Love (But)Need Certainty
Sofia Resolution

Romi sat on his bed with his back bent while his face was immersed in both of his palms. This should feel normal, isn't he used to just leave women without news?

His heart felt bad, his brain could not think clearly. He did not even contact anyone all day other than asking permission not to go to work on the grounds of illness.

He looked away at the computer screen that was on. Even the game that was waiting in line for him to finish looked uninteresting. Romi took a deep breath hoping it would help him clear his mind. But aside from his lungs which were now rich in oxygen, his mind remained as tired as the streets jammed the capital.

Romi threw his pillow and bolster from the top of the mattress to the floor in front of his computer desk. Maybe lying on a cold floor for a while can help cool his heart.

He straightened his back on the floor. The cold ceramic penetrated Romi's shirt and felt like it was stuck directly on his skin. At least on the floor is indeed more ademic than on the mattress.

Tok... tok!

Romi glanced towards his boarding door.

"Now.."

"Hi.." said Sofia when she opened the door.

"Hey... "

Romi was still lying haphazardly. One more.. Sofia can't keep me focused...

"Why?" asked Sofia softly.

"Not feeling well." replied Romi with origin.

Sofia took a bottle of eucalyptus from her bag and without asking permission to pull Romi's shirt that was lying down to open to the chest. Romi was shocked and immediately got up sitting on the floor.

"Just like me." said Romi took the eucalyptus from Sofia's hand and swatted his body. He meant to say he wasn't feeling well. Finally, he was wearing real white wood, even though he was fine.

"Sorry," said Sofia embarrassedly.

"It's okay.so what's up?"

"You coming with me?"

"Hm? alright.."

Romi was reluctant to go anywhere today. The plan was to immerse his head into a pillow and sleep all day. But Sofia's arrival made her feel that the gospel was some kind of clue to her. He had the opportunity to tell her his plan. And hopefully can keep Sofia away from him later.

But for now Romi followed Sofia's will first. He changed his pants and let the shabby sweatshirt he was wearing stay on his body. Who knows if Sodia ilfeel sees her slovenly self.

Of course Sofia doesn't care about it. It's an important day for her..

Five minutes later they were on the highway. Sofia seemed to be driving her car casually, Romi beside her was just pensively looking out the window. Look at tall buildings that seem to run against the direction of the car you are riding. Lamenting the dim rays of the sun that were blocked by the window film of his car. Wondering if there is anyone who is all he is today among the human traffic on this street?

"Thank you for coming along.." Sofia said while concentrating on driving.

"So where are we going?"

"There's only anther I'm going around. There's an apartment my father wants to buy.he asked me to look first. rather than mending himself.."

"Will there be Tias?" Romi remembered Sofia's friend.

"Ah not exciting.I always the same him almost every day.if not the same he.. yes the same you..." Sofia smiled.

Romi smiled back but only half-heartedly. If Sofia knew what she was going to say then her smile wouldn't be that wide. Romi felt bad, but since yesterday's incident with Asteria nothing feels good.

They then arrived near the outskirts of the city where there was one apartment building that had just been completed. Of course if Sofia's father is interested in buying it then the facilities are also definitely not standard.

"This is actually a used unit.the owner has gone abroad, but the key is left to my father's acquaintance." Sofia said as she walked towards the elevator while Romi walked slightly behind her.

Up to the tenth floor they entered one of the apartments there.

Sofia opens the door and closes it again as soon as Romi enters. The room even though it has been left looks clean and well maintained. Even this apartment is complete with furniture from the previous owner.

"Where do you think??"

"Good.." At first glance Romi even remembered Asteria apartment.. TV in the living room. sofa. although the sofa here is only a two-seat sofa while the Asteria sofa is a sofa L.

The walls are different.. Romi touched the wall covered with wood motif wallpaper. Wallpaper in the Asteria apartment with flowers and ivory white.

Why even become a place Asteria..

Romi follows Sofia who keeps her cell phone and bag on the table and walks towards the side window, apparently this apartment has a small balcony in the near middle room.

A strong wind hit Romi's face as he stood on the balcony. Sofia standing beside him closed her eyes as she enjoyed the wind caressing her hair.

"Rome.."

This is it. Romi murmured inwardly prepared also to spit out his heart.

"I want to be honest with you." said Sofia softly, her gaze was still ahead on the expanse of the settlement and the street under the apartment building.

"Me too.." Romi. "You first..."

"Honestly, I never met a guy like you. Another guy I knew had to end up chasing me. Either because of me. or my background.. but you're flat as if there's nothing special about me.."

"Sorry.." Because I used to be an acquaintance for your soul mate Rizky..

"No, no, no need to apologize.it makes me like your figure.you do not neko-neko. simply. You take care of me when I come home late.. even you want to suddenly pretend to be my girlfriend at that dinner.."

Romi is waiting for the next sentence.. It's very difficult.he can't reply to anything, because he doesn't have any special taste..

"So. I. I want us not to pretend to be kayaking at that dinner. I want you to have me completely. And I want to be the only woman in your heart.." said Sofia steadily.

They look at each other.. Sofia looked at Romi so closely..

Romi stared at Sofia... His mind ran to and fro looking for the best sentence to run away from this situation as well as saying his intentions.

"A. a. I can't..."

Sofia's eyes instantly glazed over. His confidence and confidence that was as strong as a rock broke into a grain of dust.

"A.. what??"

"I can't be sorry.."

"Why??" sofia's voice rose up while the tears began to fall on her cheeks.

"I'm.."

"Why???" his voice is rising again. "Is it because I'm less beautiful? am I not good?? did your kiss mean nothing??"

Sofia presses forward, forcing Romi to retreat and return to the apartment.

"Not that.."

Sofia's crying is starting to break..

"Keep why..?" ask Sofia sniffling.

"I. You love me. But I love others too. You are a perfect woman.but my heart cannot be with you.."

Sofia sat on the sofa covering her face hiding a flood of tears on her face. It should be perfect today.he chose this place so that they could be alone after Romi should have accepted his love. He first expressed love for men only for the sake of Romi.

Romi approaches Sofia somehow but she is eager to calm this girl down..

Sofia was still sobbing and tears had left her eyes unable to even see clearly. His heart was broken..

Romi's step stops when Sofia's phone is on the table. There is an incoming call via whatsapp..

'Sarah' and a very beautiful photo of a pregnant woman..

Suddenly now Romi's heart feels dislodged. His love was lost in the rage that was slowly burning his heart. His hands clenched hard, his mouth tightly clenched..

Now he knows the mastermind of sabotage of his love life....

He wants to spew brutal anger at Sofia. But he was not reckless enough and lost his mind to do so..

Instantly Romi left without speaking..

My life has gone crazy!...