Marrying Sergeant Major
~ 15 ~
I caught a different expression from the look on my mami's face as we looked at each other. He who had been very eager to eat the sunkist fruit, now suddenly the desire was dashed due to my question.
Looks like my mother-in-law was a little surprised, or not expecting maybe.
"You know the covenant from Bima, why ask mami?"
Instead of answering, she asked back.
"Mas Bima just said this marriage is only a limited agreement between mami and mas Bima, mih"
Mami sighed while leaning her back on the back of the sofa.
"That kid!!!" Mommy's fizzle frustrated.
"That deal is over, Bi. Why is Bima talking about it?" Mami re-enforced her sitting position, then looked at me with an intimidating look.
"Do you guys have any problems?" tanyanya.
"No, I just want to know the deal you made"
"For what you know dear, the agreement is meaningless, you and Bima are fine, so there is no need to discuss let alone think about"
"But mih, I just want to know"
I looked at my mother expectantly and begged.
Mommy is silent, like she's weighing something.
"I'm sorry Bi, my mom didn't mean to hurt you" said Mami finally. "But the covenant is over after six months of your marriage"
"Mami mean?"
For the second time, my mother showed a surprised expression.
"Have you not accepted each other? You've been having domestic relationships like everyone else, right?"
What do I have to answer? If I'm being honest, it means that I'm opening my housewarming to my mom, but if I answer that we're okay, can I make this relationship last, and pretend we're a happy couple?
"Arimbi"
My mom's call jolted me.
"Yeah!"
"You're fine with Bima, right?"
"Yes, we're fine. It's just, I'm a little bothered by that deal"
"Not a story?"
"No" I shook my head.
"Okay, mommy will tell the story, but I'm sorry about my mom and Bima if we used you"
I bit my lower lip inside. What my mom said, inexplicably ignited the pain in there.
The word harness, really makes me breathless.
"It's okay mih"
"Before mami match Bima with you, mami has three times introduced women to Bima, but of the three women, no one sincerely loves Lala. They only pursue Bima's status as a TNI Sergeant Major, they only pretend to love Lala. The women are really expecting a reward from Bima, eating Bima doubt when mami mate with you"
"How do you know they're just pretending to love Lala?" aska I want to know.
"They snapped Lala, Bi. Once when Bima took one of the women for a walk with Lala, he pinched Lala in front of Bima because he did not want to eat while at the restaurant, maybe he was anxious because Lala was very sensitive, and very fussy. You know for yourself right, when you first took care of Lala? mami sees you in trouble, but you keep being patient, gentle and affectionate with Lala"
True what mami said, Lala used to be so naughty, so fussy, I even had trouble taking her heart, but because I loved Bima, so much, I also felt sorry to see Lala who had to be left by her mother, so I looked at Lala with a look of pity. From there I promised that if I love his father, I must love his daughter. It was motivated for me to love Lala wholeheartedly. Then gradually, my love for Lala was able to defeat my love for Bima mas. Now, I even prefer to part with Bima mas than with Lala.
Lala's everything to me...
"Keep mih?"
"At that time my mother was frustrated, my mother really had to find a connecting mother who really sincerely loved Lala, so that Lala did not lack the affection of her mother, so that Lala did not lack the affection of her mother, so that she felt she had complete parents without knowing the disgrace of her birth mother" Before continuing her sentence, she had a chance to turn her eyes to my little daughter who was still sleeping so peacefully. "Before Lala can distinguish where the birth mother is, and where the mother is connected, the mother must have been able to find the figure of the mother who wants to accept it, so that Lala really thinks that the one who cares for her is her biological mother, so that Lala really thinks that the one who cares for her is her biological mother, Bi"
"And you know?" Mom switched to look at me. "Mami came to grandpa abi, mami cried pitying the fate of Lala and Bima in front of grandfather. You know what Abi's grandfather said after mommy poured out mommy's fear?"
"What mih?"
"Grandfather said, there was a woman who loved Bima very much, and it just so happened that the woman was not married. Grandpa told mom that that woman was you, Bi. Grandfather said you've been putting your heart on Bima since you were second grade MA"
Hearing the last sentence of my mother, suddenly my memory fell on a few years ago, where I was looking at Bima mas with a look of love, and grandfather Abi caught me. Other times, abi grandfather actually found my diary which all contained an outpouring of hearts about Bima mas.
Embarrassed...
At that time I was embarrassed, the contents of the heart that should only be me who knows, but instead in the know by the caretaker of the foundation directly.
Not only that, when mas Bima brought Mbak Hana to ponpes and introduced her as a future wife to grandparents abi and umi, I cried. Grandpa Abi caught me again.
Don't love a man who already loves another woman, Arimbi! There are still a lot of men out there who outweigh his goodness. After you study in college, there you will meet many men, you are free to choose.
That was the message of Abi's grandfather at the time. However, until I graduated from college, I could not change the name of Bima mas in my heart with the name of another man.
Until one day, Sosok mas Bima who became a dream since studying at the boarding school owned by grandfather Abi Arifin, made me prance with this matchmaking.
"Because Mami was afraid of losing you, so she decided to directly propose to you, that's where Bima made the agreement"
Hearing the word covenant, my chest suddenly thumped like it was out of control.
I flinch while staring at the intense mami. Waiting for my mom to continue her sentence.
"If within six months you can not love Lala like her own mother, can not wait to take care of Lala, Bima will immediately divorce you, she will even remain divorced from you even though you are pregnant"
I swallowed my own spit with great difficulty.
"Lala is Bima's weakness, Bi. Bima won't let anyone hurt her. And mommy is so grateful that you can get through those six months, you always prioritize Lala even have time to resign from your job for the sake of the poor boy. Until finally Bima gave up and tore up the agreement"
"I love Lala mih" I looked down at my hand which was still in the grasp of mami.
"Mami know son, and I beg you not to leave Bima with Lala, yes!"
Mami's hand that still held my hand, gave a soft squeeze.
"Lala loves you very much, Bi. He really doesn't want to lose you"
I know, but what about Bima? Could it be that she wanted me to leave because there was already a woman who could take over from Hana, and it wasn't me.
Seriate.