteria only replied with a smile. And Romi went away through the crowd of passengers and was lost from sight.

In the heart Asteria felt a little better, either because of her bread or because of the presence of Romi. His heart told him to pursue Romi, but his logic still hesitated.

But without thinking further, maybe also because of the messy mood, Asteria moved from her seat and walked quickly towards the direction Romi was walking.

"Excuse me." he said as he slipped through the throng of passengers packed into the station.

With eyes still a little blurry due to tears, Asteria tried to find Romi's whereabouts. It was not felt that he had penetrated the crowd of passengers near the exit of the station, but he could not find it. It was precisely at that moment that he saw a man who was squatting in front of the vending machine, Romi..

Asteria then stood right next to Romi who was knocking on the glass of the machine. Looks like the drink he wanted stuck can't get out. For a while Asteria was just standing, suddenly she was at a loss to begin.

Of course Romi heard.. "Sama-sama," said Romi with his distinctive smile glancing towards Asteria who was still standing next to him.

"Rome.." Romi stood up and invited him to shake hands.

"Asteria...."

And it became the start of a strange story but it scratched a deep impression in his heart. From getting acquainted. sharing stories.streets.to doing things like a lover do to each other. But not a single word of love has ever come out of Romi's mouth. Asteria never expressed feelings that grew slowly growing stronger binding her heart.

Maybe people will say that they are friends with benefits. Maybe that is the reality, although Asteria does not like the term. And he still holds little hope for the future of their relationship. Nor is Romi's fault entirely they have a gray relationship. Romi never confirmed the status (and he should have confirmed), Asteria on the other hand also did not really want clarity despite hoping like that. Perhaps it was the result of his regret for his past relationship with Khresna that left him traumatized.

He gave everything to Khresna and ended up fleeing the curse man with a more alluring widow.

Asteria clasped her glass tighter when she heard the name she thought was cursed..

At least with this kind of gray status he became aware that he would not expect much. At least that's what his logic yells at his heart whenever there's Romi next to him. But he could not deny that his heart that had been broken slowly re-arranged as day by day every presence of Romi.

Suddenly the door of his apartment opened and the sound of someone taking off his shoes and putting them on a shelf. Asteria smiled even though she was still staring at the crowded streets below.

Only Romi besides himself has the keys to his apartment..

"Hi.." said Romi, entering the TV room and instantly dropping down on the sofa.

Asteria turned her attention to Romi who was still wearing his work shirt lying on the sofa with a pillow covering his head.

Must be bad mood.guess Asteria immediately saw Romi's behavior.

Asteria walked into the kitchen and made a chocolate drink with ice for the man who was still lying on his couch.

He then brought the chilled chocolate and put it on the front desk of the television. He then sat down beside Romi's head which was still sinking under the pillow.

"Why?" tanyanya gently.

And then a series of complaints slid from Romi's mouth while still immersed under the pillow. Asteria smiled happily, she felt lucky to be the one who could always hear the story from Romi. He knows Romi even though he is a playboy, he is not the type of man who easily tells stories with anyone. And that makes Asteria feel special more than anyone...