Love (But)Need Certainty
Which is Still Visible

Today the tears of the heavens are spilling onto the earth with maximum force. Many people on motorbikes pierce through water curtains that block their view. Not to mention when it rains like this raincoat can not ward off water that infiltrates behind the cracks that open. Those who use cars are also no less difficult than those who use motorcycles. Deep enough puddles everywhere create severe congestion.

Among humans trapped under the rain, Asteria may be the only one grateful for heavy rain today. After a full day yesterday he cried flooding his pillows and sheets, now the clouds seem to be sad imitating his mood.

He sat on the sofa hugging his knees. The coffee he made to accompany him was no longer warm at his desk.

On his laptop desk is playing the impressions of the photos stored in it. He silenced his laptop like it was a movie theater without sound, while he looked into the distance. Deep into the sky behind a window that protects him from the evil outside world.

His eyes were fixed on the gray cloudy cloud, as if searching for signs. A sign that would probably comfort her heart a little that felt melted. Or he just stared blankly, seeing nothing but the memories in his head.

He hasn't even taken a shower all day. A few calls from the office, he doesn't care. Hungry that makes his stomach protest. It was as if all the feelings other than the pain he felt in his chest were gone meaningless.

Asteria's phone shook slowly next to her. This time Asteria really cared.

"Hello Mother.." Asteria tried to hide her soft voice.

[Hello. earlier why misscall, Mother again cooked earlier so did not have time to pick up the phone].

"Oh it's okay.I just miss Mommy....."

[Hm... This child is kangen-kangeen aja.. whereas the phone is rare..hayo what is the problem? again, isn't it?] his mother said.

Asteria smiled hearing her mother who could immediately guess she was not okay. His eyes glimmered. A mother's instincts in her children are never dull even though they rarely meet.

"Ah Mother. enggak. want to hear the voice of Mother only.." Asteria.

[Hmm must be a men's problem]

A guess that again hit the target. Asteria Day was a little stung..

"No Mother.."

[You know if the matter of work there is nothing must be immediately brought up, but it's the turn there is a problem with men directly like school boys.. Your mother is your mother, so it's a pity.].

Asteria chuckled softly hearing her mother who was so right guessing the problem. Hearing the mother's voice made her feel better even though she had not given any advice at all. For him to hear his voice was like a cure for all diseases. Maybe even if it wasn't because he wanted to be near Romi then he had already moved back to his parents' house.

"Yes, I'm not Mom. Man's problem." said Asteria gave up.

[Nah right.. you really.. want the same secret secret pretentious Mother..why is your boyfriend?]

"Mother's complicated." replied Asteria.of course she could not talk to her mother if she had a relationship without status with a man and ended badly.. Surely he will be lectured with a speech whose length defeats the opening speech of the UN meeting in Geneva.

[Well, right. have a problem not wanting to tell a story. how can Mother nolong.. what complicated anyways? the same problem is the most marahan girlfriend, cheating, cheating, being rejected by the prospective in-laws, getting pregnant!! watch out if you get the last one!]

"Hahaha no Mother, I'm not pregnant.."

The first time Asteria laughed in these two days that felt so long... His mother sometimes speaks carelessly. But that's what makes talking to his mother rarely boring.

"Yes complicated Bundaaaa.."

[Heeh. You are this.. Mommy wants to cook again, just lose you there is the same problem whether anyone is there. finish well.. inget-inget the positive side of each. do not look ugly only.. fight for what you believe can make you happy.has ah Mother wants to cook! ]

"He he. Makasi many Mothers.."

[Yes. yes.. healthy yes there. don't forget the new year home!].

The phone connection was also cut.. Asteria smiled looking at her phone for a while as if she was looking at her own mother.

He was happy because it turned out that the decision to call his mother was the right thing. Although it was not finally lifted and his mother who had to call back.. His mother always managed to lift the Asteria's confidence and spirit..

The rumbling of thunder behind the clouds still sounded occasionally. Asteria turned her attention back to the dark clouds hanging in the sky.

At a glance, Romi had penetrated the rain buying martabak only because Asteria joked about martabak cravings. Also when he and Romi fell asleep in a blanket through time when the sky was black and the rain was heavy. Exactly as it is today....

Given the good things for Asteria too many good things he saw from Romi. And remembering it even makes his heart more bitter.

After laughing, her tears came back..

Too many good things he wants to take back from Romi. Although Romi did not explicitly say he was leaving. But his figure seemed to be away.he could feel Romi away..

The laptop screen featured a photo of Romi chasing a kite in a city park. Asteria recalled that time Romi took her out for an afternoon stroll to the city park. Then on his whim he bought a kite and flew it next to the SD kids who were playing kites. Then with his pede he challenged dah one child pitting kite. And the end result can be seen from the photo, he lost and he had to pursue his batman picture kite. Not only that, other children also pursued Romi kites that broke up.

When he returned to sit next to Asteria and lost his kite Asteria had said "let alone kite will be lost if the rope is broken.."

"as long as it can still be pursued it means it is not necessarily lost" Romi said with a smile.

Asteria smiled as if she were in that memory..

As long as it can be pursued, it is not lost..

Asteria wiped her tears.he took a cell phone and searched the google page..

It might be free, but I have to make sure it's possible one last time..

Fight for what makes you happy..

I'm happy with him...

Asteria's thumb pressed the screen, and the phone line was connected.

"Hello. "greet Asteria when her phone is picked up.

[Hello Hotel Indra, India.].